Once, someone asked me, “if you were in a room full of things you’d had lost throughout your life and gay would be the one thing you looked for?”
It’d be you. Everytime
my hair is very soft right now and no one is running their fingers through it as i go down on them and that’s a shame
Anyone can say they want me and occupy my time.
But..
When will someone want me they way I see others being wanted.
We are…
We are 57 days shy of one year.. one year since everything
One year..
I’d wait for you the rest of my life.
I won’t be here next Halloween.
I’m not sure anyone cares.
I visited GA today.
And.. GODDAMN I fucking miss you immensely.
You have been so heavy on my mind.
I don’t understand why I still want you.
I don’t get it.
I have so many words.
But none to say.
Iykyk.
I miss you so much.
💔
We were so horrible together. So, I can’t understand.
August 16th was the worst day of my life.
But.. I just wanted you there.
My boyfriend was there. The girl that I’m interested in was there.
I just wanted to be in your arms. I wanted my head on your chest. Your voice telling me I’d be okay.
I wanted the you I met in the beginning that made me feel like I could take on anything I faced.
Including losing my sister.
160 days later.
I’m still so disappointed you weren’t the person I thought you were.
I’m not perfect but you could have been a better person.
I wanted so hard for it to have been you. My heartbreaks all over again when I think about it.
I’ll always just be “best friend” material.
#aloneforever
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It’s fucked up.
It’s fucked up how YOU get to move on. How you jumped into another relationship before you ever even truly left me the fuck alone. It’s fucked up that GOOD people want me and I’m so fucking traumatized because of what YOU did that I can’t trust them. That I can’t believe that they are genuinely interested it being with someone like me. Because YOU weren’t.
I did and said so much hurtful shit… and it didn’t even phase you dude. I wanted it to be you. I wanted it so badly to be you. I was ready to MARRY you… but there was already someone else.
Why do I get the short end of the stick.
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I like your family. But not so much you anymore.
Here we go again... it’s finally set in. The reality of the break up. I wake up puking because I dream about you.
I hate this part the most.
I’ll never be enough
I just wanted you to love me.
The way everyone wants love.
I want you to tell me that you regretted it in the moments it made you smile. That your heart broke just thinking about how you knew I’d eventually know. I wanted to know it made you tear the fuck up when you thought about how it would destroy my trust, my heart, and our relationship. I wanted so badly for you to tell me that you wanted to stop before it was too late.
But, it was already too late... wasn’t it..