Bailblog #9
Hey everyone, its ya boy back with another bailblog. Honestly my main reason for this one was that I feel I’ve been losing my typing skills that I need to keep razor-sharp for this next year of code. I’m typing this on my mechanical keyboard that I really think all of you of tumblr would really like how it looks, so maybe I’ll show you guys sometime soon (can you say, “glowblog”?).
WIthout further ado, lets say some things about myself.
I’m not much of one to open up, so writing (or typing) for me seems to let the emotional juices flow. That’s probably why I started doing these things so long ago, and I’m kind of sad I abandoned them for so long. But I guess there’s no time like the present, so type away I must.
I’ve never been one who’s thoroughly enjoyed summer. Sure, the time off from school is great, I can see my friends, yadda yadda yadda. This is fun for about a month or so, but then I wish I was anywhere else.
Especially as of late.
I get tired of doing the same thing most summer days. It’s a cycle of wake up (pretty late usually), chill around for a while, and wait for someone to hit me up to do something. Usually it’s just someone who wants to get baked somewhere, while that was fun for awhile, the novelty of it has worn off. People will tell me to go out and explore the world, but working five days a week has left me with little time to go somewhere I haven’t recently explored. This coming week I have 5 days off and am looking to take advantage, so if any of you have a good place to roadtrip in mind, please oh please tell me about it. I’m thinking of Canada, or maybe Utah, or somewhere with some sweet sweet views. It’ll be my last chance til like September to do something spontaneous. I’m still kind of looking for people to go with too, I’ve got one friend but he really wants to be home before the 4th of July but I can’t make any promises. I dunno if no one comes with or can come with maybe I’ll just go by myself.
(insert sick transition here!!)
Wanna know something else that kind of really blows? (wouldnt be a bailblog without somethin touchy, would it?) Break ups. Break ups suck. I never thought they would be so hard! While I’ve only had one in my life - about a month ago (heh, actually a month to today) - it really takes a toll on a person! It feels weird not talking to someone who you talked to p much exclusively for a while. I understand that people need space -and honestly space is probably doing me some good too- its just hard. It’s a challenge to not think about it a lot, and I run circles in my mind all day about it. If I had a flower with a million petals I would still be pulling em off. I dunno, I guess I’m bad with moving on from things I care about. I’m trying my best and maybe slowly I’ve been feeling better, but hopefully typing out my thoughts will put me in the right direction.
Idk I have more to say but I shant for the sake of being a better person.
Enjoy your summers while u got em, people.
and listen to a healthy portion of james blake if ur feelin down, that what I do.
bmom
B-mom! Loved the read. Go find that summer excitement man!!! While it may not seem like it cause work. Every minute of your life you are constantly making decisions. Those decisions have a direct impact in you're everyday life. They can be small things like grabbing an apple on your way out or waking up 30 min early for some alone time. These small changes will make a big difference. It seems you have found the answer yourself already. Your daily life is mundane and summer has left you empty and bored. NOW CHANGE IT BROTHA!!! Make those little changes, and manipulate your life until you feel at peace and in ecstasy with the simple pleasures of the everyday life. Peace and love man!!!! @bailmom2001
