I had someone once tell me while crying that she was so sad that aro people don’t feel love.
My room is full of my favorite books, my plants, and little knicknacks of all the places I’ve been and things I’ve done. Many of them were made or bought for me. There are cards taped to the walls written with notes of love from family and friends.
I bought cards this weekend to mail to my long distance friends. Everyone sort of gets down in winter (gotta love seasonal depression) so I think that will help.
I try to visit my grandparents as often as I can. They’re getting older, and seeing me makes their week. They have an adorable dog. My grandfather couldn’t be prouder of me and is always on my side. I love his stories. My grandma loves to bake me things and sing to me. I tell her I love her. She says “I love you more.” I tell her I know she does. Nothing can compete with a grandmother.
My best friends in the entire world are always texting me when we’re not together. Sometimes even when we are together we still message each other. It’s sort of funnier that way. Sending memes. Asking how each other is doing. Supporting each other in highs and lows. Not being able to wait to tell that one person that one story you know they’ll love.
There are ducks at the pond on my campus. They were the first friends I made here. A couple times a week I spend time with them with another friend. It’s usually the best part of the day.
Any chance I get, I go outside to see the stars and moon, because I never know when it’ll be clear again. I almost cried on Friday after seeing them for the first time in weeks. The moon. Orion. The Big Dipper. The winter hexagon. Venus. Every point of light is special. A cosmic message that you are not alone. I tell the stars everything and I end every meeting with “I love you.”
I hug my favorite stuffed animals. I take my new medication that makes me feel better than I have in years. I can’t wait to get up and keep working on my passion project, a speculative fiction novel.
I love my life. I love myself. Other people love me and I love them. I love what I’m doing.
I am aro. My life is full. It was never incomplete and never will be.