u know what u need to do? Hear me out for a sec

U should get out of the same depressive thought patterns u go thru every day. Getting in environments & listening to songs that trigger the same ruminating thoughts is hurting you. 

Instead of cycling around the same hopelessness: feel the breath in your chest, push yourself out your comfort zone, get better at something, take risks, roll the windows down and blast j.cole (personal favorite therapy). 

“you can’t posses people, only experience them”

telling the truth. being honest. being whole. being present. letting yourself feel and fall and sometimes crash and burn.