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Not a Smut Queen . . . A Smut Khaleesi

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Multifandom. I don't break up with fandoms; I just take breaks. Apparently this most recent season of Stranger Things was dissatisfying enough to make me finally become fannish about it. Still in an on again off again relationship with the Game of Thrones/A Song of Ice and Fire fandom (Jaime/Brienne, Dany/Jorah [show only], and Jon/Sansa amongst other ships), Star Trek (mostly Voyager [Janeway/Chakotay OTP] and current series, but I also enjoy the other 24th century shows and AOS), Veronica Mars (I live a Weevil appreciation life). I cannot possibly list everything I might reblog or write fic for, so enjoy the ride.
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"lodessa is an amazing human! she can be recognized in the wild by her inara icon and is known across the land for star trek rpf and for being into a song of ice and fire long before it was a tv show. she is a fellow fandom oldie and we relate on many levels. also once she wrote me cersei/brienne so basically she is the BEST."

Preview from the upcoming chapter of The Backup:

“Well this is awkward,” announces Dick Casablancas, drawing Weevil’s attention away from what he might have been just about to think to focus on that familiar waste of space standing less than ten feet away from them with Echolls in tow. This place might as well be Neptune High with how constantly he seems to run into the same old people from there.

“What? Were you and Logan looking to avoid me finding out just how quickly he rebounded into your waiting arms, Dick?” Veronica quips: lazy but still more effort than Dick has deserved in his whole life.

“Hello to you too, Veronica,” Logan swallows,  mumbling and stumbling over the syllables of V’s name.  

The boy is drunk.  He’s having a hard time standing up straight drunk.    Hell, he’s probably currently blacked out and won’t even remember this tomorrow drunk.  He stops there in his train of thought, cutting off the realization of just when the last time he saw Logan Echolls this drunk was.

“It’s four o’ clock in the afternoon,” Veronica says, scandalized, as if this is the first time she’s seen Logan day drinking.  “So much for showing me I’m wrong about you.”

“Pot. Kettle, Veronica.  So much for this isn’t about anyone else, we just want different things, you just can’t trust me.”

So much for you are so sure it wouldn’t ever be me a small part of Weevil smirks inside, though honestly seeing Logan acting this pathetic isn’t even enjoyable right now, not with the kind of day it has been, not with how much it is clearly upsetting V.

“Clearly I can’t.  What the hell is wrong with you?”

She’s obviously pissed, but also clearly just as worried. She may have broken up with Logan Echolls, but the girl still cares about him.  Weevil swallows and considers how he should play this, what’s actually going to look him him having her back to V (which he always fucking does but half the time it doesn’t seem to register to her).  

“And here I thought you were the expert on that.  Why don’t you go ahead and remunerate every single one of my flaws? You could do it categorically, alphabetically, chronologically…”

“I’d tell Dick to drive you home to sleep it off, but he’s obviously just as trashed as you are,” V ignores Logan’s attempt to get her to talk more about the reasons for their breakup.  

“I’ll have you know I’m more fucked up than he is,” Dick insists, like it is a point of pride. 

And here’s Weevil’s chance to be chivalrous, even if it means chauffeuring these drunk assholes and having to spend more time breathing the same air with them.

“I’ll take these clowns back to their circus tent, V,” he offers with a sigh.

It’s a test, Buffy. It’s given to the Slayer once she… uh, well, if she reaches her eighteenth birthday. The Slayer is disabled and then entrapped with a vampire foe whom she must defeat in order to pass the test. The vampire you were to face… has escaped. His name is Zackary Kralik. As a mortal, he murdered and tortured more than a dozen women before he was committed to an asylum for the criminally insane. When a vamp… You bastard. All this time, you saw what it was doing to me. All this time, and you didn’t say a word! I wanted to. Liar. In matters of tradition and protocol, I must answer to the Council. My role in this… was very specific. I was to administer the injections and to direct you to the old boarding house on Prescott Lane. I can’t… I can’t hear this. Buffy, please. Who are you? How could you do this to me? I am deeply sorry, Buffy, and you have to understand… If you touch me, I’ll kill you. You have to listen to me. Because I’ve told you this, the test is invalidated. You will be safe now, I promise you. Now, whatever I have to do to deal with Kralik… and to win back your trust… You stuck a needle in me. You poisoned me!

after the events of the movie, edgin continues knitting as a hobby. it keeps his hands busy, good for brainstorming new schemes. unfortunately, as much as edgin knits, he never gets better at it. everyone gets ugly half-mitten/half-gloves for their birthdays until edgin graduates to chunky lopsided scarves and itchy asymmetrical sweaters. no one in his party has the heart to dissuade edgin so they all accept their gifts politely except for xenk, who is earnestly and whole-heartedly in love with his misshapen multicolored beanie and wears it everywhere to edgin’s chagrin

"So-and-so has a problematic kink" "So-and-so likes a ship I don't like" I've figured out which bloggers are actually cylons

Why are you posting discourse instead of helping me deal with the fraking cylons

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please tell me more about your Cylon test, doctor

*sweats* Uhhhh well it's uhhhhhh it's not ready yet

Question for fic writers: do you find it weird when people comment on every chapter of a wip as it comes out?

It's amazing and motivating!! Do it more, please!

Literally the best thing.

commenting on every chapter as they post is 'backbone of fandom' behavior

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Please please feel free to do so I would be delighted.

These commenters can literally mean the difference between a fic getting finished or not. They are a TREASURE.

It's also great even if the whole fic is out already and you're commenting as you read it :)

All of the above

I will answer every single comment too, that's how much I love every single chapter comments. Thank you and good morning, this latte and gratitude are on me.

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I will put out fics SOLELY for one loyal reader that shows their appreciation like this.

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ESPECIALLY for a WIP! Knowing what readers think about ongoing events and what questions they have is so important while I'm writing a current chapter!

obsessed with how jaime looms like a spectre over the characters and the reader alike in agot and to an even greater extent in acok. you've actually witnessed him firsthand a few times with characters like jon, tyrion and sansa, but most of him is just the golden-haired man haunting bran's dreams, terrifying him, tyrion's brave, strong, impulsive brother who has to be saved, the kingslayer of the smallfolk, the one whose incest and kingslaying has brought down the wrath of the gods upon them, ned's jaime, who is vile and never to be trusted, not worthy of any empathy, the kingslayer that is more idea than person for the younger characters like jon, arya and sansa, the kingslayer that theon almost crossed blades with, his chance for glory (which...okay theon...) the kingslayer whose vile deeds don't erase the fact that he is a knight for stannis, the kingslayer who murdered daenerys' father. he's mentioned in so many conversations. cerwyn mentions him to bran and he feels like he's falling again, renly talks about him and cersei with catelyn in front of brienne, brienne and catelyn mention him in their conversation when they're going to riverrun, robb and tyrion and tywin are all thinking about him. grrm does such a good job at just establishing his presence and significance (not only in the narrative but in a meta way as well, a hint for what's to come) in this world, which just elevates that scene when cat and brienne go down to the dungeons to meet him to an insane level.