Makin Pies With My Baby Yaaaa

.....havent used this in so long but randomly decided to check it. Anyways, a little update. Life has been so hard lately. I know I don’t show it but these past two years at Davis have really taken a toll on me. School has been a constant struggle. I’ve failed multiple classes and have continually struggled with the rest of them. For a while I was so depressed because of school that I would actually sleep so much randomly throughout the day because it was hard for me to get out of bed and have motivation to do something when I knew I would just suck at it. There was a point where I really thought I was gonna have a nervous breakdown and drop out honestly. I was having so many random anxiety attacks but thank god for my mom. Last fall quarter after being so close to failing I finally had a wakeup call that I had to really put everything aside for a while and just focus on school so I can get this damn degree and its been going a little bit better. It has come with a lot of sacrifices though. I pretty much gave up all my hobbies and social life for the past couple years and I think thats whats the hardest for me. Sometimes I feel like I'm losing who I was before because I’m always so anxious about school I don't have a lot of time to be myself. Because I’m always depressed about school I don’t do photoshoots anymore and I also just don't keep up with little ass things that used to make me happy like finding hella music on Soundcloud and that honestly makes me hella sad. Also the constant struggling in school and constantly comparing myself to these smart ass kids at Davis honestly has made me lose all my self confidence. I think the hardest part of this all though is the fact that I literally don’t see my friends at all anymore and I just hope they know that I still care about them and hope they'll be there when I get through this little obstacle. Anyways, I have so much to be grateful for I know, but things are hard. They will get better soon though.