U can grieve and still live life. U can miss loving someone and love others. You can hold onto the good moments and simultaneously the bad moments. You can take the learning from a person you let go off and use it for the better. You can love someone and they may not be the right person. You can wish someone the best and love them from a distance. You can think fondly of someone and never talk to them again.. mysteries of the world…
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I hope you find a cozy home in yourself instead of wishing you were more this or less that. I hope you see something in yourself worth loving and protecting. I hope you find something that brings you comfort and lessens the loneliness. I hope you go on long walks and drink your favourite tea. I hope you have books, daydreams, paintbrushes, music and other escapes to hold on to when you have nothing else. I hope you continue to try even when you’re tired and can’t see the end. I hope unexpected good things come to surprise you. I hope you meet someone who lights up your life and makes up for all the goodbyes and endings that came before. I hope you’re going through your day and feel a sense of lightness all over and wonder to yourself, maybe it’s all going to be alright. I hope you make yourself proud. I hope you make new memories full of warmth and peace to replace the bad ones. I hope your heart will be surrounded with flowers, trees and stars. I hope everything gets better for you.
*through gritted teeth* you are not a child taking a test with the purpose of getting the highest score, you are an adult trying new things and finding ways to enjoy your life, make mistakes, be a beginner, be mediocre, be where you need to be, be unlikeable, just. be.
You must first build a home inside of yourself in order to recognize the home in others that is most familiar to yours, otherwise any house will seem like a welcoming home to you
reward inconsistency with your absence and you won’t have to deal with cycles of sadness or disappointment. don’t even let people knock you off your square like that. recognize the patterns early on and dip.
stop believing that you ran out of time to shape yourself into who you want to be! stop believing that its ruined! stop believing you don’t have potential! you are not a fixed being! you have endless opportunities to grow.
people don’t give themselves enough credit for overcoming things and getting better. like you made it this far. celebrate your strength
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Crazy how we are everything that has happened to us but then you meet someone and you don’t see everything that has happened to them you just see them. And you both try to explain everything that has happened to you but your words and memories are so biased and oversimplified.
“Eventually something you love is going to be taken away. And then you will fall to the floor crying. And then, however much later, it is finally happening to you: you’re falling to the floor crying thinking, “I am falling to the floor crying,” but there’s an element of the ridiculous to it — you knew it would happen and, even worse, while you’re on the floor crying you look at the place where the wall meets the floor and you realize you didn’t paint it very well.”
— Richard Siken
Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning.
You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart.
-- Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum LP
“The relation between what we see and what we know is never settled. Each evening we see the sun set. We know that the earth is turning away from it. Yet the knowledge, the explanation, never quite fits the sight.”
John Berger, "Ways of Seeing"
In Ways of Seeing, John Berger writes that we never look at just one thing; we are always looking at the relation between things and ourselves. I guess, if you are always wondering about who or what you have lost, and if you are always thinking about what is beneath the surface, then the relationship that defines your looking is a relationship of longing, a relationship of missing. Sometimes life is this forever-kind of looking, and the loneliness that ensues. And what does it mean to be lonely? It means, sometimes, to long for something more. It means, too, to think of life as loss. It means to think, so often, about what is unanswerable. Which is another way of saying that you can’t stop thinking about it. Sometimes, to live in this world feels like having the whole world live inside you. It sounds full, but it’s not. Because that means your body is just in space, full of everything that is no longer there. Who do you spend that fullness with?
-Devin Kelly from his newsletter Ordinary Plots - Meditations on Poems and Verse.
“Is to be in love with blue, then, to be in love with a disturbance? Or is the love itself the disturbance? And what kind of madness is it anyway, to be in love with something constitutionally incapable of loving you back?”
— Maggie Nelson, Bluets
every day i get my heart ripped out & every day i simply just continue
so much unprocessed grief so little human contact something more happens something awful or sad & you think you don't even have any room left to ache properly you let yourself have one quick sob & u plunge your hands back into the sink & wash the dishes & the next day it's the same. more of the same
Mental health is not a competition. My mental illness does not lessen the seriousness of yours and vice versa. We all have our troubles, our demons and our worries. We should support each other as opposed to trying to prove to someone that you have it worse than them.
you truly do not exist for other ppl’s consumption and your existence is not hinged on making others happy and comfortable by stifling and hiding and crushing and editing parts of yourself to be less than who you really are
Look. Look. I think the hardest thing about your twenties is the shift from getting shoved towards new frontiers of maturity by, like, puberty and education and the logistics of gaining independence, to you having to shove yourself. It’s a mental recalibration from “you grow up whether you like it or not” to “you can and should keep evolving, but now you have to choose it. And you have to choose it a half-dozen times a day in increasingly annoying ways. And this sucks but the reward is that you get to be a person in the world.”
The Temple of Poseidon with a captivating Crescent Moon and Venus, Cape Sounion, Greece
and slowly you start to become the person you were born to be. slowly you start letting go of all the things that have been holding you back.