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Northanger Abbey

I keep meaning to write @thelonelybrilliance a whole northanger abbey meta because it is one of my favorites and also because every time it comes up she seems so genuinely eager to hear my thoughts and that THRILLS ME-

(No really, in all of her tags Emma is like “Maria, convince me.” I LOVE IT.)

So after putting it off long enough, here I go! 

These are just my feelings.

Northanger Abbey is really special to me for a lot of reasons and one of them is that I believe, like @fictionadventurer​ pointed out with mansfield park (which made me want to reread it IMMEDIATELY), that it is a coming of age story more than a romance. Though I guess, like all Jane Austen’s, it’s both.

Catherine is really young- she starts and ends the novel at 17- and the book is about her growing up and what she learns along the way and none of what she learns is one thing. But the thing that I think she learns the most is how to tell false friends from true and how to get herself out of toxic relationships while clinging more firmly to those which will lift her up and help her be a better person.

I relate to that so much. My mom always says this thing that goes “people who say what they mean expect everyone else to mean what they say” and that is exactly Catherine’s (and quite often my) situation. She has other flaws- she’s young, she’s naive, she lets her imagination run away with her- but one of her defining characteristics is that she’s sincere, and sometimes to a fault. This is due as much to her age as it is to her personality (she’s really, really young and she’s lived a pretty sheltered life) but it’s also a big part of her personality. Someone tells her that they are her friend- she believes them! Someone tells her that they are in love with her- she believes that too! She’s completely guileless. She never suspects anybody of being a liar or manipulative because she isn’t one herself.

Part of growing up is learning that that’s not the case- that people don’t treat you exactly as you treat them, that some people are liars, that some are users, that, more broadly, everyone is not you and doesn’t see the world as you do. Believing endlessly in people who continually let you down doesn’t do anybody any good. Over the course of Northanger, Catherine learns that; she really, really learns that lesson down to the depths of her heart. It transforms her as a person. She moves from innocent, naive girl to a young woman no less soft-hearted but much more clear-eyed and firm.

Her lesson presents itself in her experience with two families specifically- the Tilneys and the Thorpes. When she comes to Bath they are the two families she meets and Catherine spends the first half of the novel being pulled between them

(like sometimes literally, remember when the Tilneys ask her to go for a walk and then Isabella and John and her brother practically force her into coming to Blaise castle with them? I love that moment SO FREAKING MUCH because a) I have LIVED that moment and b) it’s such a perfect literal, physical representation of what’s happening in her soul while being so common and awkward and ordinary and UGH I LOVE IT)

and the SECOND half of the novel learning how to choose between them. Catherine is a girl with a good heart and good instincts. As a reader, you know that she likes the Tilneys better than the Thorpes even if Catherine (oblivious, sweet summer child that she is) doesn’t. You can see it in how she comes to life when she’s around them, in how she rises to the challenge of their teasing and to the heights of their conversation (not that their conversations are absurdly high but markedly above that of the Thorpes), in how she practically sparkles when she’s with them (and I include Eleanor in this as well as Henry). But it’s hard because the Thorpes profess such genuine love for her (Isabella is always continually calling her my sweetest friend etc. and John never shuts up about how beautiful she is) and people always mean what they say, right? RIGHT?

But they don’t. And so Catherine has to learn to look at people’s actions instead of just their words and has to see where someone’s actions and words line up and where they contradict each other. When confronted with evidence and bolstered by her friendship with the Tilneys, Catherine does so pretty easily. She’s naive and good-hearted and young and oblivious but she isn’t stupid. She has a very clear mind and I appreciate that. There’s a moment in the book where she receives Isabella’s letter, written to explain away why she broke Catherine’s brother James’ heart, and Catherine has a beautiful moment of clarity and fury where she realizes, basically- “WOW, she was never my friend.” It’s gorgeous, I love it.

That’s a harder thing than people realize. If you have a soft heart by nature, believing that people are cruel takes courage and it takes practice. It’s as hard or harder than a cruel person learning to be kind. Catherine learns that lesson and puts it into practice- she severs the tie with Isabella herself by refusing to respond- and that’s so special to me.

NOW ON TO THE LOVE PART OF THE STORY

(under the cut because this is already much longer than intended) 

I am so genuinely delighted by this love story even though I understand why it’s not everyone’s favorite. (For one , it’s not everyone’s exact type of love and I don’t think it will ever be fully Emma’s and that’s okay. :D) but it’s definitely more beautiful than people think. You just have to be a little patient with it and accept it for what it is and more importantly for what it is not. It’s not P&P.)

The main reason people don’t passionately love this romance (I think) (one of them anyway) is because Jane Austen is very realistic about it. And she kind of teases her reader a little. There’s a really important part of the book where she talks about how the reality is that Henry would never have thought of Catherine romantically if it wasn’t perfectly clear that she viewed him that way. Jane goes on to say something like “I know this is dreadfully degrading to my heroine” but *insert shrug emoji*. This isn’t Darcy falling in love with Elizabeth LITERALLY against his will and character (etc.) which is, you know, a pretty intoxicating idea considering his wealth, status, and temperament. It’s not Wentworth angrily in love for seven years or Mr. Knightley quietly loving Emma in secret. It’s not even Edward Ferrars who falls for Eleanor pretty quickly. It’s the other way around. It’s the girl falling in love first and essentially initiating the romance herself.

As much as I love that Jane Austen teases her reader about this being degrading, it really, really, really isn’t. And actually, the closer you look the sweeter and (I genuinely hate this word but it fits) empowering??? the romance actually is. Catherine is, as we’ve said, completely open and completely guileless. She doesn’t know how to lie or manipulate. She is always wholly herself and she doesn’t hide that. She wouldn’t know how to hide her interest in Henry if she was aware that she *should*. And really, why should she?

Henry is charming, smart, and “if not handsome, very near it” (FAVE LINE) He’s also kind. OF COURSE she’s going to like him and, considering her temperament, of course it’s going to show. But just because her openness kicks off the romance, that doesn’t mean that Henry was ever anyone’s for the taking and that Catherine just happened to be there, willing it to happen. In fact, I think quite the opposite. He’s a kind person who likes to have fun but he’s sharp and he has high standards. He was never going to fall for just anyone. (Seriously, imagine Isabella trying to win him over with her wiles. He would shut her down SO FAST.) He likes Catherine immediately and enjoys her company. It’s just not love at first sight. He’s not swept off his feet (which is honestly perfectly fine.) The romance comes from the fact that the longer he’s around her, the more he gets to know her, the harder he falls. And before he knows it, he’s fully ready- heart completely in hand- to be with her forever. That’s a big deal and romantic and how it happens is romantic too. Because…

Catherine disarms him. Not with what she knows (Jane tells us pointedly that her education is lacking- which is a different thing than being stupid btw), but with who she is. Her sincerity, her goodness, her openness catch him off guard and I do think that he very genuinely falls in love with her. And yes there’s the whole thing with her imagination running away with her and her making up stories about his dad, and yes he chides her for it and yes she runs sobbing to her room in pain (sidenote: have I ever in my entire life related or sympathized with a character more?? i have not. that moment breaks me open because oh damn. I have lived that. LIVED THAT) but the SECOND SHE COMES OUT OF HER ROOM DISTRESSED WITH HER OWN FOOLISHNESS he does everything he possibly can to be gentle with her. There’s this line Jane uses that just SHOOTS me through the heart and it goes something like “There was no change in Henry’s manner towards her throughout the evening, except he was rather more gentle with her than normal.” I JUST. *bawls for thousands of years*

And yeah, look. I get it. That moment stings our (the female reader’s) pride. Why is it his job to correct her mistake?? Why can’t it be Lizzy bringing proud Darcy to his knees?? But it can’t be that all the time. It shouldn’t be. If a woman is going to be a fully realized character she’s going to have faults too, and she’s not the only one allowed to bring about profound change on someone’s character. And everybody’s flaws are not romantic. Catherine is young and she’s foolish, as most young people are. She’s also deeply innocent and the months she’s spent in Bath and the books she’s been reading have been a huge awakening for her. It’s completely understandable why she lets herself concoct a story. It’s an easy trap. Besides, Henry tells her very explicitly that though the stories were wrong, the instinct guiding her was true. Catherine understood the dynamic at the heart of Northanger Abbey and with her childish imagination concocted a story for it. Moving away from the imagination’s pitfalls leaves Catherine with only deep, strong, and true instincts- a combination Henry sees and loves. 

To sum up this rather rambling passage, Catherine’s fault is not a “romantic” one. It’s embarrassingly real, but Henry’s love for her in spite of and because of her flaws is not embarrassing at all. It’s completely, sincerely whole and beautiful. The whole book is full of these little darts of his tenderness and gentleness towards her

(HEYO ANYONE REMEMBER THAT MOMENT WHEN CATHERINE GETS A LETTER FROM JAMES ABOUT HIS BREAKUP WITH ISABELLA AND SHE STARTS CRYING AND HENRY IS SO UPSET HE CAN’T REALLY BEAR IT???? AND HE TELLS HER EARNESTLY THAT WHATEVER TROUBLE JAMES IS IN HAVING SUCH A SISTER MUST BE A GREAT COMFORT YOUU GUYYYYYYYS HE LOVES HER I’M CRYING)

but it’s also not even JUST THAT. It’s not just tenderness or protectiveness (which aren’t necessarily romantic and which could be felt in non-romantic relationships). It’s the tenderness united with respect and appreciation for her good qualities- her genuineness, her goodness, her TRUTH. And all of that is tied together by the fact that, again, she just disarms him. Henry’s a clever guy. He’s sharp. He can play the game, any game, you want him to. But Catherine doesn’t really play games and so he just falls. He really does. This isn’t a book about a guy “settling” for a girl because she chose him. This is a story about a guy who meets a girl who simply and directly chooses him and then going “OH WOW. I’m in love now”. 

K, so example time.

One of my FAVORITE moments in the entire book is right after the Blaise Castle incident. The Set up is that Catherine was supposed to go on a walk with the Tilneys but then the Thorpes bully her into going with them instead (yes she should have stood up to them but she’s growing you guys, she’s learning) and so it looks to the Tilneys like she blew them off. They see each other at the opera and it’s clear that Henry is hurt, and he treats her coldly. Catherine is so upset by this that she can barely stay in her seat. She runs after him and his sister to give her most heartfelt apologies and oh boy, are they heartfelt. She’s all hurt, she’s all sincerity, she’s so wounded that she’s wounded them (and him) and YOU GUYS. He just melts. He can’t even handle pretending to be mad at her because she’s just so. damn. cute and earnest.

Jane says something like “Is there a Henry in the world who could resist such an apology? Henry at least could not and he relented immediately etc.” (paraphrase) (but what a good line right)

Point is: she breaks down his walls and defenses incredibly quickly, and there is something very strong and powerful about how direct she is with her feelings. She never tricks him into loving her. Catherine doesn’t know how to play that game; all she can do is be herself. So what she does, unconsciously I think, is make him see her, really see her, and when he does, he falls. Pretty hard and fast. And to me that’s definitely romantic. Jane’s sense of fun and irony (she’s at her most teasing in here) can sometimes make it difficult to find the romance the way we think of it, and it does look different than the archetype of romance we’re perhaps used to, but it’s definitely there. And it’s beautiful! 

That’s all. 

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What's better, TB awareness or ethically sourced coffee?

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I am a very, very big fan of our coffee, but...

If everyone in wealthy countries understood that TB has killed FORTY MILLION PEOPLE since the year 2000, and if everyone in wealthy countries was angry and disgusted by the ongoing horror of underfunded research and treatment distribution, then TB death rates would decline by 60 or 70% over the next decade, simply because more resources would be devoted to finding new treatments and effectively distributing current ones. (We've seen this happen before! Look at HIV/AIDS death between 2005 and 2015! They fell by over 50%, not primarily because of new treatments but because of a dramatic expansion of existing treatments. Same thing could happen with TB.)

Like, we might lose 20 million people in the 2030s to TB, not because it's an impossible problem to solve but because we do not treat the problems of impoverished communities the way we treat the problems of rich communities.

So yeah, TB awareness (and activism! and fundraising! and advocacy for patients!) is vastly, vastly more important than the world's best coffee.

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Censorship is weird. The radio is all like “we can’t expose innocent minds to the word shit” while playing songs that romanticize sexual abuse. 

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By putting half-formed thoughts on the page, we externalize them and are able to evaluate them much more objectively. This is why writers often find that it’s only when they start writing that they figure out what they want to say.

Clive Thompson in his book Smarter Than You Think. If you find yourself in a mental rut, free writing is a great way to get out of it. (via creativesomething)

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8 Bit Medics is a brand new organization comprised of EMS professionals who host various events in order to raise money for charity. We are proud to announce our inaugural event, a 72 hour Zelda Marathon, to be held August 8-10 on our website, 8bitmedics.com. 100% of proceeds from this event will go directly to This Star Won’t Go Out.

Join us live via Twitch TV on 8bitmedics.com, as we spend the weekend playing Zelda to raise money for TSWGO. Chat with us live on Twitter and follow us on Facebook.

We are incredibly excited about this upcoming event and hope that you will watch and donate to help us make it a huge success. DFTBA!

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This was a somewhat challenging topic to take on in four minutes, so here’s a little more explanation. 

I’m not saying that we don’t know things…we know lots of things. But particularly when it comes to social and cultural and economic stuff, we really don’t. It’s so hard to run experiments on the real world, that we tend to do the studies and then no one changes their mind and everyone explains the data in a different way. 

But you can run the “Harry Potter” experiment again with different inputs because “Harry Potter” can only happen once. 

Of course, there are people who are much better at guessing than other people because they know much more about the situations. People who understand, at least, what is and is not possible (which is an excellent place to start if you’re trying to, say, create an independent Palestinian state.) 

Same goes for running a business…you will never take the most successful course, because there are infinite courses and only one maximum one. But some people are very good at finding good courses because they understand their customers and their markets and their employees and have fairly accurate constructions of reality as it relates to their business. 

But the idea that it is the responsibility of every person to have an opinion on everything that matters…and then cling to that opinion as an important part of their identity, sucks. I don’t like it. 

I would rather we discuss these things in terms of values, which is really where our opinions tend to arise from anyhow. So when asked “how do we create more jobs in America” we don’t really try to answer that question. We try to answer the question “How do we create more jobs in America while promoting our own personal values?” 

For things like “How do you end a war” or “How do you feed hungry people” or “How do you eliminate poverty?” I’m going to admit straight up that I don’t know…and defer to the experts because they know a heck of a lot more than me. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. So, yay, I DON’T KNOW!!!

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i’m not saying anything but my absolute favorite hank videos are the

YOU ARE A HUMAN BEING AND THAT MAKES YOU STUPID AND DEPENDENT ON CULTURE AND SELFISH AND BIASED AND FLAWED BUT IT ALSO MAKES YOU UNIQUE AND CREATIVE AND FASCINATING AND MANY-SPLENDORED AND LOVABLE AND AWESOME

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Subplots bring realism to your main plot simply by existing – by interrupting the flow. Why is this? Because life doesn’t move forward all at once. Interruptions happen, change rushes in, we juggle three or ten balls at once. Readers don’t expect continuous narratives.

Elizabeth Sims (via planb-becomeapirate)

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Anonymous asked:

Hello! I'm currently writing a story in first person, something I don't usually do. How do I tell the reader my character's appearance without just going "My name is Joe. I have brown hair and and blue eyes" ect. Because I feel like that would be bad writing. Thanks!

Don’t tell your reader about your character’s appearance all at once. Sprinkle it throughout the story, like this…

Comparisons

Mom’s eyes were blue, like mine.
My green hair almost disappeared in the grassy field.
I was the complete opposite of my sister, who was {describe sister here}

Outside Observations

My boyfriend smiled and said, “How could I resist? You know I have a thing for black hair.”
"That swimsuit was made for bustier girls than you," my friend told me.
"You should smile more often," Mom said. "Sometimes I forget you inherited my dimples."

General Observations

As a first generation Chinese immigrant, I stuck out like a sore thumb among the Wonder Bread kids of the suburbs.
Taming my stubble was like playing a losing game of Whack-a-Mole, but I had to look presentable for the gala.
My nose is long and pointy - perfect for sticking into other people’s business. 
The satchel thumped uncomfortably against my bony hip.

Other

I braided my long, blond hair nervously.
My face was too concave for the sunglasses; they quickly slipped to the tip of my nose.
It was no problem for me to reach the items on the top shelf.
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