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Jun 13

Every time I see that Bar S hot dog commercial with the all girl rock band I have to remind myself that yes, Mad Gallica was that busy when they cast it.

New art challenge, the nameless ghouls with hot dogs. But those little bite sized mini hot dogs because we all know what happened with Mountain that one time.

Wanting to stay home or not today there's a real life thing to go do.

And if you're polite with a seller on line chances are things will get amicably solved to the benefit of both parties.

Now that the ghoulette beads are in a couple of ideas have to change. I ended up putting in eye screws, like with the Daft Punk Robot heads, so they'll be more like charms. Like the robots they're bigger than I was expecting, I don't really know waht size I was expecting, so they won't work for the one idea.

This will put the 4mm lava stone bead idea with the little black earring grucifixes and devil bead. Don't know what I'm going to do with the bigger lava beads just yet but something will come up.

Might throw the ghoulettes on a sting and wear them today to make sure there's enough glue to hold them on the eye screws. Dat Punk held up.

I want to make myself write. I have several stories that are well worked out and have extensive notes, they just need to literally be written out.

It's not a draft 0 in which I usually write by hand and just let the ideas flow but it's at a stage where doing it by hand and immediately making notes as new ideas come and perhaps even rewriting parts seems to work best.

What I do is have an initial idea, no matter where it goes in the story, and free write on it for as long as it needs. I will then go back and rewrite what came out but only for clarification. This becomes draft 0 which usually gets taken down to extensive notes, like a detailed beat sheet, and then written out again when it's ready.

Most times the only real difference between drafts is tense or the general tone. Some times the time line needs to be rearranged. As I've said before I have one story where the initial first locations and corresponding events are now a good 40% in to the narrative because I had to work out how to get them there.

Other stories have detailed scenes with just a couple of sentences linking them together. It was more important to get out what was ready to get out at the time then have the whole thing make sense.

Remember the doorway in Tigtone and Those Elemental Kings? No one gets thru for free.

Helpy has seen things, Helpy knows things, Helpy has written lavishly illustrated memoirs.

Ghoulette beads from https://www.etsy.com/shop/BlacklightGuided?ref=shop-header-name&listing_id=943325211

No flashing or sanding needed, the horns are sharp.

*I wanted to add these could make good 1:18 (classic 80s GI Joe) action figure heads.

Jun 12

Having to go out and do real life things keeps me from sitting at the puter all day and even if the arthritis in my ankles or what ever it is hurts it's still not sitting all day at the puter.

And it has me having to be here and now and keeping away from the thoughts of 2 years ago that want to take over.

What ever went on with my photos the majority of them all seem to have one date so I can't post like exactly two days ago. I want to post some of the pictures of the neat things I saw as part of the healing so here's a rock from the Arizona-New Mexico boarder area.

Eventually all of it will turn in to a thing I survived. Last year I was okay but for some reason this year, probably because we are actively looking for a place to move to among other shit, is particularly hard.

But this move will only happen if it's to a 55+ place. Mostly because if my mobility really gets crappy I'll have a higher chance of getting services I need. Dial A Ride from an old folks home to the store is more likely to happen.

And no fucking kids will live there.

My steadily getting older autistic ass deserves to live where small shreeking humans aren't allowed to.

Life has returned to normal after lock down because the screaming brats have returned to the craft stores.

We were at a stop light outside of a regular complex where we had looked at a unit and were thinking it could be okay when we heard a temper tantrum from inside.

On an unrelated note I wish there was an easier way for me to save yew chube videos without having the app etc because there's stuff I want to save for when I can deal with it. If you know what I mean.

Jun 11

How do you tell Mad Gallica that somewhere between what you now know is called demand avoidance and past life experience there's only so much "believe in yourself" a person can take? (personally I was made to feel how dare I even think I deserved to even be noticed when everything about my half sister replacement was so special)

And I'd love to be as confident as she is in her own skin.

And Sunshine is a perfect Ghoulette name for Sophie.

But if you are a woman or were AFAB and raised feminine and no matter what you do or how you try it 'self empowering' stuff just doesn't seem to get thru you might want to find out if you're on the autism spectrum because demand avoidance is a manifestation of what you've been told girls don't have.

Like other autism things it's something I still don't quite understand and I don't think I'm among the most severe cases but I have a lot of it and feel better when I have a certain level of control and autonomy about myself and my situations. I seriously can't tell how much is tangled with my childhood anxiety and so much of my existence in like the first 30 years of my life being out of my control.

Oh well.

I am going to put a Ghoulette mask on my wishlist. With my body shape being Cumulus is a good option.

Someone out there who is Cumulus shaped and comfortable in their body should go as something like Boobarella with a Goulette mask. If you've seen Mad Gallica's social media pictures you'd get the reference. ;)

had to get that out of my system

If your up tight conservative parents are going to condemn you to Hell for looking at a demonic thot you might as well look at a confident one who helps uplift other women. It's all SFW and I want some of those outfits.

Scooby Doo and The Mystery of The Missing Sunshine

The Scooby gang are attending a spooky music festival where Ghost will be headlining. They know the kid of a stage manager who is frazzled because everyone from Ghost but Sunshine has checked in.

Suspicions fall on the protestors who had threatened to sabotage the show.

Papa ends up in a trap and almost unmasked.

Aurora is there but got lost and misplaced her pass.

Turns out no one asked the ghouls if they knew where Sunshine was.

These girls ought to be in a band together, just sayin' ;)

Jun 10

When it comes down to it right now if buying printed t-shirts is how I cope then that's how I cope. It's the second anniversary of the most fucked up summer in my life which included a family member trying to steal my suitcase which had my favorite clothes because I didn't know when I would see the others again, bitch did get two other suitcases which I will hear about for the rest of my life, and at the end of it any I don't end up wearing or wear too much will make a kick ass quilt.

I am also able to recognize what's going on so I am able to deal with it and work on other ways to try and feel okay.

And other shit going on that I can only do what I can do about.

If you bitch about a free working iPhone and reasonably priced unlimited plan you deserve to lose your number and all the related shit because you want to be cheap and get a free phone.

Le sigh

At least I know my lack of motivation is because of my brain injury.

I'm getting the real life stuff done that needs to be done but it's the other stuff whether I want to do it or not that just won't get going.

It was refreshing to be able to tell the civil servant we dealt with yesterday all we needed was dated and time stamped print outs of something. I spent like 2 hours in that line behind some ridiculous people, I get you buddy.

At the front of every line that isn't moving is someone trying to pull a scam.

I did discover that if you wear a big gaudy band Ghost or other Satanic looking piece of jewelry people tend to not bother you much.

Jun 9

No way around having to wait in a line today for a real life thing that... It'll be outside in the sun, today would be the day the clouds go away, and I'll have to wear shoes when every histamine fire ruby spot on my body has decided that they want to erupt thru my feet.

But it's still not bad enough to make me want to go to a doctor.

By which I mean go to a doctor if you need to.

I am missing the feeling of holding a wormy squirmy puptato. I know we ca always foster, not at this location tho, and have an endless supply. Right now just being around some for a little while would help. Or like getting to touch a cat for awhile.

Positive interactions with other humans would be nice too.

I think I'll wear a Scooby Doo shirt and the Plushia rosary today.

I don't have a Plushia, I still want to make little rag dolls, just haven't felt like making much of anything for awhile :/

The Plushia from UnholyRosariesCo on Etsy with a mix of official Ghost pieces, three different beaded chains, cloud charms from Hobby Lobby, and a sun milagros combine to make something deliciously devilish and perhaps a bit tacky.

Still waiting for a ghoulette bead to arrive for the dangling part.

Jun 8

I wish I could shake off the depression, it would be nice to do some art or writing or something creative. But it doesn't work like that.

Did what I could do for my bead projects until the other pieces arrive.

Found this pic on the internet, glad it's tagged. I think I have enough real stone beads and chips to make a witch's rosary.

Catholics and Christians stole all sorts of things from the 'pagan' beliefs they killed people over so they have the right to take their sparklies and shinies. How many of the dates of Christian holidays line up with the pagan ones? Let's count...

9 is definitely the number for Ghost and general Satanic rosaries. 9 statements (commandments) and 9 sins. Solipsism (being self centered and selfish) is a big no-no so maybe that's why so many 'good Christian people' think it's okay to be a billionaire and not use their wealth to alleviate the suffering of others.

And if you're a Ghestie wanting to make a witchy inspired rosary with ghoul stuff spirit applies to Aether and Phantom.

Also I'll look more in to being a sin eater which if you go to a lot of parties and raves and places where people feel like they've partied so hard they're going to die would be a great service to offer. As fas as I understand basically you sit on one side of the dying or dead person, food (usually some form of bread) and possibly alcohol is passed over the dying/dead and their sins go in to it, the sin eater eats the sins and takes them on leaving the other person clean.

I don't get it all either, Catholics eating blood and bodies could be tied to vampires, but if you're already going to Hell in other peoples' eyes why not get a sandwich out of it?

My creative brain just wondered if there was a time Simon Gallup thought he was going to die, only once?, and Robert had someone pass him an ice cream cone across Simon's body so he could eat the sins. Then again sin eating seems like something he'd make Perry dod, lol.

When you have almost all of the components you need for a bead thing and have to wait for the one KEY THING for the whole project to come in the mail.

But it'll be fantastic when it's done.

Jun 7

Mini rant between pictures

~screams in eldest daughter~ You fucked it up, it's not my job, it's on you, deal with it, like I told you to what, a year ago?

The plastic plant with the fan shaped leaves in the first pic is Blue Fish's favorite plant to sleep in, it's also a bit sharp which is why is fins look how they do, but he's happy and comfortable enough to sleep for hours in it and his tubes so that's what really matters.

Yeah, no one told us that a Betta might be territorial and adding it to a tank with an already established gang of half a dozen skirts and a platy might not work but he's been fine.

Still it depends on the fish.

But he definitely loves the floating tubes and will push them in to the one corner by his plant.

I love that what the ghoulettes do at the end of a Ghost concert is called a microwave spin. More women's group activities need to end with hugging and spinning in a circle.

So much more I want to say about a lot of women's group activities but I won't at the moment.

But when enough is enough happens you kids who won't listen to anyone else will then have to spend the rest of your lives with the elders who have been there and done that telling you 'told you so' and 'you didn't listen' and 'stop screaming in the pool because you're going to get us kicked out'.

Got a few more pieces for jewelry to make.

Once all the parts come in and I make the new pieces I need to redo how my jewelry is hung up on the current thing I have it hanging on.

Look, I know you want to move, we all want to move, but maybe we have to hang out here just a little while longer because the place we're going to move to is still under ocnstruction and hasn't passed inspection yet.

I watch several 'why buildings fall down' yew chubers and I won't live in a dingbat, trust me. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dingbat_(building)

If these kids on the internet with their alters and genders and self diagnosed illnesses wanted to be disabled and needing care and attention so badly how come I never see any of them with the groups of special needs people when they're out on excursions?

Is it because the special needs people are better behaved than the attention seekers are?

A traditional rosary has 59 beads, counting all the way around, the 4 that break up the decades, and the 5 on the dangling part (along with the two charms.

An official Ghost rosary has 69 beads, nice.

If you're making your own it's 27-9-27 on the "decades" with one bead on each side of the 9 that has a space or is a different size to break up the decades and another 5 on the hanging part between the charms.

Jun 6

I feel so thankful and blessed to have 'crazy craft idea' money because we'll just say that after finding stuff I'd want was sold out o the website and going to several stores and being presented with things useful to the idea my last stop was Hot Topic.

No regurts and now it's just waiting for the stuff I ordered from Etsy to come in to make everything I have an idea for.

As I said, I'm thankful to be able to afford the beads and such I bought because there were times in my life where I would have had to work for a week at minimum wage to afford what I ended up buying. That was ~25 years ago but it still lingers in the back of my mind.

So now there will be several unholy rosaries, I might remake the Depeche Mode rose necklace I have, take the charms off that chain make something else, and let a few other ideas play out.

What I'm waiting for is a Plushia portrait charm and Ghoulette mask beads but I have a bunch of official Ghost things and cloud charms.

I also have something funky going on with my ankle bruise and stiffness wise. It wasn't something to be walked out, sometimes one never knows, but I don't want to sit around too much and get stiff. When sitting my ankles move fine, I've had walking problems all my life, worse after the TBI.

I'm also not too keen on getting started with yet another doctor. It's all past experiences and currently I'm feeling okay getting thru the shit from two years ago. Enough real life stuff is going on that I don't want to add a stressor I have little control over to it.

I have a bit of the morning to play with my new toys, might make plans for later. I probably could use some good beading thread.

Jun 5

I don't know exactly what type of unholy rosary I'm making but it'll have ghoulette beads and a portrait pendant of Plushia.

There are lots of beads around here like real black pearls and skulls and a coffin trinket box full of spoopy to chose from. And those rose beads from the Depeche Mode necklace that could stand to be shortened.

Three ghoulettes for the feminine, the five elements...

Really if you are going to have a graven image then Plushia is the way to go.

The topper is when you're out and about in any "Satanic" regalia be polite and well behaved and put all the brats raised by good Christian mothers to shame.

It's like when you put together an outfit think of it in terms like what do you want to be seen wearing in the background of a viral video about a fight breaking out in a laundromat between the type of adults who raise the type of kids we're all sick of.

For fuck's sake it's a god damn laundromat, we're all here to do laundry, no one is better than anyone else.

I really wish I had a real life person around me to hear out some of the more medium things I want to do and reassure me that it's a good idea and I should do it.

That's all I need some times.

Use the Flair pens in a composition book to write down all those shower thoughts and story prompts and stuff so that each entry is a separate color and easier to discern from each other.

See, a nice idea that will not only give me busy work to distract me from existing but will also give me a nice thing to flip thru and have something to ponder and hopefully spark a creative idea.

And I need to put some varnish on the Daft Punk helmet pendants now that I finally got screw eyes in them.

Delightful duet between Harrison Young and Laura Scarborough

Now would be a great time to do Scooby Doo style artwork of Ghost as they hire the gang to solve the mystery of Who Stole Sunshine?