This may sound stupid or attention seeking but I personally believe that I am a chubby person. Now I don't believe I have a bad life or whatever, I don't get called chubby or fat apart from my boyfriend which is why I feel like I need to lose weight. Now he hasn't actually said I was fat but I can see it in his eye he doesn't find me attractive and he jokes around saying I have large thighs which I know he doesn't mean but hits me hard because my weight really bothers me. I just want to know, am I being stupid? I am going to start a diet and workout routine to improve my body and lifestyle but people said I shouldn't because I don't need to but personally I believe I do as I think I am a chubby person for someone who is only 5'4. I don't have an eating disorder or mental anorexia despite my boyfriend telling me I am facing anorexia in my mind as I believe I am chubby. Most people wont read this but if you do... Can you say if I am being stupid? There are so many skinny, beautiful girls out there and I just want to try an get that body but people don't agree with it. They say I am being stupid or there is no need to but for myself I think I should. I can't stand myself at times. So much so I have hurt myself due to my thoughts and anxiety and I just want I be normal. God I have babbled on so much. Sorry if you actually read this... My head is a mess 😔
