So somehow I made it through highschool without a boyfriend. I know it's stupid, but I feel awful about it. I should've at least had one, you know? I look at all of my classmates and see that that they have boyfriends and I feel even more like an outsider, like I've always been. I don't know. I feel stupid, I'm just being dumb.

I understand. It’s not stupid at all! You see everyone around you with boyfriends, and feel like there must be something “wrong” with you to have not had one at this point in your life. But there isn’t! In fact, waiting until later to have your first boyfriend isn’t all that unusual. 

It sounds like you’ve graduated high school, so I have some good news for you. It’s much easier to find a meaningful, lasting relationship after you get out of the hormonal hell that is the typical high school. You’ll meet people doing things you enjoy, which means you already have a common interest. If you go to college, you may fall in love with someone with the same major, or someone you meet at a random activity. Or you could find someone at the gas station. 

Or you could just not be into romantic relationships. That’s totally fine too. People who have little to no desire to be in a romantic relationship are called aromantic, and you can find out a bit more about that here.

There’s no such thing as normal, love. The whole adult world is made up of people trying to do the best they can while judging how everyone else is doing the same thing. Fuck that noise. As long as you’re happy and healthy and not hurting anyone else, you’re just fine.