Grants NM, River Walk

11 Jan 2019 ; Friday

It was simple; I think I find comfort in simplicity. The breeze was pushing towards south and the air was cold, crisp, and dry. After work I stopped at a park on the way home. Not for any particular reason but to have a smoke. But while I stood at the rail by the amphitheater I took in everything and stopped for a minute. I haven’t paid attention to much in a while and that’s just to everything in a while. But I looked up and finally, after I don’t know how long, I genuinely thought the sky was pretty. I found happiness and in a way comfort by looking up at the beautiful sunset. Maybe the nicotine was behind it all but I was able to feel. I felt warmth while it was cold. And at 5:14pm on that more than average Friday, I decided I wanted to get better. I decided I want am going to get my old self back.

This is a start…

I want to be happy, I want to FEEL. I want to be alive, not just breathing. Most people I know follow me on other platforms so I figured Tumblr was the way to go with this. I don’t know if I’ll be okay next month or by the end of the year. I don’t know if I’ll be alive by December 31, 2019. But I want to be and this is a start to achieving that.