No one tells you

No one tells you that it’s a possibility. No one tells you that it will make an impact on your life. No one tells you that it’s an excruciating pain. No one tells you that you will feel like your heart has been ripped out. No one tells you that you’ll feel empty. No one tells you that you’ll resent your spouse. No one tells you that it will eat you alive. No one tells you that you’ll spend nights blaming yourself. No one tells you that your eyes will produce never ending tears. No one tells you that the days will go slow. No one tells you that you’ll cry whenever and wherever. No one tells you that you’ll lose your faith. No one tells you that your mind will be consumed. No one tells you that seeing one child can ruin your day. No one tells you that eventually everyone will go on with their life except you. No one tells you that it will hit you when you least expect it. No one tells you that you will lose your motivation. No one tells you how hard it is to try again. No one tells you that you’ll become jealous of those who have what you don’t. No one tells you that it’s okay to cry. No one tells you to take your time. No one tells you that it’s okay to not want to get out of bed some days. No one tells you how long you’ll be stuck. No one tells you that you will never be the same. No one tells you how traumatizing it is. No one tells you that in the back of your mind, you’ll ask ‘why?’ and ‘what if?’. No one tells you that it’s a long journey to recovery.

No one tells you that losing a child will be so hard.

They just don’t.

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Suddenly you snuck up on me. I wasn’t prepared for how well we just felt at ease with each other. I wasn’t prepared for you to accept me and all that I am so quickly, to trust you so suddenly with who I am. It scared me, to open up this fast again. But you’ve never been anything but kind and willing to listen. Suddenly you were there with your big green eyes and happy-go-lucky grin and suddenly I realized I might have finally found someone worthy of holding my heart.

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