I have reached that point in life where I just am trying to push my friends away so they wouldn’t get hurt when I do something to my self. It started with that I started this year with a thought that I don’t need a girlfriend but I know that in the back of my head I know that will never have one instead. Because I’m shy, lack of confidence and I can’t make people laugh ( I have a sense of humor but don’t know how to make jokes). 

The one thing that has saved me right now is PHOTOGRAPHY. It has changed my view of the world and made me be more open. I talk with a lot of strangers and have a meaningful talk which is fun. Taking pictures makes me happy and lately, I even don’t care what others say about me. I enjoy it so what it’s my thing that helps me improve.

Getting up

People say it’s hard to get up on your feet after you have failed or fallen down, but I think we have just forgotten HOW TO DO IT. Everyone has seen a child, who is learning to walk get up and then fall down, but he/she keeps doing it until he/she can walk. In the early age we already are doing it but along the way, we forget how to do IT. Along the way, we start thinking “What if”. We bring up the problem we should forget but they stay and that’s why we forget how to get up. Forget the problem at least try because I know it’s hard but if you don’t try, you will be stuck in one place. This will help for sure because... thinking negatively does not help it only brings us more down the sooner we start trying the better it will get. I have walked on that road a long time but at the same time, I’m trying hard to get off that road to walk on a better path.