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Kerosinom

@kerosinom

He/him, genderfuck enthusiast, profreak. Aspiring smut writer. Welcome to the freak hole.

I saw twitter screenshot of someone saying “We need to start sexualizing autism.” and they got ratiod so hard. That post would go so hard on Tumblr because this is the autism sex website. Oh you’re autistic? *bounces on your meat like a springboard*

i think kids online should really get back to making internetsonas instead of whatever fuckshit this is with putting their entire real faces, names, ages, and such everywhere. you're not gonna realize how nice internet privacy is until you dont have it anymore and no chance at getting it back. make up a guy and a name and just be that online. make up conflicting details about your completely made up backstory. make a fursona or something

please guys I promise I’m trying to write the dirtiest most fucked up lawlight fic it’s just not going :( one day…

everyone's so surprised that dean's winning so many of these polls and calling it terminal deangirlism and you know what you're right true deangirls just really really do love everything about him he's the most specialist guy in the whole wide world and we're not afraid to let everyone know it

also just objectively speaking he really IS that bitch

Here’s a Mega folder with a handful of junk for you trans girls to watch

///TGIRL FEATURE FILMS (alphabetical order)

Adam (2019) it’s about a cis boy who’s mistaken for a trans boy and rolls with it. Big cast of trans characters including a tgirl played by a tgirl who everyone wants to fuck. Directed by a trans dude. Highly legit. If you’re still hung up on pre release speculation based on the novel then you’re the most annoying person alive.

Assassination Nation (2018) The first half is Euphoria and the second half is The Purge. ONE OF THE BEST TGIRL MOVIES OF ALL TIME.

Bit (2019) Lesbian girl power vampire movie where the main character is a tgirl played by a tgirl. It’s solid. I find it frustrating that they hint at her being trans without explicitly acknowledging it (and she’s passing as fuck, so it’s easy to not notice), but I know that’s what some of y'all want.

Boy Meets Girl (2014) Cis dude for trans girl love story. Pretty normie, but also you see her fully naked (gock out) at the end.

Funeral Parade of Roses (1969) Extremely 60s. Cool as hell.

Lady Daddy (2010) South Korean romcom about a trans girl played by a cis girl who tries unconvincingly to back pass when she finds out she has a kid. Very cute.

Lingua Franca (2019) written directed and starring Isabel Sandoval. An undocumented trans woman immigrant in New York deals with a cis dude partner being a cis dude. Which is also the plot of The Garden Left Behind (2019).

Myra Breckinridge (1970) Raquel Welch is a trans woman and her goal is the destruction of the last vestigial traces of traditional manhood! It’s Fight Club! It’s Hackers! It’s divisive, but it’s probably my favorite movie!

So Pretty (2019) Literally the first scripted feature length (non pornographic tho it does have cock) film to feature two trans women played by trans women kissing eachother.

Something Must Break (2014) THE OTHER BEST TGIRL MOVIE OF ALL TIME. Drugs. Crimes. Gock. Slow motion pissing. Slow motion park Fucking. Genuinely the most beautiful sex scene I’ve seen in any movie. And she makes it to the end still alive and more sure of herself and at peace than ever.

Tangerine (2015) Groundbreaking and also a bunch of the secondary characters are real life pornstars (which I think is neat).

The Garden Left Behind (2019) This and Lingua Franca (2019) really are tgirl twin films, but (like with Antz and A Bug’s Life) the vibes and details make them distinct (I assume tho tbh I’ve never watched Antz).

///TGIRL DOCUMENTARIES

Bambi (2013) about a trans girl showgirl in 50s/60s paris

Paris is Burning (1990) basically it’s Pose.

Shinjuku Boys (1995) Trans dudes working in a tokyo club that caters to tboy chasing cis girls. There’s at least one trans girl in the mix too.

///FORCED FEMINIZATION

A Reflection of Fear (1972) They raised her as a girl and it made her do murders! It drags in places, but the girl in it is so ethereal and it has ageplay vibes and daddy issues.

Memory Run (1996) A very fun direct to video scifi action flick about fighting fascism by blowing up your pre transition self with a rocket launcher + it’s based on a novel written by a trans woman.

She-Man A Story of Fixation (1967) Notable for being such a cliche sissy maid fantasy while also coming out so early + it was Bob Clark’s first film lol.

Sleepaway Camp (1983) A more famous version of Reflection of Fear.

Surrender Dorothy (1998) A MUST WATCH. I personally bought a physical DVD and made an ISO of it for you because I was unsatisfied with the quality of the only copy that seemed to exist online. I ALSO PERSONALLY CREATED MY OWN SUBTITLES FOR IT BECAUSE EVEN THE DVD DIDN’T INCLUDE ANY! WHICH TOOK HOURS TO DO!

The Skin I Live In (2011) A rapist is kidnapped and turned into a girl by a mournful vengeful plastic surgeon. Which was also the plot of Victim (2010). I never really vibe with Pedro Almodóvar movies, but I recognize this is the preeminent forced feminization film.

///SHORT FILMS

Gender Troublemakers (1993) Some 90s Toronto trans girls fucking and discoursing. Explicit tgirl on tgirl action. This is the only one on the list that I haven’t actually watched yet. I’m hyped to watch it tho. Seems mindblowingly rad af.

Happy Birthday Marsha (2018) It’s about Marsha P. Johnson.

I don’t Know (1971) I’m obsessed with the trans girl in this one she just keeps popping up in all kinds of early 70s stuff. Directed by Penelope Spheeris (who is the sister of the cis gf in it).

Mesmeralda (2019) AN ABSOLUTE BANGER HOLY FUCK THE VIBES ARE OFF THE CHARTS! PLS WATCH THIS! I refuse to apologize for it being 15GB or to re encode it. It’s worth every byte and I want to ensure that this full quality copy doesn’t disappear off of the internet.

Pat Rocco’s Changes (1970) It’s that same girl again!

Queens at Heart (1967) I can’t get over that hairdresser girl thinking she’s back passing. Most adorably weak boymode ever.

Shangri-La (2021) Another Isabel Sandoval joint.

The Yellow Wallpaper (2021) Freshly post op girl with a supportive boyfriend goes unhinged.

Undress Me (2012) Jana Bringlöv Ekspong did a few short films. Give janabringlove a google after watching this.

///JUST LIKE BTW

Some of these would be tough to find elsewhere, but most of the movies are also watchable on fmovies and/or can be torrented in higher quality.

After you’ve worked your way through the folder then just start doing Google searches for trans films. Look at IMDB keywords and letterboxd lists. There are so many more out there. These are just like my personal picks.

AUGUST 6TH 2023 PATCH NOTES

I added The Garden Left Behind (2019) and The Skin I Live In (2011). Both of which were mentioned in a previous version of the post, but not included.

I also added Gender Troublemakers (1993) to the shorts folder because it looks amazing holy fuck!

I was gonna add a couple other movies, but I didn’t get around to it. Maybe another time.

Most importantly tho! Surrender Dorothy (1998) has gotten a huge update! I MADE SUBTITLES FOR IT! It was never professionally subtitled (the DVD didn’t even have subtitles), so I made my own! I’ve never done that before! It was extremely time consuming!

Next time around I might go through and add subtitles for the rest of the movies. There are several movies that like don’t have subtitle files even though professional subtitles do exist and can be easily pirated.

I also replaced the Surrender Dorothy avi file (which was how I originally came across the movie and was probably what was used for the YouTube upload) with a freshly made mp4. It’s very close to DVD quality while still being like a third the size (it’s about 1GB which is pretty normal for a movie). Perfect for anyone who doesn’t wanna deal with the baggage of a menu and extras filled DVD iso (though I have still included the iso for anyone who wants it). Works great with the new subtitles.

I can understand why saying you were into Nazi shit at some point can definitely turn people off. It’s certainly strange to say things like ‘yeah, I’d be thinking [incredibly racist thing] if I hadn’t deconverted’ out of nowhere, especially to minorities.

But I also think that it shuts down conversations about how some relatively socially acceptable ideas are indistinguishable from Nazi shit. For me, personally, although I could couch my former views as ‘seperatist’, I choose to identify it as ‘Nazi shit’, because under any framework in which you believe that your race/gender/sexuality would be better off in what is effectively an ethnostate, you are going to be a Nazi apologist. White nationalism becomes *understandable*, maybe even desirable.

So yeah, I tell people that I would agree with them, if I was still in my Nazi apologist era. And I would tell them that the fact that I found myself apologizing for Nazis is why I don’t believe in seperatist ideas anymore.

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Worst part about this is I've only ever used that yellow square emoji once and it was just to see how it looked. This isn't who I am. However, in retrospect, I suppose it is

Reading through the notes is a surreal experience please keep adding more to fuel my effervescent consumption of non descriptive emojis

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its not funny but i do think about it a lot

Yeah I don’t get this.. glad I don’t have kids. I mean what are you supposed to say?

it’s about the context. if a kid feels bad about doing something, they are unlikely to do it again unless they feel like they have to or if they don’t know another way to get it done. children are just small humans; they don’t like feeling bad/guilty/etc. any more than anyone else does. so if a kid comes forward and says ‘I did this bad thing and I feel bad about it’ and you scold them for doing that thing that they already feel bad about, then you are effectively just scolding them for coming forward. if the kid already feels bad, they don’t need an adult to tell them they should feel bad. in reality, the kid was probably coming forward about it because they wanted the adult to explain how to make it right, or how to do it properly.

Thank you, this helps. I like kids but being autistic sometimes it’s confusing because here in don’t know what the script is.

An appropriate script could be:

  1. Telling the kid that it is very brave of them to come forward and admit that they did something wrong.
  2. Having a conversation to find out why they did the bad thing. Sometimes there’s an underlying reason that needs to be addressed like ‘I’m worried the other kids think I’m not cool enough so I broke a rule’ or ‘I was mad at my sister because she called me fat so I broke her toy’, etc. These conversations might be more important than the bad thing.
  3. Telling the kid that we all make bad decisions sometimes and while we should try not to do that again, making a bad decision doesn’t mean we’re bad forever.
  4. Telling the kid that the best way to feel less bad about it is to try to make things right. Did they secretly take mom’s piece of cake? Maybe we can go bake a new piece of cake together and give it to mom. (The point here is not to make the kid really produce something of equal value to what they stole/broke/etc. A child often can not do that. The point is to practice what fixing the damage you have done looks like).
  5. Finishing the conversation with supportive words and maybe a hug, depending on the child and your relationship to that child. Above all the goal is making sure the child leaves the conversation feeling happy that they chose to come forward and committed to doing so again if they mess up in the future.
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Misogynists and transphobes and transmeds literally can't handle intersex gender nonconformity. They can't fight, they break half the time and devolve into nonsensical arguments or just ghost or delete and it's wonderful tbh. You're going to tell my friend she'd never pass as cis? What the fuck do cis women look like? Bc in my case I look like a sir to the majority of people lmao

Some transmed was being nasty to my mutual on tiktok bc he made a video saying a pregnant trans man is just a confused woman and my mutual asked if he liked how cis boot tastes and he started being transmisogynistc to her and insisting she was a man so I jumped in and he tried doing the same to me bc he assumed I'm transfem and I asked how it feels to know a cis woman has a bigger and more masculine manly strongboy beard than he ever will without ever having to take T and he literally deleted his fucking video and stopped harassing my moot. He had been going for hours and making multiple videos to bother her and he just fucking dropped off the face of the earth lmao. This man looked like he was 38 btw this wasn't a teenager being insecure and weird

It's funny how often "well my beard is bigger than yours and I'm a cis girly girlgirl who takes estrogen" works on cis men, it also works on misogynistic trans dudes too apparently. Because if you're going to argue that a trans man isn't a man because he got pregnant and is okay with that, what are you going to do with me? Argue that I'm not a woman because I have a beard that started growing when I was an eleven year old little girl? Even tho I also wear makeup and girlclothes and all the things that these sorts of assholes insist would destroy someone's manhood? Or just tell me I'm neither a man nor a woman despite your belief in only binary genders? It fucking breaks them. Fuck your shitty binary and your shitty refusal to accept human diversity.

obviously i am furious about the massive censorship & book banning movement here in the us, but an undeniably fun side effect is that the cultural understanding of librarians is slowly shifting from “stuffy lady in a cardigan and eyeglasses who shushes people for a living” to “ENEMY OF THE STATE” & i have to say that i’m really enjoying it