Sometimes, you have to realize that some people aren't worth wasting your time over or getting angry over. It's not worth it to give them the reaction they are looking for. It's not worth it to continue to argue with someone who you can never win with. I will always be evil in your eyes. A prideful, stubborn and ignorant asshole who promotes violence just because I own a gun that needs prayer.I've accepted that. I will always disappoint you, I will always need saving in your eyes. Your perception of me most days in the past were correct. But I no longer know you, and you no longer know me. You are not the same person I fell in love with and I know damn well, I'm not her for you. You need to know that I don't need your help, if I did, I'd ask for it. I know where to find you if I need you. But you have no idea where to find me. When you speak out like that, it draws me further away. Maybe that's the point and if so, it's working because I'm running farther away from you. I'm sorry you see my line of work and those that work with me as nothing but promoting violence. That is the exact opposite of what I do. I used to hate police because I was in trouble with them all if the time and encountered a lot of bad officers. That's why I'm in law enforcement to help change the way people see and interact with officers. I don't do things in spotlight. My job is a mission field. I'm thankful for my past. You are part of my past. It has made me who I am today when I don't let myself get overwhelmed. Take care. Goodbye, tumblr

Deleting my tumblr. I’m tired of this shit. I’m glad you now know all about me and that I apparently hang out with people who promote violence lmao since the police I hang with are weapon less just like me. They saved my life two nights ago. They encourage me to do what’s right and to be an influence not an influencer. Not that I always listen. These people will be there more than you ever could be. Because I let them.You’re so clueless. If America became a no gun zone, I'd comply.but I might just put it to my head and solve your problem because of never physically hurt you.These people care more about me than my own family. Keep on with your bad self lol. I’ve learned I’m hard headed and not easily persuaded but so are you. I’m agreeing to disagree.

Oh, and one last thing- whoever it is that feels like it's your job to report everything I post or do to any of my exes, get a life. To my friends who think I need to know what they're up to.. Stop.

Well, enchanted lights open tonight and it's lee night. Wish I could go, but for the first time in 4 years, I'm working. I hope to go at somepoint, but we shall see.

I wish people understood that addiction isn't a choice. It's a disease. You can't want something so bad that you give that up permanently. It's not that simple and never will be. If it was, I would've put down the dope the second I wanted something else. That also doesn't mean I don't love others. My mom chose drugs over me and keeping me, I know the feeling but I can identify with her because she couldn't get off the shit.

Thank God.

Look. I understand people are extremely fearful right now. I can identify because I have a lot of fear too. However, America (the electoral college vote) has spoken. Please, talk about your fears. Please, if you feel the need to protest, do it.. But don't destroy other people, or the land we call home. Channel your anger in productive ways.. Continue to love your neighbor and speak out what you believe for and in. It's okay to be angry, it's okay to cry, but it is never okay to destroy intentionally our home or our fellow brothers and sisters in America. This is what our enemies want.. Mad chaos so they can target us at our weakest moment. If I catch you burning the American flag, walking over it, Or defacing it, I pray someone gets to you before I can. If you can't respect this country or the soldiers who died protecting that flag.. Get the hell out of my country. Now- to the different races, to the women of the USA, to the different religions.. To the LGBTQ COMMUNITY- I love you, and I will fight for you. This is the land of the free because of the brave and I stand with you. I am so sorry you feel deeply threatened and afraid. You are valued and important.