“I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face. They don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.”
— Jenna, Waitress (via hplyrikz)
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“I remember crying over you and I don’t mean a couple of tears and I’m blue. I’m talking about collapsing and screaming at the moon.”
— The Avett Brothers, Tear Down the House (via hplyrikz)
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H…how does it know?
soon as my fangs & antlers grow in and i learn how to open all seven of my eyes at once it’s over for u hoes
do you ever pretend like you didn’t see something so the other person doesn’t feel embarrassed
750,324 people whose mama taught them right
I didn’t get any goddamn engagement party.
There was no bridal shower & there never will be now.
I don’t get a fucking special day.
Because you’re fucking selfish.
You’ve been selfish our entire relationship.
You think I’M the selfish one, but it’s actually YOU.
You never put me first.
You never showed any affection towards me.
You never came over to my house just because.
You never were there for me when I needed you, when I begged you to be.
You never gave me any hugs or kisses without expecting me to FUCK you. It was always about when you could get laid, never about how sweet you could be.
& Now you’re even more selfish.
You joined the goddamn Army.
& You expect me to just be okay with it & move on. Be proud of you. Support you. Be on your side! Send you fucking care packages & letters... even though you never do any of that for me.
You hardly ever saw me when I was at college... which was in the same state & I was only 2 hours away. But it was sooooo hard for you to drive that distance! Except I did it for you every fucking goddamn weekend, just to see you for a short time & then turn around & drive 2 hours back, wasting my gas & time & putting unnessary miles on my car for a selfish prick who never said thank you or acknowledged how hard that was for me.
You never got me anything for my birthday for the past 3 years... while I spend money I didn’t have on your birthday present that you would toss aside & ignore & not even say thank you. Instead, you belittled me & bashed what I got you.
You never just rubbed my back or my feet because you knew I was in pain. I always had to tell you. & Even then, your selfish ass couldn’t do it for more than a minute without complaining. “Wahhh, my mom made me do this a lot so I don’t want to take care of you now!”
You never paid attention to me when we went out anywhere or to parties. You’d ignore me & push me off of you if I tried to hug you. “Why do you have to do this when we’re around people?” If you don’t like PDA, say it. Don’t be a goddamn prick. Why is it so wrong to hug my fucking fiancé? Why is it wrong to want him to hug me back, like every other couple?
Our friends even saw how you ignored me & belittled me & threw me aside like shit. Ask any of them. Ask them “did I treat Laura right?” & you’ll get a resounding “NO.”
Cuz you’re the selfish fucking prick.
I “complain” about you because I’m so sick of being treated like shit. I “complain” about you because you’ve been a goddamn asshole the past 6 years. & You expect me to just DEAL with it.
Now you expect me to deal with it for another 3 years. & When you change into a narcissistic, degrading, belligerent asshole because of the military, you expect me to deal with that too. Just stay with you cuz you put a goddamn ring on my finger.
& That’s what held me for so long. I stayed because we were engaged. I thought you’d change. You’d show glimmers of hope that you would but then a week later, you’d go back to being a selfish, heartless, emotionless asshole.
You betrayed me. You ruined me.
You ruined our engagement.
I don’t trust you.
& It may be stupid, but I don’t trust you even more now with our messages & your new phone. & I don’t trust how many times it goes off because of a new notification or new text. I don’t trust it when you say “did you go through my phone?”
I just do not trust you anymore.
& I hate you for that. I hate what you’ve done to me.
I hate how you’ve made me like this.
You got your “special day.” You got your “going away” party. You’ll get your “welcome home” party after 3 years as well.
But I never get any bridal shower. I never got any engagement party. I will never get a bachelorette party. I will never get a proper, real wedding.
I will never have any actual, true, real Love, because you’re a selfish prick. Because you don’t believe in that. Walking down the aisle in a wedding dress, my dad giving me away, saying our vows & “I do” & showing our Love for each other in front of everyone to have a day to ourselves... I will never know what that is like because I don’t have someone who Loves me like that.
So I am not the selfish one. I am allowed to be this pissed off. I am allowed to be like this.
& I will not forgive you for this. Of all things, this is unforgivable. & I will resent you for what you’ve done to us now.
You have ruined us. For the next 3 years, you have lost me. You have willingly done something to lose me.
You don’t think. You never think.
Remember that. For the next 3 years, you have ruined what could have been our life. A good life. A normal fucking relationship.
I hope that stays with you & eats away at you. & When you lose me because you’re such a goddamn selfish prick, I hope that kills you.
I hope that ruins you.
It took me time to understand that having someone in my life that… I’d do fucking anything to see Sophie for an hour.
Joe Jonas on Sophie Turner in Chasing Happiness (2019)
