ancient god (self-diagnosed)

Hands on a current Andrew wip :)

Edit: this piece is now done and posted!

there’s something selfish about loving people and i think that’s okay

like it’s okay if feeding someone feeds you. it’s okay

#something innately terrible about wanting anything @arairah

I’m upset because I want to change the world but the world is too big and people are too mean

“Do not be daunted by the enormity of the world’s grief. Do justly, now. Love mercy, now. Walk humbly now. You are not obligated to complete the work, but neither are you free to abandon it.” - Rabbi Tarfon

So did Kelly Bennett like, go to police academy or what?

You know what? You can keep your Andrew Minyards, your Laurent of Veres, your Adam Parrishes, your Darklings and your Maas fairy bullshit.

But Gordo Livingstone? Gordo Livingstone is MINE*.

*and Mark Bennet's.

I read so many good books in 2020 that it was nearly impossible to narrow it down to my favorite ten but here are my Top Ten Books/Series of 2020!

*They’re listed in no particular order

**If you have any book suggestions for what I should read next year let me know! I’m always looking for suggestions.

1. Sorcery of Thorns by Margaret Rogerson- This book OH MY GOD. You’ve got magical libraries (a book worms dream), a feral librarian, a dramatic sorcerer and the best tiny demon to ever exist (Silas is my son). This was just such a fun book to read.

2. The Green Creek series by TJ Klune- This. Series. Shattered. My. Heart. And then mended it back with the love of these characters before breaking it again. It reignited my love for werewolves and had some of the best relationships ever.

3. The House in the Cerulean Sea by TJ Klune- After having your heart broken by the Green Creek series the best cure is this book. It is the sweetest, purest, and fluffiest book I have ever had the pleasure to read. One of the best found families and just so heartfelt and guaranteed to make you smile.

4. How the King of Elfhame learned to Hate Stories by Holly Black- A worthy follow up of the Folk of the Air Trilogy. I ADORED seeing more of our disaster prince Cardan plus the way the novella itself read a bit like a fairytale was just lovely

5. Fence series by C.S Pacat and Sarah Rees Brennan (art by Johanna the Mad)- This series is just so fun and cute and I love all of the characters so much! The original graphic novels are amazing and the new novel just deepened my love for this story.

6. Cemetery Boys by Aiden Thomas- THIS BOOK STOLE MY HEART. I adored the characters so much and I swear I was smiling the entire time (except for when I was crying like the over emotional nerd I am).

7. Villians series by V.E Schwab- Loved loved LOVED how dark this series got. And no matter how awful the characters were you couldn’t help rooting for them. It was the kind of story that you couldn’t get out of your head even long after you’d finished.

8. The Invisible Life of Addie La Rue by V.E Schwab- There were so many beautiful quotes throughout and it had such an emotional element that tugged at the heartstrings. You couldn’t help but root for Addie even when there didn’t seem like a happy ending could possibly be in sight. She will not be forgotten by me anytime soon.

9. Ninth House by Leigh Bardugo- I can’t believe I waited so long to read this one. It had the Dark Academia vibes I’ve been craving, dark and wonderful. I absolutely loved the characters and CANNOT wait for the sequel especially with that cliffhanger of an ending!!

10. The Priory of the Orange Tree by Samantha Shannon - EPIC. That’s how I would describe this one. The world building is exquisite, wonderful diversity, and the way every narrative twists together is a master piece. So many bad ass women plus DRAGONS. Need I say more?

For Women's History Month, I've decided to culminate some quotes from Daphne Du Maurier, one of my favourite authors:

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Women's History Month, March 2022

Hello again!🤗

During Women's History Month, I will make four types of posts: Female Celebrity Inspiration, Historical Female Inspiration, Famous Quote from a woman and Fictional Female Inspiration. These will be posted in this order, and I will try to make sure all the posts highlight all women and do not repeat themselves.

I will have one week (14th - 20th) where I ask my followers to submit something for me to post. You may send me:

Please submit these too me by February the 28th.

(Anyone is welcome to submit things to me, follower or not! If I get enough, I may well post more than one per day! I hope some of you want to participate. I have opened my submissions page especially for this! Thank you so much for giving me all your ideas on how to celebrate. 🥰)

Guys, I've received 2 submissions. I need at least 5 more so I can do a whole week - I seemed to get the impression you all wanted to have some input. I'll have to rethink the entire thing and that's stress I don't need on top of all my Uni work. Please submit them to me asap. Thank you.

I've only had 3 submissions for the week that is supposed to be dedicated to you guys', and I could really do with more and soon. If you wish to give me more than one submission, that's fine! Tagging some people that I think could help: @jora-olympias, @night-academy, @nunu-000, @hcarshipper, @lilaezz, @tribblehugger96, @spaghetti-trek, @thighs-of-betrayal-blog, @marvelousdamsels, @thisbluewind, @ramblingsofachristiannerd, @midnightsoliloquy

Thank you.

*Trying to make small talk at a bar.* Barnacles are more closely related to butterflies and crabs than they are clams and snails. Kinda fucked up, right? Yeah, they have antennae and everything. I always thought they were mollusks as a kid but they’re not. They’re weird little freaks. They’re arthropods and crustaceans at that. If you ever see barnacles growing on a lobster or a crab, it’s like their lame cousin is hitching a ride with them. I’m scared of barnacles in the cosmic horror way Sherlock Holmes pretended to be worried about bivalves in The Dying Detective. Are you more of a mollusk guy or a crustacean guy? I love them both, can’t pick a side. Do you like Sherlock Holmes?

"Fight because you don't know how to die quietly. Win because you don't know how to lose. This king's ruled long enough—it's time to tear his castle down."

Anyway anyone who is non-black who was vocal about supporting black lives matter better think the next time they erase black men's experiences because black lives matter was cofounded by black people who wanted their families to live in a safer world without getting gunned down for walking down the street. Mothers. Sisters. Wives. Daughters. Brothers. Fathers. Husbands. Sons.

It is not Only The Black Lives We Care About Matter. It is black lives. Black Lives Matter. All of them. Each and every one. Not a single one doesn't matter.

If you refuse to listen to black men talk honestly about their struggles because it doesn't fit your political viewpoint, then *you*, my friend, are indeed just paying lip service every time you utter the words 'black lives matter'.

My life matters.

My dad's life matters.

My nephews' lives matter.

My friends' lives matter.

My exes' lives matter.

So hear us, and stop fucking plugging your ears when we say it doesn't work that way for us.

I need to get off this road.  The night is too dark and my lights aren’t bright enough.  It’s a quarter past one in the morning and I’m only guessing about that by looking at the level of traffic. I’ve got a tattoo on my left shoulder from back when I thought it might make me interesting, and I’ve got a dusty football in my trunk from back when I thought I might play a pick-up game sometime.  I’ve got sixty three dollars in my wallet and no credit cards, and I never spend any of it.  I don’t have a favorite drink, and whenever someone asks me what my favorite movie is I have to think about what they want me to answer before saying anything.  I’ve had one girlfriend in my life and we never did anything more than nervously wish we never were there.  My car is from the 1900s, the last century, and is therefore over fifteen years old but no more than one hundred and fifteen years old.  I never learned to play an instrument, and I was always envious of those who had, but I realized it was too late to start.  My gas tank is 3/16 full and suddenly I start thinking about how there’s a whole splattering of clouds in the night sky that no one ever gets to see.  I don’t know half of the reindeer’s names and I wish I didn’t have to compete with people who know all of them.  Merry-go-rounds present a difficult decision, and that is, which horse or horse-like animal to back.  I’ve never eaten a salad in my entire lifetime because lettuce and tomatoes don’t appeal to me.  I want to buy a carton of eggs but make sure to check them first to see if they’re all uncracked.  I only need a few drawers to store all of my things.  The only reason to keep a trophy is to prove to someone else that I have a trophy, but I don’t have any trophies. I don’t know how to cook but I know how to drive.  I’m in a car right now, and I need to get off this road.

I need to get off this road.  The night is too dark and my lights aren’t bright enough.  It’s a quarter past one in the morning and I’m only guessing about that by looking at the level of traffic. I’ve got a tattoo on my left shoulder from back when I thought it might make me interesting, and I’ve got a dusty football in my trunk from back when I thought I might play a pick-up game sometime.  I’ve got sixty three dollars in my wallet and no credit cards, and I never spend any of it.  I don’t have a favorite drink, and whenever someone asks me what my favorite movie is I have to think about what they want me to answer before saying anything.  I’ve had one girlfriend in my life and we never did anything more than nervously wish we never were there.  My car is from the 1900s, the last century, and is therefore over fifteen years old but no more than one hundred and fifteen years old.  I never learned to play an instrument, and I was always envious of those who had, but I realized it was too late to start.  My gas tank is 3/16 full and suddenly I start thinking about how there’s a whole splattering of clouds in the night sky that no one ever gets to see.  I don’t know half of the reindeer’s names and I wish I didn’t have to compete with people who know all of them.  Merry-go-rounds present a difficult decision, and that is, which horse or horse-like animal to back.  I’ve never eaten a salad in my entire lifetime because lettuce and tomatoes don’t appeal to me.  I want to buy a carton of eggs but make sure to check them first to see if they’re all uncracked.  I only need a few drawers to store all of my things.  The only reason to keep a trophy is to prove to someone else that I have a trophy, but I don’t have any trophies. I don’t know how to cook but I know how to drive.  I’m in a car right now, and I need to get off this road.

I need to get off this road.  The night is too dark and my lights aren’t bright enough.  It’s a quarter past one in the morning and I’m only guessing about that by looking at the level of traffic. I’ve got a tattoo on my left shoulder from back when I thought it might make me interesting, and I’ve got a dusty football in my trunk from back when I thought I might play a pick-up game sometime.  I’ve got sixty three dollars in my wallet and no credit cards, and I never spend any of it.  I don’t have a favorite drink, and whenever someone asks me what my favorite movie is I have to think about what they want me to answer before saying anything.  I’ve had one girlfriend in my life and we never did anything more than nervously wish we never were there.  My car is from the 1900s, the last century, and is therefore over fifteen years old but no more than one hundred and fifteen years old.  I never learned to play an instrument, and I was always envious of those who had, but I realized it was too late to start.  My gas tank is 3/16 full and suddenly I start thinking about how there’s a whole splattering of clouds in the night sky that no one ever gets to see.  I don’t know half of the reindeer’s names and I wish I didn’t have to compete with people who know all of them.  Merry-go-rounds present a difficult decision, and that is, which horse or horse-like animal to back.  I’ve never eaten a salad in my entire lifetime because lettuce and tomatoes don’t appeal to me.  I want to buy a carton of eggs but make sure to check them first to see if they’re all uncracked.  I only need a few drawers to store all of my things.  The only reason to keep a trophy is to prove to someone else that I have a trophy, but I don’t have any trophies. I don’t know how to cook but I know how to drive.  I’m in a car right now, and I need to get off this road.

I need to get off this road.  The night is too dark and my lights aren’t bright enough.  It’s a quarter past one in the morning and I’m only guessing about that by looking at the level of traffic. I’ve got a tattoo on my left shoulder from back when I thought it might make me interesting, and I’ve got a dusty football in my trunk from back when I thought I might play a pick-up game sometime.  I’ve got sixty three dollars in my wallet and no credit cards, and I never spend any of it.  I don’t have a favorite drink, and whenever someone asks me what my favorite movie is I have to think about what they want me to answer before saying anything.  I’ve had one girlfriend in my life and we never did anything more than nervously wish we never were there.  My car is from the 1900s, the last century, and is therefore over fifteen years old but no more than one hundred and fifteen years old.  I never learned to play an instrument, and I was always envious of those who had, but I realized it was too late to start.  My gas tank is 3/16 full and suddenly I start thinking about how there’s a whole splattering of clouds in the night sky that no one ever gets to see.  I don’t know half of the reindeer’s names and I wish I didn’t have to compete with people who know all of them.  Merry-go-rounds present a difficult decision, and that is, which horse or horse-like animal to back.  I’ve never eaten a salad in my entire lifetime because lettuce and tomatoes don’t appeal to me.  I want to buy a carton of eggs but make sure to check them first to see if they’re all uncracked.  I only need a few drawers to store all of my things.  The only reason to keep a trophy is to prove to someone else that I have a trophy, but I don’t have any trophies. I don’t know how to cook but I know how to drive.  I’m in a car right now, and I need to get off this road.

I DIDN’T LEARN ABOUT THIS IN DRIVING SCHOOL

Stop says the red light, go says the green

Wait says the yellow light, twinkling in between. 

KNEEL, SAYS THE DEMON LIGHT WITH ITS EYE OF COAL  SAURON KNOWS YOUR LICENSE PLATE  AND STARES INTO YOUR SOUL

THIS IS ALWAYS FUNNY

I’ve only seen this legendary post in screenshots

holy shit it crossed my dash again!!!