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Dragon's Lair

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Here you will find multifandom stuff (check tags for details). Other interests may appear such as videogames in general, politics, science, languages, Latino América, sexism, racism and lgbt issues and personal shit. 99% of posts are queued.

I LOVE being alive so I can be mediocre at SO many different hobbies

People in the tags keep saying this but unironically but this WAS unironic I actually do have hobbies and I am mediocre at them. And they do make me happy anyway

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The conversation around media piracy is never really going to be a black-and-white "always good" or "always bad," because it's so situational.

I'd really prefer people didn't pirate my book, because I am an independent, self-published author who makes like thirty cents per sale and regularly has to e-beg in order to get groceries. Maybe don't pirate from people in my situation.

Meanwhile, it's currently very imperative that people preserve as many things being purged from HBO Max as possible, because even the creators are saying they don't know the fate of the shows right now. The corporations that own everything are screwing people over and restricting access to the art.

Authors have been screwed over by publishing houses over book piracy issues, and legitimate sales numbers can sometimes make or break an author's career. In that sort of circumstance you should get books through shops or the local library, if you can.

But on the flip side, I recently tried very hard to go through legal sources to get my hands on some books for a project I'm working on. Half my booklist is out of print or hard to find, the local libraries didn't have it, the inter-library loan system was complicated to navigate, and the only "accessible" copies cost almost $100 on Thriftbooks. Pirating the PDFs is the only way I'm able to read them at all, just like several documentaries I downloaded that are only available through paid streaming services I can't afford.

Sometimes piracy is a dick move, sometimes it's vital to media preservation, sometimes it's a grey area, most of the time you've gotta make a personal judgment call on what constitutes "ethical piracy."

I generally adhere to the guideline "fuck over as few artists as possible; fuck over corporations as much as you can."

I've been watching some videos about plot choices in DA:O and DA2 that I've never seen, and Merrill has this amazing line in the Gallows at the end of Act 3, if you side against her and the mages. It speaks to everything I adore about her character, and sums up the central conflict of the entire Dragon Age series so poignantly:

"If I leave these mages to die, or I help you kill them, what then? Magic can't be made safe, and it can't be destroyed. Fear makes men more dangerous than magic ever could."

That's the thing I love about Merrill. Out of all the mages we encounter throughout the series, on both sides of the mage-templar conflict, Merrill has always been the one who, despite her flaws, or maybe because of them, understands the hard truths about magic that almost no one else seems able or willing to accept.

This line in the Gallows reminds me of another line she has, a banter line with Anders after Justice takes over and almost kills that one girl.

Merrill: Are you all right?
Anders: I nearly killed an innocent girl. How could I be all right? There's no definition of "all right" that fits this state.
Merrill: I'm sorry.
Anders: You're sorry? For me? This could be you. You could be the next monster threatening helpless girls.
Merrill: Anders, there's no such thing as a good spirit. There never was. All spirits are dangerous. I understood that. I'm sorry that you didn't.

Merrill understands that magic is not safe, and will never be safe. And until the rest of Thedas is ready to accept that, the mage-templar conflict will never end. Because until you can accept that there's no silver bullet solution to the problem of dangerous spirits and mages who choose to hurt people, you'll never be willing to do the hard work it takes to co-exist.

#i keep repeating that the best way to make magic as safe as possible is within the avvar#they truly have a good system for magic#they dont fear it but use it#and they feed good spirits to help them in that endevour#Merril has a common perfection of magic among the Dalish#they know their keepers can be dangerous#and we have some examples of clans being slaughtered because their keepers did things too dangerous#mihris' clan is one of them#so far we found keepers... most of them perceive magic as dangerous#marethari even prefered not to recover ancient magic because it was a deal with a pride spirit/demon#in general merril shows the common mindset of the dalish keepers: they know they are a danger#they know that once a keeper is lost the clan has to hunt them down and kill them#and they also know that their keepers sometimes do risky things in order to *recover lost lore*#even Solas who is a char who has the true understanding of all the lore of the world of thedas says that magic is dangerous depending on#which hands handle it#denying the danger that magic and mages represent in thedas is not understanding the main plot of DA series#the big question is what to do with these people who are dangerous but not evil-in most cases-?#and that's where we find the wonderful ethical conflicts in DA series#Templar and the Chantry in general keep doing the WORST that you can do to make mages dangerous... like lorewise the way they tell you to#treat spirits makes the spirit dangerous and the mages at the highest risk#Dalish are a middle ground#and the best one in treating the mage danger are the avvar#Tevinter is just a disaster that I suspect reflects very accurately how the Evanuris behaved when they were after Divinity
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"I can fix him" not in a "I can make him into a better person" way but in a "if he was my character I would've handled his story better" way

I’ve noticed lately that it’s often Americans who leave tags like “I don’t even care if it’s made up” on posts I make that are not particularly unbelievable, but are pretty specific to my way of life or corner of the world (like the one about the cheese vendor). It reminds me of that tweet that was circulating, that said Americans have a “medieval peasant scale of worldview”—I mean, if you don’t want to be perceived this way by the rest of the world maybe don’t go around social media saying that if a cultural concept or way of life sounds unfamiliar it must be made up?

It’s the imbalance that’s annoying, because like—when I mentioned having no mobile network around here I had people giving me info about Verizon to fix my problem. I post some rural pic and someone says it must be somewhere in the Midwest because the Southwest doesn’t look like this. My post about my postwoman has thousands of Americans assuming it’s about the USPS. On my post about my architect there’s someone saying “it’s because architecture is an impacted major” and other irrelevant stuff about how architecture is taught in the US. This kind of thing happens so so so often and I’m expected to be familiar with the concepts of Verizon and the Midwest and impacted majors and the USPS and meanwhile I make a post about my daily life and Americans in the notes are debating like “dunno if real. it sounds made up”

Going online for the rest of the world means having to keep in mind an insane amount of hyperspecific trivia about American culture while going online for Americans means having to keep in mind that the rest of the world really exists I guess