Sometimes i wish i wasnt alive. Other days im glad i am alive. Most days i wish id stop breathing, and a few days i wish death wasnt real. I go through so many emotions and sometimes death is scary, and sometimes death is peaceful. I wonder when my day comes, will ill get scared of it, or will i get excited for it? I never know. All i know is im tired of life and sometimes i love life. Do i want to die? Or do i want to live? I honestly don't know; the way i feel right...death doesnt seem so scary.

OCD and relationships

Its been a very long time since I've posted, but alot has been going on, years ago i had my first rocd thought but with a different guy considering this was yeeears ago, and it took so long to get over it mainly because i didnt know i had ocd and what rocd even was, and i wasn't on meds, and i ran away from it, i let rocd win years ago and it didnt work out in my favor. Ive been with my current relationship for a year and 6 months, almost two years, and i had random rocd thoughts from time to time...but i could just erase them over time, but for some reason, a few weeks ago i had an HOCD thought...that quickly turned to ROCD and it hit HARDDDD. so hard i could not erase it...and ive been suffering since.

Rocd likes to twist your thoughts far from the actual truth, it can make you think you don't love your partner, and you question if you actually have feelings for them and if you're losing feelings, very common for ROCD and it can literally turn your whole life upside down. Im gonna be makin blogs daily about my experience and how i feel from time to time.

Anyone ever seen Return of the living dead 3? 💜💜💜