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Hyeh-jin. Older than the internet. Civil/environmental engineer. I also write on Ao3 as kawakaeguri. Mostly Dragon Age reblogs, NSFW may appear, so 18+ only.

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So I haven’t been on tumblr in months. Grad school life problems. Buuuuuuut my first semester is over (WOO), I finished with a 4.0 (DOUBLE WOO), and I’m back to writing and hopefully being around on here a bit more until classes start back in January. 

Big hugs and fairy dust to the ones who kept tagging me for fun stuffs when I was MIA because it’s because of them I remembered to log back on here lol. So :* @thejeeperswife​, @shannaraisles​, @inquisition-dragonborn​, and @dismalzelenka​.

And as a thank you to the people who still are following From the Depths of the Void, here’s a little snippet of the next chapter:

“He makes me a better person,” Liviana said quietly. “And Maker knows Cassandra has done wonders for Max’s personality.”
“Oh you’re one to talk-”
“I suspect that goes both ways,” Philip cut in loudly over his son. “Each of you lifts the other up, as it should be. As long as you remain open with one another. Talk. Don’t be afraid to lean on the other if you’re struggling,” this he directed to his daughter, who fidgeted under the table. “Even if you’re afraid they won’t understand, at least give them the chance. There is almost always a solution, if you’re willing to find it.”
“Does this fill your quota of fatherly advice for the year? Ow!”
“Just because you’re an invalid, doesn’t mean I won’t hit you,” Liviana snapped at her brother. 
“Doesn’t that violate some sort of code of chivalry?”
“That’s for knights and chevaliers, you absolute dolt.”
“Obvious, simple sell-swords are far beneath such honorable- Stop hitting me! That one hurt!”
“Andraste give me strength,” Philip sighed. “I tried.”

RECOMMENDED (BELATED) THURSDAY!  Today’s recommendation is by the famous and fantastic @kawakaeguri!  This is a great story of the troubled life of her amazing OC.  I read the first section and caught up within a day!  Enjoy!

Chapters: 61/? Fandom: Dragon Age (Video Games), Dragon Age - All Media Types, Dragon Age II, Dragon Age: Inquisition, Dragon Age (Comics) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con Relationships: Cullen Rutherford/Original Character(s), Cullen Rutherford/Original Female Character(s), Cullen Rutherford/Female Trevelyan, Female Inquisitor/Cullen Rutherford, Fenris/Male Hawke (minor), Female Trevelyan/Sebastian Vael (minor), Sebastian Vael/Original Female Character(s) minor, Sebastian Vael/Original Character(s) (minor) Characters: Male Hawke (Dragon Age), Varric Tethras, Anders (Dragon Age), Fenris (Dragon Age), Isabela (Dragon Age), Aveline Vallen, Bethany Hawke, Carver Hawke, Sebastian Vael, Cullen Rutherford, Cassandra Pentaghast, Dorian Pavus, The Iron Bull (Dragon Age), Sera (Dragon Age), Vivienne (Dragon Age), Cole (Dragon Age), Solas (Dragon Age), Blackwall | Thom Rainier, Leliana (Dragon Age), Josephine Montilyet Additional Tags: Slavery, mention of sexual slavery, Both Hawke siblings are alive, because fuck you bioware, Angst, Redemption, Personal Growth, Slow Burn, Forever Burn, probably smut at some point, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Blood and Violence, Friends to Lovers, now with art!, Comic: Dragon Age: The Silent Grove, Comic: Dragon Age: Until We Sleep, Comic: Dragon Age: Those Who Speak, Vague descriptions of rape and torture, Nothing too explicit or graphic, in Chapter 33, Dark, Mutual Pining, Idiots in Love, Fluff and Angst Series: Part 1 of Liviana Cat Trevelyan Summary:

She barely remembers her childhood in Ostwick, but that has long ceased to matter. Liviana is a slave, bound to the Ludus Atropos of the mighty Tevinter Imperium, and that is her lot in life. And for the most part, it is a relatively comfortable life and she is content, having sold her conscience and soul years ago in order to survive.

Until her friend takes an unimaginable risk and fights back against the ties that have bound them, and Liviana is forced to choose between freedom and death, or worse. She decides to run, but everything is so new and the world is suddenly so very lonely and large. What’s a former slave to do with her life now that she is free? And why the hell is she agreeing to stay in Kirkwall? Surrounded by the taint of blood magic and finding herself in the company of mages, of all things, Liviana struggles to discover what it means to live.

And maybe, even how to love.

Spans DA2 and DAI.

Ahh thank you @thejeeperswife!! 😍😍

A Welcome Intruder- Liviana Trevelyan x Cullen Rutherford

Based off a prompt for a scene someone left me in my comments on Ao3 and I thought it’d be cute. “I’m really hoping for a nightmare scene where she [Liviana] immediately runs to Cullen’s and insists that she was sleeping there and there was nothing he could do about it.”

Find the original fic here- From the Depths of the Void

Prompt fill also posted on Ao3 here.

~~~

The slam of his door below shattered the peaceful stillness of the night. Jolting out of bed, Cullen gasped as his heart thundered within his chest, his skin cold and clammy with sweat. There had been a nightmare, demons, and- He shook his head. It was all foggy now, which was probably for the best. He would rather not recall the events of his dreams while he was awake. “Who goes there?”

No one answered. Frowning as he heard his ladder creak, Cullen silently grasped the hilt of the dagger he always kept under his bed, every muscle in his body on alert and tense from the violent awakening. Holding himself at the ready, he waited and-

Sighed. “Cat,” he breathed as he saw the slight shadow of the Inquisitor pop up through the opening in his floor. “What are you doing here?”

Still ignoring him, Liviana said nothing, and instead just headed straight for his bed and climbed in.

“Um, Cat? Are you sleepwalking?”

“No,” she finally muttered, drawing his blanket up over her head.

“Ah. You do know this is my room then? And my bed?”

“Obviously.”

“Right.” Sighing, Cullen let his grip go lax and stowed the blade safely back where it belonged. “So you’re just what, sleeping here tonight? Cat? What’s wrong?”

“Nightmare,” was all she would admit to him. And he understood all too well. The desire to not be alone, to have some sort of contact with another being, to convince yourself that the demons were not real, that the nightmare was just that, a dream, and nothing more.

“Alright,” he murmured. Grabbing a spare blanket, Cullen spread it over the ground and sat down, only to be met with her furrowed brow glaring at him from above. “What now?”

“What are you doing down there?”

“Sleeping, obviously,” he echoed her.

“Don’t be ridiculous,” she snapped, as if he were the one at fault here. When she had barged into his room, woken him up, and claimed his bed. “Get up here.”

“Sleep with-” It felt different, somehow. The first time they had both been drunk, and unaware of the entirety of their actions. The second had been for survival. She needed his body heat to stay alive, and he had willingly given it. But this was… “You want me to sleep next to you?”

“Why? Does it bother you?” She frowned down at him. “Wait- Are you blushing?”

Damn her perceptive eyes and the bright light of the moons. “No,” he muttered as he climbed up next to her, carefully arranging his body so that he wasn’t touching her bare skin, and Maker’s breath, the threadbare shift she wore hardly covered anything. She couldn’t have known how she affected him so, and he’d be damned before he let her know, lest she think of him as one of those sort of men. “Did you walk across all of Skyhold dressed like that?”

“Had a cloak. Left it on your desk. Why are you blushing?” Dark eyes the color of an evening thunderstorm peered down at him, her elbows propped up upon the mattress so she could see him better. “Do I make you uncomfortable?”

“No! No. Not at all,” he assured her. “It’s just that, well, are you sure I can’t offer you a pair of breeches? Or one of my shirts? Or something?”

“Pants? Why… Oooh,” a grin slowly spread across her face and Cullen groaned. “When was the last time you were with a woman, Ser Stick?”

“That is hardly any of your business,” he grumbled. “I don’t ask you such things.”

“I haven’t slept with anyone since I was a merc, before I arrived at Kirkwall,” Liviana shrugged. “So- eight years? Give or take? Who was after that not-a-widow in Kirkwall, hmm?”

“Mmph.”

“I didn’t hear you.”

Scowling at her, Cullen sighed. “She was the last. I haven’t been with anyone since then.”

“Why?”

“Why haven’t you?”

“Haven’t wanted to,” she replied, far too cheerily. “I’ve got perfectly good fingers of my own, why would I need a partner?”

The sound Cullen made sounded like a cat being drowned. “Cat.”

Giggling, Liviana just snuggled in against his side. “Don’t worry, Cullen. I don’t plan on taking advantage of you, and I know you wouldn’t attack me to sate your manly urges. And if certain parts of you poke me in the morning, I don’t care. In fact, I’d probably hardly notice at all.”

“It’s not that small- Oh, never mind. I walked right into that one, didn’t I?”

“Yes, you did,” she laughed at his petulant tone. “Goodnight, Cullen.”

“Goodni- Wait. I don’t recall saying you could stay here.”

“You didn’t,” she draped his arm around her shoulders and laid her hand upon his chest. “Night.”

“…Goodnight, Cat.”

A Welcome Intruder- Liviana Trevelyan x Cullen Rutherford

Based off a prompt for a scene someone left me in my comments on Ao3 and I thought it’d be cute. “I’m really hoping for a nightmare scene where she [Liviana] immediately runs to Cullen’s and insists that she was sleeping there and there was nothing he could do about it.”

Find the original fic here- From the Depths of the Void

Prompt fill also posted on Ao3 here.

~~~

The slam of his door below shattered the peaceful stillness of the night. Jolting out of bed, Cullen gasped as his heart thundered within his chest, his skin cold and clammy with sweat. There had been a nightmare, demons, and- He shook his head. It was all foggy now, which was probably for the best. He would rather not recall the events of his dreams while he was awake. “Who goes there?”

No one answered. Frowning as he heard his ladder creak, Cullen silently grasped the hilt of the dagger he always kept under his bed, every muscle in his body on alert and tense from the violent awakening. Holding himself at the ready, he waited and-

Sighed. “Cat,” he breathed as he saw the slight shadow of the Inquisitor pop up through the opening in his floor. “What are you doing here?”

Still ignoring him, Liviana said nothing, and instead just headed straight for his bed and climbed in.

“Um, Cat? Are you sleepwalking?”

“No,” she finally muttered, drawing his blanket up over her head.

“Ah. You do know this is my room then? And my bed?”

“Obviously.”

“Right.” Sighing, Cullen let his grip go lax and stowed the blade safely back where it belonged. “So you’re just what, sleeping here tonight? Cat? What’s wrong?”

“Nightmare,” was all she would admit to him. And he understood all too well. The desire to not be alone, to have some sort of contact with another being, to convince yourself that the demons were not real, that the nightmare was just that, a dream, and nothing more.

“Alright,” he murmured. Grabbing a spare blanket, Cullen spread it over the ground and sat down, only to be met with her furrowed brow glaring at him from above. “What now?”

“What are you doing down there?”

“Sleeping, obviously,” he echoed her.

“Don’t be ridiculous,” she snapped, as if he were the one at fault here. When she had barged into his room, woken him up, and claimed his bed. “Get up here.”

“Sleep with-” It felt different, somehow. The first time they had both been drunk, and unaware of the entirety of their actions. The second had been for survival. She needed his body heat to stay alive, and he had willingly given it. But this was… “You want me to sleep next to you?”

“Why? Does it bother you?” She frowned down at him. “Wait- Are you blushing?”

Damn her perceptive eyes and the bright light of the moons. “No,” he muttered as he climbed up next to her, carefully arranging his body so that he wasn’t touching her bare skin, and Maker’s breath, the threadbare shift she wore hardly covered anything. She couldn’t have known how she affected him so, and he’d be damned before he let her know, lest she think of him as one of those sort of men. “Did you walk across all of Skyhold dressed like that?”

“Had a cloak. Left it on your desk. Why are you blushing?” Dark eyes the color of an evening thunderstorm peered down at him, her elbows propped up upon the mattress so she could see him better. “Do I make you uncomfortable?”

“No! No. Not at all,” he assured her. “It’s just that, well, are you sure I can’t offer you a pair of breeches? Or one of my shirts? Or something?”

“Pants? Why… Oooh,” a grin slowly spread across her face and Cullen groaned. “When was the last time you were with a woman, Ser Stick?”

“That is hardly any of your business,” he grumbled. “I don’t ask you such things.”

“I haven’t slept with anyone since I was a merc, before I arrived at Kirkwall,” Liviana shrugged. “So- eight years? Give or take? Who was after that not-a-widow in Kirkwall, hmm?”

“Mmph.”

“I didn’t hear you.”

Scowling at her, Cullen sighed. “She was the last. I haven’t been with anyone since then.”

“Why?”

“Why haven’t you?”

“Haven’t wanted to,” she replied, far too cheerily. “I’ve got perfectly good fingers of my own, why would I need a partner?”

The sound Cullen made sounded like a cat being drowned. “Cat.”

Giggling, Liviana just snuggled in against his side. “Don’t worry, Cullen. I don’t plan on taking advantage of you, and I know you wouldn’t attack me to sate your manly urges. And if certain parts of you poke me in the morning, I don’t care. In fact, I’d probably hardly notice at all.”

“It’s not that small- Oh, never mind. I walked right into that one, didn’t I?”

“Yes, you did,” she laughed at his petulant tone. “Goodnight, Cullen.”

“Goodni- Wait. I don’t recall saying you could stay here.”

“You didn’t,” she draped his arm around her shoulders and laid her hand upon his chest. “Night.”

“...Goodnight, Cat.”

is being into coffee an older sibling thing bc everyone i know who loves coffee is the oldest child

like every oldest child ik loves coffee, the middle child hates it/prefers tea, and the youngest will drink it but only if its super sweet n has a ton of milk

rb w/ if ur oldest, middle, or youngest child and how u feel about coffee

Kawereen’s I-should-have-done-this-1000-years-ago Giveaway!!

Finally! For the first time, I’m doing a short and small giveaway to my kind & lovely followers. Since this is my first time holding a giveaway, I’m going to do a small scale first as I’m still learning how to do this properly. Here are the prizes to be won:

- Likes and/or reblogs to enter. You are welcome to reblog as many times as you want, just don’t spam your followers too much lol

-This giveaway is for my followers only

- I will choose 3 winners which will be picked by random generator

-This giveaway will end on 30th March 2019. I will announce the winners on 31st March

- I will contact the winners through Tumblr’s private message. If the winner don’t  respond back in 72 hours, their prize will automatically cancelled and I will pick another winner

Well, I think that’s it! Good luck guys!! :D

This giveaway will end in 24 hours! Grab this chance while you can ;D

And thank you for the amazing support so far!

fic writers are always looking for literally every opportunity to spoil their works. screw the finished product! i wanna tell you right now what’s going on!

…. really? other writers, is dis true? half the reason i have such trouble idea-bouncing is bc all my fave ppl to do it with are the same ones that i most want to surprise (and hopefully make happy) with the next chapter.

it’s the eternal struggle. I want to tell you RIGHT NOW but I want your honest surprise and angry messages when you see it in the next chapter.

It leads to suffering.

I feel called out, rude.

Last Line Meme

Tagged by @agentkatie HI I LOVE YOU

Let’s do 2 passages, because I’m incapable of doing just sentences. One’s from the next chapter of From the Depths of the Void, and the other from the chapter I’m currently working on. :)

Chapter 57

Slipping past the girl, Cullen opened the door again and peeked over the banister. It was as the servant said, the room still immaculate, not a thing out of place, except for Liviana’s bags shoved against the far wall. And one closet door that was slightly ajar. Shaking his head, he pushed the side door open all the way and sighed.
“You walk so loud,” a pile of blankets grumbled from the floor.
“You can’t sleep in your closet, Cat.”
“Why not?” a voice mumbled petulantly.
“Because it’s- it’s a closet,” he replied, flabbergasted that he was even having this conversation. With his superior, no less. Who was also Liviana, but still.
“And now it’s my bedroom.”

Chapter ???

“Ideally, once the bulk of our work in complete and Corypheus has been defeated, I would like to accompany Catalina more. She gets up to enormous amounts of trouble on her own.”
“I do not,” Liviana grumbled. “Just because the pinnacle of your excitement consists of combing your hair left to right instead of right to left and calibrating trebuchets doesn’t mean my fun is called trouble.”

Negative OC Traits

Tagged by @thejeeperswife​​ :* thanks lovely!

BOLD what applies always.  ITALICIZE what applies sometimes.

Evelyn Catalina “Liviana” Trevelyan

absent-minded | addict | aggressive | aloof | antisocial | arrogant | authoritarian | biased | bitter | blasé | blithe | brutal | callous | cannibal | careless | childish | cold/cold-hearted | complacent | compulsive | conceited | controlling | corrects others constantly | cowardly | critical | cruel | deceptive | deceitful | delusional | demanding | disillusioned | disloyal | disrespectful | distant | distractible | disputatious | disobedient | domineering | envious | emotionally stunted | facetious | finicky | foolish | forgetful | greedy | grim | guarded | hard | harsh | haughty | hypocritical | indulgent | impatient | impolite | impulsive | inconsistent | inconsiderate | indifferent | insecure | insensitive | irresponsible | irritable | intimidating | judgmental | kidnapper | kinslayer | lazy | liar | loud | lustful | manipulative | materialistic | mean | merciless | messianic | messy | mischievous | mistrusting | moody |  murderer | narrow-minded | naughty | nonchalant | obsessive | opinionated | obtrusive | over-bearing | over-confident | over-critical | over-emotional | over-thinking | passive-aggressive | patronizing | petty | pompous | presumptuous | proud | remote | repressed | ridiculous | rigid | rules with an iron fist | ruthless | sarcastic | self-centered | self-righteous | self-indulgent | serial killer | single-minded | taciturn | timid | temperamental |torturer | touchy | traitorous | unsympathetic | unpredictable | uptight | vain | vengeful | weak-willed | workaholic |

What do y’all think? Did I miss anything?

Art by @elizastarkart​ <3

Tagging @kimpossibility​, @laraslandlockedblues​, @beckily​, @shannaraisles​, @agentkatie​ as always just if you want and get bored :)

yfip: sebastian vael

  • i just missed everything he said because i was staring at his face
  • something about a family? and murder?

Lord Bryan

Lord Bryan Edwin Dracon (Trevelyan)

I can not express how much I love this portrait done by the incredibly talented Gerry Arthur. Bryan is one of the leading characters in the original fiction I’ve been writing for about 3 years now, and I have recently thrown him into the world of DA to join his sister Annabel. 

I’ve spent ages staring at him already and am falling ever more in love. It means so much to have him brought to life after so much development and after so many years… I just can’t express how happy this has made me. And its only the WIP sketch! 

Please go browse Gerry Arthur’s work via his DeviantArt gallery . You can also find him on Instagram or Email gerrycommission@gmail.com for more commission info. He honestly took my description, a face claim and a DA screenshot and made this (I think maybe he is a wizard).

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Bryan!!! If I wasn’t typing on a windows machine there’d be emojis for days. He’s so perfect! <3 <3

Can’t wait to see the final thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*emerges from darkness* I’m so sorry guys that I’m not so active recently, but I’m really overwhelmed from my works @__@ summer+ september/october are the worst for me.

BTW!! Here’s the commission for the sweetiest of the sweets asolitaryrose, of her gorgeous inquisitor Haddiyah and Josephine  ♥ ♥ ♥

I love drawing stuff like thisssss mmlmml  ♥

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Here is my most recent commission piece - for elidooooo on twitter of their Inquisitor Trevelyan and Dorian Pavus!

It’s complete with a personalized floral pattern where each flower represents an aspect of their relationship/ story. Moreover, some flowers in the background scenery also have meanings. It’s something I love doing, adding sometimes inconspicuous interpretive value to a piece of artwork :)

Oh and about the tumblr debacle… I will still be using my account, but everything artsy will be posted at least a few days earlier over on my twitter account. 

Any WIPs or fun tidbits will be uploaded almost exclusively there, so consider following me there! >[My Twitter]< 

Wow wow wow wow this is stunning OMG

 I’m afraid of Americans

This is super real.

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Completely accurate.

It’s hilarious watching non-Americans react to this with fear because I read it just nodding along like “yes, in fact this is How Things Are, there you go”

If you ask an American how they are and they respond “Super.” that means they want to die

ACCURATE

If they say they’re peachy it means they’re tired of existence

If they say “Living the dream,” it means “please kill me, I hate my job so, so much.”

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This is very similar to how Australians express themselves

Source: twitter.com

Last Line Meme

So I think I’ve missed a few of these, or other tags in general because I suck at getting on Tumblr buuuuut @beckily tagged me in this and I remembered! Yay her! Yay me!

This is way ahead in From the Depths of the Void. Like chapter 60 ish something ahead. A bit of a teaser-

“I know,” she brushed back his hair from his face, trying not to wince at the jolt of the dissonant song that coursed through her at the faintest contact.

Anonymous asked:

An idea Im stuck with: Cullen helping find the SacredAshes right after the Broken Circle. He almost freak out with the ghosts and easily solves that damn puzzle, but then the wall of flames comes. Hes already on the verge of a breakdown and cant undress himself and be so vulnerable like that, but after a lot of talk he does. Alistair hold his right hand, the Hof the left, and Leliana is holding his shoulders behind him, signing Dawn Will Come. They pass the flamewall and Cullen is blissfull.

I always thought about a story line if Cullen was made a Warden after the Broken Circle quest. How different his life would have turned out. That’s a lovely image, nonny.