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Have you ever read something that deep inside broke you. Feelings like sadness and anxiety slowly takes in. You get nervous and tears are waiting to run down your cheeks. Even though you know you're hurt and sad, you just can't stop watching whatever made you feel that way.

Well that's basically what just happened to me right now. I was feeling great, life was great. I was proud of myself for trying my best even though my depression never goes away. All my effort made me feel proud of myself and i was happy. But then i saw that little thing that ruined everything. I kinda saw that coming. I guess that's the reason to why i'm not crying like i used to do. I don't feel anything. No emotions. Just emptiness. But i don't wanna feel like this. I wanna be happy. I see people achieving so much and living their dreamlife. I wanna be one of those people. There's so much i want to do, but i'm not doing anything to even achieve it. My life feels so boring. Just waking up everymorning, going to school and being there for 8 hours, with people that i'm supposed to call friends. And then going home tondo homework and then sleep and repeat all over again.

I feel so alone. I dreft appart from all my friends. When something exiting happens to me, i just really wanna tell someone about it, but i can't. There's no one to tell. My life is hell.

They say life is a gift, in that case i don't want it. I know life is supposed to have up and downs but i don't believe that anyone is supposed to feel this way for so long. When will everything turn to the good part? When is everything gonna be alright? When i'm a gonna meet someone that understands me and is like me? When will these feelings of emptiness and loneliness stop ruining my life??