drowned in moonlight

you had me, all of me, and i was begging you to love me … i shouldn’t have had to beg

i have absolutely nobody to talk to right now. i have completely closed myself off from everyone that only had good intentions.

my friends’ replies are getting longer and longer between texts. my mom never comforts me. my dad will only talk to me during our “appointment time.” my sister is always too busy.

somehow i always say the wrong thing, so it makes sense for me to avoid saying anything at all. why speak when every word is met with silence?

i am actually screaming for help and nobody’s listening. i’m drowning and my arms are getting tired from staying afloat.

i have shut down.