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kuzetsa

@kuzetsa / kuzetsa.poindexter.ovh

(kuza for short)
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Hedonism as a Philosophical Praxis: Unveiling New Dimensions of Human Experience

Abstract: This scholarly inquiry explores the practical application of philosophical principles, with a specific focus on hedonism, within real-life contexts, unveiling its profound implications on human existence. The research encompasses two distinct perspectives, one examining the impact of hedonism on conventional family structures and the other delving into how hedonism can serve as a catalyst for personal transformation.

Reevaluating Conventional Family Structures in Light of Hedonism

Cultural Conservatism

Introduction: Hedonism, as a philosophical principle, has long stood in contrast to conventional family structures deeply rooted in cultural conservatism. This analysis seeks to reevaluate the dynamics of family structures within the context of hedonism and the implications it has for traditional values and norms.

Historical Perspective: Historically, family structures have been built upon traditional values, often rooted in religious and societal norms. The pursuit of pleasure and personal happiness, central to hedonism, challenges these age-old paradigms. It is imperative to examine how hedonism can transform the familial landscape.

Hedonism and Family Dynamics: Hedonism encourages individuals to prioritize their own pleasure and well-being. This shift in focus can lead to unconventional family arrangements, as individuals may choose relationships that maximize their personal happiness. Polyamory, for instance, challenges the conventional monogamous structure and demands a reevaluation of the traditional family unit.

The Ethics of Hedonistic Family Structures: This section delves into the ethical dimensions of hedonistic family structures. It addresses questions about consent, transparency, and the well-being of all family members, emphasizing the need to maintain ethical standards even within hedonistic contexts.

Conclusion: Reevaluating conventional family structures in light of hedonism raises essential questions about the intersection of personal happiness and familial obligations. This exploration serves as a foundation for understanding the potential transformation of family dynamics in a hedonistic world.

Hedonism in Practice: A Catalyst for Personal Transformation

Progressive Liberation

Introduction: Hedonism is not merely a theoretical philosophy; it is a lived experience that can serve as a powerful catalyst for personal transformation. This section explores the practical application of hedonism and its potential to liberate individuals from societal constraints.

Breaking Free from Social Norms: Hedonism encourages individuals to break free from the confines of societal norms and expectations. This section examines how embracing one's queerness and being a proud hedonist can be an act of liberation, challenging traditional notions of identity and conformity.

The Pursuit of Pleasure as a Path to Self-Discovery: Hedonism places a premium on the pursuit of pleasure and self-indulgence. It is through this pursuit that individuals may discover their true selves, unburdened by societal judgments. The examination of personal desires and experiences becomes a form of self-discovery and liberation.

Community and Support: Hedonistic communities often provide a supportive and inclusive environment for individuals exploring their identities. The sense of belonging within these communities can be a vital source of liberation and personal growth.

The Intersection of Queerness and Hedonism: This section explores the synergies between queerness and hedonism. It discusses how being queer can be a natural fit for a hedonistic lifestyle, emphasizing the idea that embracing one's desires can lead to a more authentic and fulfilling life.

Conclusion: Hedonism, when embraced as a philosophical praxis, has the potential to liberate individuals from societal constraints and foster personal transformation. The journey towards self-discovery and self-acceptance, especially for those who identify as queer, can be deeply intertwined with hedonism, leading to a more authentic and fulfilling existence.

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kuzetsa

didn't expect our ex to just like... screenshot a conversation and post it on here? either way, yeah that happend.

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heck. everyone left?

particularly, everyone we used to interact with seems to have been inactive for many months, or even years?

either way, definitely less folx here than who all we've been engaging with on twt.

(oh yeah, I guess we're openly plural now ~ isn't that nice?)

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do not continue the violence

Documenting that this has been sent.

This record is public.

This is not a joke.

regards, kuza

neutral hello,
this is a greeting. now a third.
stop.
emotional violence
this is still violence
violence is violence.
I have been legally assisting in the documentation of your behavior, and continued to do so in good-faith.
written as a poem, to be beautiful.
unaffiliated social workers are able to verify my credentials, and attest to the authenticity of my report.
emotional violence
this is still violence
violence is violence.
stop.
neutral regards,
kuza
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Fuck her but make her concentrate on telling you 5 things she loves most about herself. After, make her convince you that she knows how pretty she is by moaning “I’m a pretty girl” “I’m daddy’s pretty girl” that’s right baby you’re my pretty girl. Now cum for me princess

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kuzetsa

such a beautiful idea.

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I'm pretty sure @inkynsfw wasn't my main NSFW blog.

I'm so confused right now...

... like it looks familiar, but I completely forgot we had a whole other system name at that point.

this is super weird. I have no idea how many subsystems / sidesystems we even have, but definitely know this one. like whole big-ass chunk of our memory is connected to it, ya know?

whatever, I'm #HornyOnMain, because that’s a thing. - kuza

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And now I'm on my knees for you as you are sitting in your chair as I stare at the floor and mutter.

"Please... Please, Goddess.... Please.... I really need to feel your divinity.... Please...."

"Would you like me to fill you with my divinity, dear?" you ask, slightly amused at how much of a slut I am for you.

"Yes, please, Goddess, please..." I mutter some more.

You grab my chin and make me look into your eyes. They're full of lust.

"Stand up."

I obey.

"Onto the couch."

I quickly crawl onto the small sofa that is in your office and wait for you to come over. I spread my legs for you instinctively.

"Aww..." you coo, "You're such a needy slut."

"O-I-Only for you, Goddess." I whimper and gasp for air.

I need you so, so much.

"Then why won't you beg for your Goddess."

"P-Please.... Goddess.... I-I-I m-need to feel you.... N-n-N.... Fuck." my voice breaks, "Please.... I need you so much.... Please.... Bless me with your girldick." I squirm, "Please.... Fill me up.... Please.... Please.... Fuck me, fuck me...."

But you are already letting your shorts fall down.

"Yes, dear, you're such a good girl for your Goddess, of course I'm gonna let you feel my girldick inside you, hun.

And then you thrust into me lovingly, "I'm gonna make you feel so good, love. I'm gonna fill you up with my divinity."

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kuzetsa

this makes me wish I hadn't switch to twt for main. long form posts are kind of hot sometimes compared to microblogging. fediverse is kind of configurable and decentralized ~ activitystreams and ostatus and activitypub and all that stuff are intercompatible. technically I could post 1337 characters on the fedi instance I use, but most of my posts aren't smut anyway so tumblr is fine I guess. [...] I guess I'm back on tumblr. neat.

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Body age VS alter ages

[two quotes] ~ This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-ShareAlike 4.0 International License.

[source]

https://did-research.org/did/alters/ages

[#1]

The age of these young alters may or may not match their maturity or level of skills, and it may be that some child alters have skills and wisdom of those far beyond their years while still having the same childlike wants, needs, perceptions, and general enjoyments of children closer to their perceived age.

[#2]

It is not uncommon for alters with important internal tasks, such as internal self helpers and gatekeepers, to present as adults, and they may disown any more juvenile thoughts, feelings, or desires in order to best complete their tasks.

[CONTENT WARNING]

I normally avoid syscourse, but this topic is so radioactive I felt the need to drop my opinion on the topic because it came up several times i the past few years:

The misinformation that alter ages for younger folx in a system somehow strips the entire system of the agency normally afforded to someone of a particular body age, is both legally dubious, and not supported by medical or academic research.

Futhermore, my treatment team have never once even a single time suggested that our body age is anything other than the legal age with which we should rightfully live our life.

This is not a hot take.

It's not even lukewarm.

My take on this, is that I have legal rights, and our system is sufficiently integrated to cooperate on decisions related to our life, our body, our legal status, legal name, and all manner of topics which are considered legal rights to anyone who is the age of majority in their respective jurisdiction.

There has never been a judge, social worker, member of our treatment team, nor any other governmental or non-governmental authority who has exercised their authority to deny us our agency and rights.

For that matter, we've been a system for so long we literally have children who are young adults.

Our own kids are adults.

Really.

Claiming that children who we had a hand in raising are somehow adults, but our system is not legally and culturally capable of acting as an adult is not only offensive, it's pseudoscience.

That's not how this works.

Disabilities rarely lead to someone's legal status as an adult being revoked, and in our case, that remains true:

  • Signed, a legal adult, and a good mom.
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trauma, discourse, drama

So this is basically a subtweet:

Feels pretty gross to have a community interaction hit a gaslighting trigger by responding to a good faith question with hiding my reply / question.

Basically, the exact reasons why I spent so much time closeted / covert / stealth and was never open about my experiences got brought back by some drama today, and now I'm feeling like it won't be the last time I get retraumatized by such behaviors if I continue to openly talk about having a dissociative disorder.

Witch hunts and fake claiming and purity culture and gatekeeping, various exclusionary discourse and people looking around, digging for reasons why they feel like pushing people out is a good approach ~ pretty much why I was always an LGBTQ+ ally / advocate, or sometimes openly claimed the community.

I'm back to saying I'm trans now, because psychologically and emotionally it feels a lot less likely to lead to drama and retraumatization.

Being openly queer / trans / nonbinary or similar is a lot less likely to lead to interactions with folks who set my brain weather off in a bad way. I get that folks have needs for how they want to heal, but competing access needs are a very real thing.

I really need a community which feels psychologically and emotionally safe. Being reminded of what it's like to have someone police my identity, or question my own experiences has happened enough times that there are red flags which I outright avoid for safety reasons.

I don't owe anyone my participation. I'm not going to put up with triggers and apologism for things which make me feel unsafe. My own healing has to come first, otherwise I can't ever hope to be a mental health ally or help anyone else.

Basically, posting this because I felt like the safe choice was to redact, delete, and remove a large portion of my participation in the plural community on twitter.

There's no space in my life for discourse or gatekeeping. I already had way too much of that in my life living in the south as a nonbinary queer person and being targeted with various forms of bigotry and hate speech, and even the occasional hate crime (more often than you'd think) ~ the idea of participating in a support-type community that leaves me feeling unsafe and retraumatized is definitely unconscionable.

I can't even.

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vijara

look: the right people will get it. the right people will see you and appreciate you for the person that you are. the right people won’t require you to dilute, censor, or edit yourself in order to be worthy of their time and affection. you don’t need to waste your time on people who are committed to misunderstanding you 

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kuzetsa

CONTENT WARNING

  • emotional abuse
  • gaslighting
  • psychological abuse
  • bad faith
  • harassment

I wish I had seen this before my problematic weekend. I still have my twitter notifications completely disabled because I'm still getting multiple notifications per day about some of the folks who are:

committed to misunderstanding [me]

... it's really unpleasant when folks argue in bad faith and harass folks for something they never said or did, ideas they don't hold, feelings they don't have, actions they never took, etc.

At the peak of this mass troll brigate, I had been quote-tweeted by 4 people with hot takes which distorted something I had said, and I was getting over 100 notifications per hour.

Letting folks silence me is something I've historically been prone to, and I'm glad it's starting to be less of a pattern. I don't deserve abusive interactions with jerks who seem to thrive on hostility, and I don't deserve reminders of what it's like to live with an abuser and experience gaslighting in my own home.

Distorting & manipulating the words someone says in good faith, and dressing it up as something ugly, and then aggressively attacking that person's character for sport is pretty gross. No thanks.

Source: vijara
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no-makeup makeup

[first paragraph]

If you ask some of the most renowned makeup artists around the world what the most important aspect of any makeup look is, chances are most of them will say the base. We're talking skin care, foundation, concealer, blush, and highlighter.

Primer as a step in applying the base can help, but this article has way more insights than I could ever describe [because I don't even know half this stuff, I just try my best to do skincare & get enough coverage while still looking natural].

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Anonymous asked:

[testing] Probably safe to leave this "ask" feature enabled, right?

It’s tucked in the menu anyway, so it’s unlikely it’ll get used much, and even less likely anyone will be a jerk since I’ve never had issues with folks on this platform. [end test] As-of today, my tumblr blog is back, woo!!!

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semi-open secret / out

Gradually becoming more comfortable with the idea of being out.

I never consciously sought out supportive friends & allies, and for the most part never talked about it. It felt like a huge relief discovering after the fact that all of the people in my life who matter most to me either already knew, easily understood, or accepted with a bit of explanation.

It's made a big difference in my life to know that I have good social supports in place, and finally connecting with a solid treatment team has for the first time ever, meant that it feels real, safe, and actually bearable.

context

This is a followup to a post which I accidentally made 6 months ago

(that particular post was actually meant to go on my private blog / the one which I'm using for journaling and not this one. This is my main public blog which I had abandoned a couple years ago when the tumblr devs did something which severely impacted the accessibility & then pushed it out to the live servers without any period to get feedback, or reaching out to consult with folks to see if it impacts usability)

[...] the accidental public post from 6 months ago subtly outed me.

DID / been in and out of treatment since the '80s, but never actually found a good treatment team until 2019 when I discovered there was a local clinic I could actually trust with my actual experiences (instead of masking and subtly telling white lies about what I was going through).

Earlier this month: January 2020, for the first time ever I was in a therapist's office with someone I had grown to trust (took like 6 months, and 100% worth it), who asked me if I had experienced any switches during the session. I answered honestly. It felt okay.

Feeling safe with my treatment team is something special. I've never been in this situation. I really needed this.

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This article helped, even though I'm crying right now.

Last week my therapist respectfully gave me a kindness by very directly telling me that we'd need to talk about kentucky, and about my family (who still live in kentucky).

I already knew (diagnosed years ago), and I already suspected I knew which kinds of things would be relevant from my childhood... ... but reading the bullet points and examples and knowing I had experienced so much of this personally really hit me hard (even though I already knew, ironically).

Time to go ground myself.

I think maybe a nice hot bath sounds perfect.

[edit: this was meant to be a private post]

I don't blog publicly these days... ... but this didn't out me, so I'll leave it

(don't @ me: I'm probably busy doing self care anyway)