Melancholy of Love

-Shre J.

My darling death, dawn on me as you like,

only if you bestow this plea I put forth.

Come as Aurora Borealis,

As sirius to the twilight,

As a regal is to the knight,

Come as my lover.

And if you may,

alchemize your face into his.

Mark my grave with his lips.

The lover's kiss,

Eternal bliss,

tainted all over my body.

End me with his fingers

The ones that voyaged me paradise,

urge those fingers into my demise.

That day would be rued by lovers before

and lovers to come,

Even if his shadow lingers along my last sigh.

But oh death,

Beware mimicking those eyes,

For the gaze holds disguise,

Don't even borrow the slightest hint.

For i could kill for them,

and could commit the heinous of crimes,

I could plunge to the depths of your abyss

and could bounce back above for them

I could even sprung you to your knees, dear death.

Would YOU care to defy?

Does this ever happen to you? when you're doing the most random thing ever like going through your phone, folding your laundry or walking and you get this fuzzy thought, its like there is a little voice in your head telling you that nobody actually likes you they're just pretending, you mean nothing to anyone, you need to distance everyone, you need to lock yourself up, you need are just a over dramatic little shit doing everything for attention. Suddenly your chest gets heavy because you love all these people and dont want to get away at the same time. You get furious. it makes you go crazy. All you want to do is run away and hide from this voice. oh but then you realize that there is no way you can escape, you have no other place to go. So you just lie down there sobbing letting the voice eat you alive, until finally fall asleep.

-shre J.

I've never been good enough. I've tried being a good friend, good daughter, good sister, good lover but somehow being just good is not enough.

-shre J

I found god in poetry. I believe if there's any kind of god (for me) its gonna be in these pages, the spilled black ink, plants, flowers, nature, the space, stars, moon, planets and constellations that I write about.

when you think you can fix him but he breaks you instead😌