TW: growing up undiagnosed neurodivergent and always the outsider
As a kid I saw myself as Spock:
I make the most sense. Humans make emotional/sentimental nonsense that is often impractical, and can't deal with me not engaging in it. They mock and sometimes outright bully me over my weirdness, but due to me being objectively weird it's totally okay and acceptable. Which also means my irritation over it is a fault of mine.
Then I upgraded to Data:
I've learned emotions serve a purpose. I still don't understand humans but if I learn to imitate them well enough, I will functionally become human and they will stop criticizing me for not humaning properly. I have a couple of friends who criticize me for humaning incorrectly only sometimes.
By now I upgraded to Odo:
I learnt I'm not the only one of my species but still mostly feel alone and like "the only one of my kind". I integrate into some aspects of human(oid) culture, purposefully don't integrate in others, and fail to integrate in some. I know I don't have to integrate so when someone complains I'm very "hrmpf" about it. It still hurts both to get those critiques and to see people stop accepting me as soon as I show any of my more changeling qualities, though. I do have friends that are fully accepting (I think). I kind of resent human(oid)s.
I hope to upgrade to Phlox someday:
Curious about the human stuff and engages in it. Never shy about doing denobulan stuff. If people criticize me for it, I just smile and shrug. And if humans do weird sentimental things I don't understand, I also just smile and shrug. "I don't get it and I don't need to."