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Lindsay B.

@lindsayb489

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โ€œGo and love someone exactly as they are. then, watch how they transform into the greatest truest version of themselves. when one feels seen and appreciated in their own essence, one is instantly empowered.โ€

โ€” Wes Angelozzi

I fall in love with people that donโ€™t love me back. It happens over and over. I pretend that Iโ€™m strong. That itโ€™s barely an inconvenience that their feelings for me arenโ€™t even a fraction of what i feel, and that it doesnโ€™t feel terrible when they donโ€™t choose me when Iโ€™d choose them over and over again. I pretend that every time I realise their feelings for me arenโ€™t the same i donโ€™t feel a gaping hole in my chest. I fall in love with people who donโ€™t love me back and Iโ€™m tired of pretending that Iโ€™m not worn out from only ever loving and never being loved.

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So one day I let my self and everything I held close to me go and said, โ€œthatโ€™s enough, thatโ€™s enough for now.โ€ At some point you have to realise you are doing too much to be there for someone, that youโ€™re fighting a losing battle. Sometimes, the next possible step you can take is to just stop. Leave them alone, let the idea of that friendship go, walk away. You never wanted to be โ€œjust friendsโ€ with them anyway. Donโ€™t ruin a good time you had with someone by prolonging it more than it should. Now Iโ€™m not asking you to hate them, I say this with the understanding that there is love in letting go and that you may want to remember them for the beauty of it rather than waiting around for it to be bitter in your mind. And believe me when I say this, if it isnโ€™t something thatโ€™s bringing you joy anymore and it used to in the past, donโ€™t make the mistake of sticking yourself out for them and watch it go wrong in every possible direction. Itโ€™s not that youโ€™re giving up, and itโ€™s not that you shouldnโ€™t try. Itโ€™s just that you have to draw a line in between all the determination and the desperation. Itโ€™s just that whatโ€™s truly yours will be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

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hey! lets run away together, i know you want to do it. all you have to do is hold my hand and we can go anywhere our hearts desire.