Saw my dad for the first time in 10 years
Being so far from my family is hard af! Especially when shit keeps hitting the fan for me.
stop calling people sensitive just bc you don’t want to try to understand what they’re feeling
It sucks that sometimes you do have to choose your solitude over company but if that means you’re protecting yourself then chose your solitude every-time
I am down bad v.v a bitch never been this stressed, tired, and sad. Praying everyday that I can reach the light at the end of this tunnel.
I could’ve and would’ve without any hesitation bet my life on that certain ppl rocked with me the way I rocked with and for them. Guess what that would’ve cost me? My life. I’ve just been observing and taking mental notes. I do fuck up here and there, not here to play no victim but I’m fuckin genuine. Always, every move. I thought everyone I surrounded myself with also had that instilled in them. Lately I been getting wrapped up in shit that doesn’t make me feel good. Ppl be in my phone and in my face damn near every single day, privately confiding in me, talking shit about they “besties” to me, venting to me, crying to me, looking for me! Bc Im real ass bitch! And that makes me feel good, I love being a safe place for ppl I LOVE but what I really do not like is that on social media/ in public shit ain’t never about me. They praising the same mfs they was in my ear about. I don’t do anything for praise but it’s nice to feel loved and appreciated. I never get that. Even friends love me on the low and behind closed doors. Every fuckin body that I give my time to only “love” me under wraps. Why? Wtf do I be doing?? It’s all good tho. My life is about ME and that’s the time I’m on. That’s how I’m moving now. Don’t like it, I’m out. Not making me feel good, I’m out. Not benefiting me in anyway, I’m out. I like to talk about shit but I’m also done doing that. That’s what you’re on? Cool. That’s what you believe? Cool. I’m me and I’m only ever gonna be me! I’m not stressing over anything and anyone any fuckin longer. I feel good. A lil sad but I’m good. I’m 21 like???? Wtf am I trippin about yo. Ima keep my mind on this money tho, I have shit I’m working on. That’s what I’m on.
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that kind of anxiety that's not a panic attack but just a constantly racing heart and the feeling that you did something wrong or that something isn't right is just plain awful
