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Even if you called 6 months later, at 3 am I’d still answer.
I’ll always care about you (via jusst-breathee)
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10/8/14, 12:00 AM
Hi. I miss you. It’s really hard for me to say this, so I need you to listen. You cut me open really bad when you left but somehow I stitched myself back together over this past year. Then I saw you with her that day at our old place and all the strings that had been holding me together just snapped. God, it hurt like hell. I went home and cried myself to sleep that night. I thought I was done bleeding but my carpet is crimson again and my clothes smell metallic. You’re still fine.
10/9/14, 12:00 AM
I only want to know one thing. Why did you tell me that you loved me when you didn’t? Maybe I wouldn’t have decided to love you back if you hadn’t said it first. I don’t know. That’s probably a lie. I had already fallen for you 6 feet deep when you told me. By the time you loved me I was already 6 feet under.
10/10/14, 12:00 AM
You were my home. I thought you were keeping me safe, but it was you who I needed shelter from. Not the world.
10/11/14, 12:00 AM
I play our song sometimes and my fingertips burn and this bitter taste boils at the back of my throat and my chest starts to ache when I hear it but at least I can feel something. I’ve been numb for months. I haven’t been alive since you last kissed me.
10/12/14, 12:00 AM
I’ve been telling everyone that I’m fine. The sad part is that they all believe me. They all think that I don’t need anyone. But I do. I really do. I need you. Now more than ever. I’ve been having panic attacks and sometimes I just stop breathing and I know it’s not your fault but I wish that you would care. I wish that someone would. I wish you would come back.
10/13/14, 12:00 AM
She seems to make you so happy and that pisses me off because she can and I couldn’t. I don’t know what makes her better to you. Is she sweeter? Prettier? Easier? I know that you wanted me to be easier. You wanted me to give myself to you in full at any given time. I probably would have, had you waited. I would’ve cleaned the dirt off of the bottom of your goddamn shoe if that’s what you wanted from me. You just couldn’t wait for me.
10/14/14, 12:00 AM
Why did you want all of me at one time? You had so many pieces already, but you weren’t satisfied. Fuck you for that. I should have been enough. I gave you everything that I was ready to give, but you wanted more. You wanted more from me, but I deserve more than you. Jesus, I wish that I could curse you out straight to your beautiful little face. A year later and I’m still bleeding and burning and cursing and crying. A year later and you’re still hell.
7 midnights of missing you (via thoseconstellations)
got some cute pics of ed from the carpet yesterday
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do you ever talk to someone and literally everything they say is so fucking adorable and you just wanna talk to them for hours about nothing in particular because talking to them is the best part of your day