pain is crying for your mother at 25
but you're also crying for her at 21
and 18
and 15
and 13
and 10
but you can't have her
because she refuses to change
and admit that it takes more than an apology
to mend a relationship that was shattered
a thousand pieces
glinting in the moonlight of my mind
glimpses of
me at 10
and 13
and 15
and 18
and 21
and 25
the one thing I want
my mom
but I can't have her
because I deserve more than gaslighting and manipulation
I know this
but that's hard to explain to all of the me's
that needed her





