This is something that is very real and special for Thomas. Please listen to this song and know that your memories of what was, will always be. I’m never going to take those special times and memories because that is what made you the great man you are. I will always stand with you. Not in front of you or behind but hand in hand to be there thru the good times and the sad. Thank you for loving me and always remember you are my heart and soul. I love you madly and deeply…Diane

Diane,

Your understanding and willingness to have daily conversations and share memories of my wife Susan who passed away after years of a loving relationship. I thought I would never fall in love again, then you came back into my life.This is just one reason you went from being my Niece to friend, best friend then to the Niece I am in Love with, Adore and I am Addicted to.

PS: You Excite the Hell Out of Me!!!!

Love, Adore and Addicted…Thomas

Reality of Judgment

Do you know how many times that I sit and wonder why people can justify what they do behind closed doors is morally right but once they are back in the open, they become Judge and Jurors of everyone else’s life.  I don’t sit back in judgment of how you want to live your life so why does society feel that they have the right to make the decision of what is right for me?  Who is living my life other than myself?  NO ONE is free from judging anyone at someone in our life, including myself.  The difference is I try to understand why they feel the way they do and understand that was is best for myself is not the same for them. Including whom they choose to love, live with, have sex with, marry, etc. 

It’s like looking at the picture above, at first glance you mind sees something completely dirty when in reality it is sexy, sensual and innocent I personally know men and women in what is considered to be positions of authority and suppose to be the example to our children and to us as well and yet these same people are sexual predators, having affairs and various things.  They have told themselves that they can “justify” their reason for committing their wrong doings that our society would find dispicable and otherwise immorally wrong and no different than that of me loving my Uncle.  I am not perverted or a child. I have morals in all things that I do. I respect everyone and I believe in right and wrong.   I am a grown woman with grown children of my own.  Do they understand how I feel and accept it?  The answer is no, but that doesn’t mean I will stop loving him or being with him because all through their lives I have accepted whatever relationship they have been in rather good or bad or indifferent and stood by them and all I ask in return is the same.  I’m truly sorry that they feel what we are doing is “incest” as well as many others.  

We are not given a book of how to handle different things.  Most of us wing it until we make it.  At this point in my life, I have determined that I deserve to be happy just like anyone else in this world.  If you didn’t know without Thomas or I telling you that we were Uncle and niece, you nor society would ever know.  How would you?  We love, hurt and bleed just like the rest of society and we don’t call you out. We accept and pass no judgment. If you weren’t told about genetic attraction, you would simply see us as a normal couple. What do you really see in people?

There should be no law that determines who we love and who we marry.  It goes back to understanding that “In the beginning” God created us all to love one another.  Mankind has put the stipulation of who is capable of loving who.  Our society is in a state where it is okay to be gay, lesbian, transgender, or any other status quo in their relationship and everyone is allowed to be equality free accept for consenting incest couples.   There are alot of misfactual reasoning as to why I cannot love a man because he is my Uncle.  I did not chose to love him.  Once I saw this man again after 40 years, I just fell in love.  In my eyes he was just “a man” that touched my heart and my soul with every fiber of my body and I did not look at him in any other way and especially as my Uncle.  At this point in my life,  I don’t have to give an explanation to anyone other than God.     I am pansexual if it is to be said because I believe that you should love who you want to love.  Rather it be a man, woman, transgender, shemale, bi-sexual or any other term used to justify your gender.  I have been in a normal husband and wife situation and I’ve been in a bi-sexual relationship with a woman.  All were accepted by everyone, so why now, when as a consenting adult who is in love with a man, who happens to be my uncle, is this considered wrong.