Listen I KNOW this is gonna sound stupid and I KNOW you're probably sitting there like "are you dumb" BUT BUT B U T realizing that its okay not to know what to do with your life, not to be sure, not to have a job and not go to school because you're figuring stuff out. It's okay to do odd little things to get by. Sometimes you gotta debate "what do I want to indulge in? Do I let myself enjoy it? Do I spread out its use?" And you know what? I put more creamer in my coffee and used more rose lotion and I don't know whats in my future but. I have a future. Everyone's expectations for me have failed left because of this year and I have never been this free.
The world is overwhelming and sad but puppies still carry boxes around for no reason and people save kittens and baby goats because they can and my dad bought me two bags of pizza rolls and I gave my new step siblings their Christmas presents a month early.
The world is still good. You can have fun and not know whats going on. You can be happy AND without a purpose. I love you, whoever you are.
And I'm proud of you for existing in your own type of weird bliss





