Normal People

Normal people is about vulnerability and the importance of intimacy. It explores miscommunication and the power unsaid words have on people. Such a deeply emotional, sensitive, gentle and beautifully written and directed story about two young adults - who find such enormous solace in one another, that cannot be found within anyone else they meet throughout their lives. 
Connell and Marianne are two twin flames who fall in and out each other lives, mostly because of their lack of clearness and transparency which feels frustrating and even overwhelming at times. 
What often happens is that Connell and Marianne overthink almost everything, but don’t express their thoughts because they think they have the other person’s thoughts already figured out. But thinking is not the same as communicating. They get so caught up in their assumptions and thoughts that completely forget to do the simplest thing, which is - to ask.
Although they have a lot of misunderstandings the love they feel for each other is terrifyingly unmatched.
All throughout this novel it becomes clear that the two characters have a really unique and special spark, they and their relationship is complex, but between them exists a certain normalcy that cannot be understood by others. 
Connell and Marianne constantly try out things that make them feel weird or normal, but towards the conclusion of the novel it appears that they have accepted that their favourite version of normal is the version that exists within their relationship, when they’re with each other.
This story explores perfectly but in a very realistic way, the importance of growing up and finding love within ourselves and the people around us. 
Normal People shows us how societal expectations and insecurities can affect us and our relationships forever.

just rip my heart out honestly

Marianne says nothing at first. The longer she stays silent the more nervous he feels, like maybe she really would pretend not to know him, and the idea of being beneath her notice gives him a panicked feeling, not only about Marianne personally but about his future, about what’s possible for him. Then she says: I would never pretend not to know you, Connell. NORMAL PEOPLE (2020) dir. Lenny Abrahamson, Hettie Macdonald

Paul Mescal & Daisy Edgar-Jones as Connell & Marianne in ‘Normal People’

I probably thought if I moved here I would fit in better. You know, I thought I might find more like-minded people or whatever. But honestly, the people here are a lot worse than the people I knew in school. (...) I just feel like I left Carricklea thinking I could have a different life. But I hate it here, and now I can never go back there again. I mean, those friendships are gone. Rob is gone, I can never see him again. I can never get that life back. NORMAL PEOPLE (2020) dir. Lenny Abrahamson, Hettie Macdonald

Myself(in cursive)

non-comprehensive list of italian liminal spaces: poste italiane, medico di base, pronto soccorso, uffici comunali, segreterie scolastiche,

They should invent sleep for women

you know when you’re hanging out with someone and you feel the first inkling that the vibe between you has changed and you just have this silent moment of pre-emptive grief as you realize ah. they’re going to become someone i used to know soon

there's an end to the loneliness, right? it ends, eventually? and i'll be finally whole inside?

experiencing female hysteria (tummy ache)

and when will there be a friday when i AM in love? When.

One thing about me is I am not doing so well

People aren't made to work. we should just be hanging out

Male Fantasy, Billie Eilish (2021)