kyleigh

What a small person.

MERLIN | 1x05 “Lancelot”

I’d lose interest if I found out it wasn’t about horses too

if i speak….

will you just let me be silly for a sec. there's this dread so ancient in me

I don't think people actually get scared about horror movies I think they're lying about that for clit

where is the evil version of this image

I have to do everything myself

Montero (Call Me By Your Name) - Lil Nas X

12 yr old me was like “i don’t have depression i just don’t feel happy no matter what”

say what you will about wandavision but they truly killed it when they said “what is grief, if not love persevering?” and “you are my sadness and my hope, but mostly you are my love”

So long, darling.

WANDA MAXIMOFF AS THE SCARLET WITCH IN WANDAVISION

Elizabeth Olsen wraps her scarf around Aubrey Plaza

I’m too gay for this

This made me gayer tbh

do u ever feel like you’ve accidentally tricked certain people into thinking you are smarter and have more potential than you actually do and do you ever think about how disappointed they’ll be when you inevitably crash and burn

Fun fact: Impostor Syndrome is ridiculously common among high-achievers, particularly women. If you identify with this post, odds are pretty good that you’re exactly as smart as people think you are, and the failure you’re afraid of isn’t inevitable at all.

Even Maya Angelou stated, “I have written 11 books, but each time I think, ‘Uh oh, they’re going to find out now. I’ve run a game on everybody, and they’re going to find me out.’”

and don’t forget this is one of the psychological barriers placed in by thousands years of patriarchy and male supremacy.

My computer science professor actually talked about this on the first day, it was really cool.

Fun brutal fact: in addition to the existence of imposter syndrome, being “twice exceptional” (also known as 2e) is also a thing. That means being intellectually gifted AND ALSO having a disability that affects your ability to succeed at study or work. Such as ADHD, autism, dyslexia, dyscalculia, etc etc etc. A lot of people believe that it’s not possible to be both, but it very much is.

Society tends to have very high expectations for how well gifted people will perform. Society tends to have low expectations for how well disabled people will perform. Society tends to attribute invisible disabilities, including mental illness, to a failure of willpower or effort or a bad attitude.

So if you read this post and went “no, but seriously, this is not just low self esteem on my part, people keep thinking I’m smart and then I keep crashing and burning and disappointing them and they can’t understand why I didn’t live up to their expectations, it happens again and again and when I tell someone how I feel and ask for help, they just tell me to stop being so hard on myself and that I’ll succeed if I have more self-confidence,” it is not just you.

(Also, one of the previous posts in this thread buried the lede a little. Imposter syndrome is ridiculously common in people from underrepresented groups in academia and other high pressure/high status fields, particularly women and people of colour. Maya Angelou did not only feel out of place because she was a woman.)

This essay also totally changed my view on the intersection of impostor syndrome and mental illness.

Some day I am going to write about how imposter syndrome is both inevitable and an accurate assessment if you’re twice exceptional.

So sweet

I don’t know if you’ve actually seen this episode, but Pam invites the entire office to her art show that she’s been gearing up for for a really long time. Nobody shows up except for Oscar and his partner (and they critique her work, calling her “lacking in courage” among other things, not realizing she is standing right behind them) and then Michael. And Michael is the only one who tells her she is great just for putting herself out there, and the only one who places value on what she’s done, and he points out all the little details she got right and notices absolutely every bit of hard work she put into it. And then treats Pam like the artist she is by not just paying her for her art, but displaying it where literally everyone can see it.

It’s one of my favorite episodes.

So, my dad is the boss at his job, and when I was growing up watching the office, I always imagine my goofy ass dad acting like Michael Scott at work (not the case but w/e). My dad was and has always been pretty emotionally distant, and so this episode hit home so hard. Because Pam’s reaction to finally being validated and having someone tell her they’re proud of her (someone who rarely shows these tender moments with such poignancy no less) was so relatable and heart-warming.

Katherine Barrell in Gone in 60 seconds

touch me HARDER

Girl: “When he died, I was so sad that I would never hear that voice again. His laugh.”

Bunny: [deep laughter]

Girl: “His funny little requests.”

Bunny: [deep voice] “Touch me.”

Girl: “His reprimands.”

Bunny: [deep voice] “Touch me harder.” 

ITS BACK