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amiable sort of freak, just keeping pace

@lizardywizard / lizardywizard.tumblr.com

Cobalt the aquatic lizard. 80s/90s kid (I'm finely aged). Drake (wingless dragon) theriomythic, reptilehearted. It/its, he/him or they/them. An outlier, adn should not have been counted. Trying to act with integrity and kindness towards others. Avatar by @monsterbrainsoup; mobile blog header by @orbispelagium.

Name: Gecko

Debut: Super Mario RPG: Legend of the Seven Stars

Wow! What a render this is! I think that out of every early CG render I’ve seen, this is the one I can feel the most. This could very well be a blurry photo of a toy. A plastic toy, of course, but that really hard, shiny sort of plastic, that’s quite loud on any surface and makes you hesitant to play with it out of the fear you’ll scratch it or otherwise tarnish its luster. You know? I hope you know, or I’ll sure seem silly!

Anyway, that kind of plastic is a horrendous material for a gecko to be made of, since it wouldn’t be able to stick to walls anymore! Good thing this gecko isn’t made of plastic. It’s made of computer magic! The stuff Mario and friends have for DNA. 

One look at Gecko’s eyes, and you can tell that this thing is absolutely confuzzled, and has no idea what’s going on. And you’d be completely wrong! It’s dizzy. Just kidding! It doesn’t actually have any reason to have swirly eyes, but it doesn’t need to! Swirly eyes are fun and fun is what’s important.

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And Gecko knows that! It even has an attack called Fun & Run, where it will run up, lick someone, and flee from battle! I agree with that name. This IS fun!

Later in the game, you’ll encounter Geckit. Now, let’s go over what we’ve learned today. Swirly eyes do NOT necessarily indicate confusion or dizziness, and can just be for fun. Understand? Is that your final answer?

It shouldn’t be! Unlike Gecko, Geckit IS perpetually confused! It’s really far less of a threat than Gecko. I do not know why they did that. It’s not even for a pun or anything!

I am sorry if I confused you about the topic of confusion. Please enjoy Real Gecko Licks.

Before the rise of streaming services, anime in my part of the third world existed in two forms: dedicated pirates that have been around since they were taping anime in the 90s and used the Japanese name, or from local distributors that either made up their own names (fun fact Yu Yu Hakusho in the Philippines is known as Ghost Fighter) or kept all the names in Japanese while picking the most bizarre localization choices possible.

You all know Naruto's signature move is called the shadow clone jutsu yes? And if you're a fan you probably know its original name is kagebunshin no jutsu. Instead of going for either of those options, the Tagalog dub of Naruto mixed both and called it "Kagebunshin technique!", and THEN added the hilarious choice of Naruto needing to cast it again by saying "x2" for every single clone it spawned, meaning every time Naruto summoned a mini-army on screen he yelled "KAGEBUNSHIN TECHNIQUE! TIMES TWO TIMES TWO TIMES TWO TIMES TWO TIMES TWO TIMES TWO TIMES TWO"

Wanna purchase some beadwork? Live in Canada but have conflicting feelings about it's history and want to support the Indigenous people that live here? Do you just feel fed up with Canada Day nonsense?

Here are some beadwork artists in MY neighborhood that you should check out!

A few tips for young trans men/boys, transmascs, anybody who wants tips:

  • If somebody makes you insecure about your masculinity or manhood, 9/10 times, they're trying to sell you something (and the "something" won't be worth you fretting about)
  • Wash your face before shaving and use a good shaving cream. Always make sure your razors are sharp
  • Your body doesn't need to look like a Hollywood star's body. They are most certainly dehydrated, and they are not a realistic depiction of a masculine or male form
  • Dress in whatever way is most comfortable, including dressing like Adam Sandler
  • Military-grade is often used as a marketing scheme, save your money
  • If you aren't happy right now, one day you will be. This is a threat and a promise
  • Your emotions are not "good" or "bad," they are emotions. Let yourself feel them even if they are uncomfortable
  • Masculinity and/or being a man are yours to define, and I cannot stress how important it is to have a relationship with your masculinity and/or manhood that is defined by you
  • You're allowed to have any relationship with your pre-coming out self that you want or makes the most sense with your realization that you're trans
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Sometimes I make the joke about turning into a feral beast whenever I'm over/understimulated but it would solve a good portion of my problems if i can do this

the red eyeshine of the alligator occurs when light enters its eyes, passes through the rods (light receptors) and cones (color receptors) of the retina, strikes a membrane behind the retina called a tapeatum, and is then reflected back through the eye to the light source. most of the animals with eyeshine are, like alligators, night hunters who must make use of limited light. photos by larry lynch and david moynahan

Source: nubbsgalore
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if you turn on the TV to the internet channel, they're playing "my country tis of thee" off an old VHS tape.

that's probably not a good sign

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This is the video CNN has queued up to play when the world ends, if you don't get the reference.

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oh wait no one is going to get the reference because I said the wrong song!

it's "Nearer, My God, to Thee", not "My country 'Tis of Thee".

I got confused because of the thees.

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fuck it, it was a completely different thee. When the world ends, my pirate TV station will be playing "God Bless Our Dead Marines" by Thee Silver Mt. Zion Memorial Orchestra & Tra-La-La Band.

foone how do you run a pirate tv station. asking for a friend who is definitely not going to run a pirate tv station but has always kinda wanted to

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it's easy (assuming you mean analog NTSC. I don't know anything about modern digital TV. I'm not sure I've even ever seen it?)

step 1: video source. I've used VCRs, laserdisc players, and chromecats/rokus hooked up through an HDMI-to-RCA adapter

step 2: RF modulator. I use rack-mounted Blonder Tongue Agile-Modulator but there are many of these. They take RCA video in and produce an RF output

step 3: attach that to an antenna.

step 4: tune in with your local TV

step 5: do not exceed 1 watt of broadcast power or eventually the FCC, FDA, or USDA will show up at your door with anger. Definitely do not attach any sort of signal amplifier to this setup.

step 6: be cool, now that you have a pirate TV station

me when im reminded of the existence of a thing i worked on like 4 years ago. it's a stand generator for jjba. it makes really, really weird stands. no "random page on the superpower wiki". i mean *weird*. never finished it. would like to someday maybe.

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I got a centaur beetle that Skinamarinks poor people and a shark that fossilizes your bones

damn... paul mccartney has hands

me: “yeah I dated a guy in high school who came out as gay. it was before i knew i was a boy so needless to say it didn’t work out”

coworker: “damn dude was preordering”

other things this coworker (who is a cis guy) has done/said:

—got confused about why I’d never been a boy scout because he forgot i was trans

—told me he was gonna get top surgery scar tattoos to match me after i get mine

—laughs at all my trans jokes, even if they’re supremely unfunny

—calls me big dog (and him little dog) even though he is about as tall as two of me

— “I can’t believe she would say that transphobic thing to you. In June? Pride month?”

Brb replacing "I should" with "I have the option/opportunity to" in my internal monologue re: beating myself up over shit that needs doing. Let's see if that works.

It actually really did help and I did the laundry and cat boxes. Guess I'll keep trying that one.

THE UNEXPECTED SEQUEL:

"I should go do something useful."

  • The flat statement offers no direction; it does not lead to action, only self-recrimination.
  • The implied judgment of yourself as not currently being "useful" is toxic. It tells you that you are being bad and lazy.
  • My mom died in 2006, but sometimes it's like I hear her voice.....
  • "Useful" is ill-defined and an easily-moved goalpost.
  • The idea of people needing to be "useful" is the voice of oppression. Lots of -isms hide there. Including (Tim Curry voice) capitalism.
  • No really, literally this is the voice of everyone who has ever guilt-tripped or browbeaten you for not meeting their standards. Every parent, every boss, every teacher, every gatekeeper. It is the voice that harmed them so much they had to pass it on rather than reckon with it.

"What could I do to help myself out later?"

  • Is a dialogue you can engage with. Open-ended.
  • Properly frames any action as being helpful to yourself. It is a kindness. Kindness is important.
  • Sets you up to appreciate what you did later on when you say "Dang, that folded towel was real nice, made me feel real good pulling it out of the laundry closet. Thanks, past me!" Reinforcement!!!
  • Doesn't put you on the spot right now. You could just as easily ask "What can I do an hour from now to help myself out later?" as "What can I do now?" You can give yourself that beautiful airlock time to mentally prepare.
  • Being helpful, even slightly, even to no-one but yourself, is better for the spirit than being "useful". Capitalism doesn't give a shit about helpful. It wants to use you, and it teaches you that if you are not being useful, you are by necessity, useless. Our culture, based on capitalism, implants this toxic mindset in us in myriad ways, and we carry it into our private lives where it does not belong and we weaponize it against ourselves. Never think that your value is determined by usefulness. Even when you can't do anything, you aren't useless. The concept of usefulness/uselessness is an idea that means a lot when applied to objects. It has zero meaning when applied to human beings. Expunge it from your vocabulary. Do not use it for yourself, or for others. Ever.
  • Fuck capitalism. Be a comrade to yourself.
  • Don't be my mom. (Dead but also a bitch.)

Third revelation:

"I have to [blank]."

Not as good as:

"It is important that I [blank]."

"I have the opportunity to [blank]" sometimes isn't enough for tasks I truly hate and WILL avoid. How to overcome that? Certainly not by making it seem even worse by turning it into something I don't have a choice about!

I don't like scooping the cat litter or taking out the trash or brushing my teeth, but it is important that I do. "Have to" is not as helpful to me because it just says I have an obligation. Even if that is true, which it often is, I hate that phrase. "Have to." Ugh.

"It is important" reminds me of why I am doing it. So my cats have a clean potty. So my kitchen isn't stinky. So I get a good grade in Teeth.

I thought of this today and came to look and update this post. Now I see a couple people have mentioned something like this in comments. And a lot of folks are talking about the "shoulds" and their therapists and their personal growth or resolutions and it is so validating for me to see that.

I don't check notes ever, I had no idea this got so many of them. I'm very glad it did and I hope it continues to do so.

For everyone making the change, I'm proud of you.

For everyone who tried and kind of lapsed, here's your reminder: you can always dust yourself off and go back to applying this as best you can.