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“I miss the way I could look into your eyes and see all the hope in the world that tomorrow promised.”
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“It’s just been one of those days. When the minutes go by too slowly, and the sunlight shines with no warmth. The kind where everything seems to collapse on one another, and nothing fits quite right. When the day has a lingering feeling of forgetting something, but not knowing what. It’s been the kind of day where you just feel, lost. Like a part of you is missing, and you just, ache.”
— “Off-day” remnant-thoughts
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hookayy-deactivated20211224
you one stupid ass mother fucker if you let me go
Every night I sink into darkness. When I jolt awake from the nightmare that recaps every wretched night in my head, everything still seems to be incomprehensible. The everlasting feeling of wretchedness is imprinted into my body. It is a part of me, a part of who I am. I have thought my own mind into some type of melancholy, and I no longer feel acceptance of living my very own life. So as the days hang heavy, so does my chest. It is wearisome to breath some days. This is what I have shaped of myself and it is only a matter of time until I can one day be ordinary again.
— k-ayyg
the answer to all problems
what would happen if i actually did die? just end everything. how would people feel? i wouldn’t be in pain anymore. i don’t want to be in pain. maybe i should.
this is the end.
k-ayyg reblogged
When you told me you were sad,
I thought you were just having a bad day.
When you told me you didn’t want to get out of bed,
I thought maybe you’re just tired.
When you told me you felt worthless,
I wanted you to understand the worth you truly have.
When you came to me with watery, bloodshot eyes,
I could see the tears drowning away your happiness.
When you told me you didn’t want to live anymore,
All I wanted to do was hold you until the pain was gone.
In all these ways I tried to show you that I love you.
I wish you could understand the greatness of my love for you.
Because darling maybe we wouldn’t be where we are at now.
k-ayyg
At some point life just gets to be too much. You don’t know how to get out of bed in the morning, you don’t know how to go to work or school. You don’t know how to process a life without pain and suffering. There seems to be only one way to get rid of everything. Forever.
k-ayyg reblogged
i want to kill myself.
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wordsnquotes
Never apologize for burning too brightly or collapsing into yourself every night. That is how galaxies are made.
Tyler Kent White (via wordsnquotes)
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k-ayyg reblogged
Find someone who pays attention. Who runs their fingers over your every scar; and asks where each one came from. Find someone who knows how you like your coffee; what song makes you want to roll the windows down and slam on the gas pedal. Find someone who takes in your smallest details; who notices the things you thought no one ever would.
And then…when you find them…
Be their someone, too.
a paragraph about falling in love, deep3snplottwists (via wnq-writers)
I adore this
(via br0ken-and-lost)
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k-ayyg reblogged
I’ve wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow I am still in love with life
Voltaire, Candide (via wordsnquotes)
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wordsnquotes
You’ll meet her, she’s very pretty, even though sometimes she’s sad for many days at a time. You’ll see, when she smiles, you’ll love her.
Source: wordsnquotes.com
I stand in the shower with the scorching water hitting my back. The only time I move was to turn up the heat of the water. The only thing I could do was stand there and cry. Feel my heart drop to my stomach and then feel it break. Then, i feel nothing. I feel nothing, and I am nothing.
death
ending everything always seems like a good idea. i'm stuck with the constant feeling of being trapped. of being trapped in my thoughts, trapped in my house, trapped in everything i do. i want to be able to be free. i hate feeling so worthless. and unloved. and forgotten. i hate being me. i want to end everything. there would be less problems if i weren't here. for everyone.
wake n bake ayyee