When people as me how I am I no longer respond with a normal answer. It’s no longer I’m fine, I’m okay, I’m good. I respond with “I’m alive” and they don’t go on. If they knew though if they asked. I would tell them “I’m alive but I don’t want to me” because I’m broken. I’m broken over a boy. That sounds crazy, but it’s true. I can’t sleep I can’t eat. I just keep playing back little bits in time of us over and over and over. I expect a text I know will never come. I want to want you but I can’t cause you don’t want me. I want to tell you how I feel. I want to kiss you. I want to just feel you again. You got to me. I’m broken. “Love isn’t enough” your words not mine. “I’m unhappy” your words not mine. I need you to breathe though. I want you to want me back but then I’m the weak one. Then you know you can come and go as you want. As long as I’d have you for a little longer. As long as we could stay in that happy time. Just go back to a frame of us like a photograph and stay there in blissful happiness. You don’t want me though. So if I see you and you ask how I’m doing “I’m alive” will be my response because I don’t want you knowing that I’d rather be dead.