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(If) This Is Killing Me | Chapter 1
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
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Fandoms: Teen Wolf, Annihilation  Rating: Mature Warning: Major Character Death (does not apply to Derek Hale or Stiles Stilinski) Characters: Stiles Stilinski, Derek Hale, Lydia Martin, Kira Yukimura, Scott McCall, Jackson Whittemore, Chris Argent, Alan Deaton Relationship: Derek Hale / Stiles Stilinski Additional Tags: Established Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Married Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Alternate Universe - Alien Invasion, Alien Horror, Sci-Fi Horror, Horror Romance, Epistolary (sometimes), Anachronistic (also sometimes), Not Really Character Death, Alternate Universe - No Werewolves, Happy Ending

FROM THE UNITED STATES DEPARTMENT OF ANOMALY INVESTIGATION

EXPEDITION 13, led by USDAI psychologist Lydia Martin and consisting of cellular biologist Mieczysław “Stiles” Stilinski, EMT Scott McCall, ex-Marine Jackson Whittemore, and physicist Kira Yukimura, has entered “The Preserve,” an uninhabited region of the United States that has been abandoned after being overtaken by an anomalous and inhuman force.

They are in search of answers for what happened to EXPEDITION 12, a team of Green Berets led by Stilinski’s husband Derek Hale.

Hale had returned unexpectedly, showing up in their house with no memory of how he left The Preserve. His subordinates Isaac Lahey, Vernon Boyd, and Erica Reyes have been declared missing by the USDAI.

#sterek annihilation au#the official ao3 link#teen wolf#derek hale#stiles stilinski#sterek#lydia martin#kira yukimura#scott mccall#jackson whittemore#isaac lahey#vernon boyd#erica reyes
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piosplayhouse

I feel like a somewhat disregarded aspect of modern internet callout culture is the impact on people with anxiety or paranoia or intrusive thoughts and how the general sentiment of "bad things will only happen to you if you're bad, so just be good all the time" just exacerbates obsessive self flagellation

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For once I'm actually happy about one of my posts blowing up because I so rarely see discussions about OCD and OCD-flavored anxiety and paranoia as they relate to social media, which leads to things like posts with major OCD triggers blowing up like crazy ("if you don't rb this I don't trust you" type shit). Every so often posts go around with good information but that are worded in an extremely triggering way meant to guilt trip you into sharing it and it makes me really sad because you could've just left that off!!

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nostalgicfun

My boyfriend was on the phone with his dad yesterday so I went out to sit on the patio to pet the geese and play on my phone for a bit, and while out there I came across a comic of baby Grimace (yes, that Grimace) being sad because everyone hated his milkshake and saying he wished he never had a birthday. Then there was a follow up where tons of people had commented saying they loved the shake and wished Grimace a happy birthday, and that made him happy again.

This, for whatever reason, emotionally devastated me. I was sobbing. I was ugly crying so bad that even the geese waddled away side-eyeing me.

After a while my bf yelled from inside, "Okay, you ready for dinner?" and I was forced to accept I had to go back in the house a defeated sniffly little wreck.

My boyfriend, who has only ever seen me cry once in the whole year we've been together, looked horrorstruck. He assumed the worst. Someone got hurt. Something was wrong with my family. Someone was mean to me (a cardinal sin). The panic that washed over his face was unparalleled.

He, upon seeing me, (somewhat theatrically) rushed over and grabbed me by the shoulders. "What's wrong, what happened? Are you okay?" he asked, frantic. "What is it?"

I realized how ridiculous the whole situation was and just shook my head.

He was growing more panicked. "What is it? Why are you crying?"

I then had to stand there and look him, this completely normal human being, in the eyes, and blurt out "Grimace"

Confused silence followed.

"....Grimace?"

I nodded.

"...The McDonalds guy...thing?"

I nodded.

"What...what did...Grimace...do to you?"

I then tearfully recounted the silly internet comic that had absolutely broken my heart. And this poor guy--this poor, wonderfully sweet, nice, patient guy--kindly stood there trying to figure out how to comfort me that Grimace was not, in fact, sad. (Nevermind that he's a corporate mascot who isn't real)

This morning my phone rang just after 5am. It was my boyfriend. It was my turn to panic, to assume the worst.

I didn't even have time to say hello before he started excitedly yelling, "Look at the TikTok I just sent you! Look! Open it!"

Confused and not entirely convinced I wasn't still asleep, I opened the TikTok.

An official release from McDonalds confirming Grimace (who still isn't real) did, in fact, feel special on his birthday.

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also while we were in the car headed to dinner I remembered the little panel of Grimace crying and I got all teary eyed again, and my boyfriend looked over and, with all the genuine care, compassion, and sympathy this guy could muster, legitimately asked, “Are you having Grimace thoughts again?” which I don’t think I’ll ever let myself live down

#one more for the stars#this boyfriend wins
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pure

On a basic conceptual level our society doesn’t want women to know that lesbianism is even a possibility. It’s seen as a threat when women assert their lesbianism, but love between women is fundamentally trivialized and the intention is to make it appear that way so that aforementioned threat never arises. I remember when I told my mama I was a homo the first thing she said was “It’s normal to think women are pretty” and “I love my female friends” in an attempt to trivialize my love for women. It was only until I asserted myself as being very much romantically involved with women in a way that was incompatible with heterosexuality that she broke out into hysterics lol. It makes me wonder how many women are living unhappy lives because lesbianism is abstracted and isolated so far away from women as a mere conceptual reality.

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ierohero

the weird little girl to strange little man pipeline

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wet-dirt

this is so unrelatable that i'm going to talk to my therapist about how much i don't relate to this

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ierohero

ok. do you like need something or

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boobachu

They didn't have the basket robens mint ice cream at heebers so I had to get ben10 jerries and it's okay I guess but it's kinda awful. It's like it's not mint chocolate but it's also not toothpaste flavored, it's some nothing else.

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ierohero

can anyone hear me. where am i

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william-jennings-bryan

Things I wish they had kept from s1 of Community

  • Abed and Jeff's friendship
  • Annie and Shirley's friendship
  • Jeff and Britta building their friendship (even without their romance)
  • Britta actually having a character and not just being an SJW for laughs (like her messing with Jeff and actually trying to improve as an activist, not just being "haha she's desperate and doesn't understand her own ideology")
  • Shirley being a gossip but meaning well, not just flip-flopping between god-fearing Christian and mob boss
  • Pierce and Jeff's father-son relationship (I wish Pierce hadn't been such a douche bc this could have been good for both of their characters. Daddy issues central)
  • Shirley, Annie, and Britta bonding over womanhood and how it changes over time
  • Jeff-Annie father-daughter relationship (I'm a Jeff-Annie anti idc idc)

Feel free to add more in the reblogs; this is all I can come up with rn

#community
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iapislazuli

idk what traumatized or mentally ill person needs to hear this but dreams (especially the really disturbing ones you dont want to talk about to anybody) arent some deep peek into your psyche or a sign of your True Desires or whatever theyre quite literally your brain making fruit salad with whatever it can find on the shelf. just putting all that shit in a blender and hitting obliterate. its fine, youre fine, youre not a weirdo for it

#trauma recovery
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Shattering the myth of men as hunters and women as gatherers
Analysis of data from dozens of foraging societies around the world shows that women hunt in at least 79% of these societies, opposing the w
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Analysis of data from dozens of foraging societies around the world shows that women hunt in at least 79% of these societies, opposing the widespread belief that men exclusively hunt and women exclusively gather. Abigail Anderson of Seattle Pacific University, US, and colleagues presented these findings in the open-access journal PLOS ONE on June 28, 2023. A common belief holds that, among foraging populations, men have typically hunted animals while women gathered plant products for food. However, mounting archaeological evidence from across human history and prehistory is challenging this paradigm; for instance, women in many societies have been found buried alongside big-game hunting tools. Some researchers have suggested that women's role as hunters was confined to the past, with more recent foraging societies following the paradigm of men as hunters and women as gatherers. To investigate that possibility, Anderson and colleagues analyzed data from the past 100 years on 63 foraging societies around the world, including societies in North and South America, Africa, Australia, Asia, and the Oceanic region. They found that women hunt in 79% of the analyzed societies, regardless of their status as mothers. More than 70% of female hunting appears to be intentional—as opposed to opportunistic killing of animals encountered while performing other activities, and intentional hunting by women appears to target game of all sizes, most often large game. The analysis also revealed that women are actively involved in teaching hunting practices and that they often employ a greater variety of weapon choice and hunting strategies than men. These findings suggest that, in many foraging societies, women are skilled hunters and play an instrumental role in the practice, adding to the evidence opposing long-held perceptions about gender roles in foraging societies. The authors note that these stereotypes have influenced previous archaeological studies, with, for instance, some researchers reluctant to interpret objects buried with women as hunting tools. They call for reevaluation of such evidence and caution against misapplying the idea of men as hunters and women as gatherers in future research. The authors add, "Evidence from around the world shows that women participate in subsistence hunting in the majority of cultures."
Source: phys.org