the bad and borderline incomprehensible vampire show posting will continue until morale improves
i keep thinking i'm falling way behind on my deadlines for my second job, and somehow i literally always keep getting more ahead...
watching reddit go into a full death spiral is like watching the specifically trans equivalent of the library of alexandria go up in flames
like yes reddit is also the only place on the internet you can get an actual answer to any question in general. but it’s also a huge centralized community database about which surgeons will fuck you over, who takes what insurance, which doctors you can trust, how to write a template therapist’s letter, insurance appeals, peer support, questions that feel too stupid to ask anywhere else, diy guidelines, “hey this is embarrassing but,” finding trans people in your area, explaining why you need PTO without getting way too personal about it, safety tips, et cetera you get the picture
Someone on trans Reddit just bought the url transgender.org and have put out a call for folks to help turn it into a replacement (and more). Here's a link on r/ftm but it's open to everyone
Hot Haven - Jennifer McChristian
Canadian, b.1967-
Oil on Panel, 8 x 8 in
*the plans don’t have to be, yk, planned. You just have to have “im def gonna meet this person one day” kinda thing
been reading a john blofeld book on taoism while waiting for tale of the body thief to come in, and it's much more interesting than i expected, but every few pages i'm like alright. you're clearly trying to get out of talking about the sex stuff.
Am I vital If my heart is idle Am I doomed?
Imants Tillers (Australia, 1950 - ) Kangaroo Blank, 1988 oilstick, gouache, synthetic polymer paint 78 canvas boards, nos. 16231 - 16308 installation 213.0 (h) x 195.0 (w) cm
also my god were his previous albums bad. really astounding change in quality.
actually - unrelated to all of that, i listened to this ab-soul interview at work today (it was a slooow day), and found the whole discussion around his suicide attempt really interesting. partly just hearing about an attempt from somebody who didn't have any suicidal ideation prior - from the way he talks about it, it sounds like a vape-induced psychotic break? but also the way that he's come around to framing it as like, a very positive necessary thing that had to happen in his life, which may or may not be how most people feel about jumping off of a freeway overpass. but i get it! idk, it's interesting. his music about it has been really impactful to me despite it coming from a very different direction than my own experience, and...yeah idk. it's interesting.
Morning
by Frank O’Hara
I’ve got to tell you how I love you always I think of it on grey mornings with death in my mouth the tea is never hot enough then and the cigarette dry the maroon robe chills me I need you and look out the window at the noiseless snow At night on the dock the buses glow like clouds and I am lonely thinking of flutes I miss you always when I go to the beach the sand is wet with tears that seem mine although I never weep and hold you in my heart with a very real humor you’d be proud of the parking lot is crowded and I stand rattling my keys the car is empty as a bicycle what are you doing now where did you eat your lunch and were there lots of anchovies it is difficult to think of you without me in the sentence you depress me when you are alone Last night the stars were numerous and today snow is their calling card I’ll not be cordial there is nothing that distracts me music is only a crossword puzzle do you know how it is when you are the only passenger if there is a place further from me I beg you do not go
sideways because i have to beam my love in all directions, hoping it bounces off something and eventually finds you
“Eventually something you love is going to be taken away. And then you will fall to the floor crying. And then, however much later, it is finally happening to you: you’re falling to the floor crying thinking, “I am falling to the floor crying,” but there’s an element of the ridiculous to it — you knew it would happen and, even worse, while you’re on the floor crying you look at the place where the wall meets the floor and you realize you didn’t paint it very well.”
— Richard Siken
Source: a-thousand-words
richard siken really said "sometimes you get so close to someone you end up on the other side of them."
Feed a man an ouroborus and you'll feed a man an ouroborus and you'll feed a man an ouroborus and you'll
@pscentral event 09: comfort → comfort movie: pride (2014) dir. matthew warchus
And why should gay people like me support the miners? Because miners dig for coal, which produces power, which allows gay people like you to dance to Bananarama till 3 o'clock in the morning.