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Watching over.

@justuselesswatcher

found out 2 months after the attack that i’m 2 months along. don’t have enough money to cover moving expenses and there’s no fucking way i’m telling my transphobic parents either. my cash*pp is $marcotheraz in case you’d like to donate there instead.

Hey, so some people have complained about payments not going through on fundrazr. If you run into that, you can also try giving through my kofi: https://ko-fi.com/marcotheraz.  Thanks so much. 

edit: tumblr won’t let me blaze this and didn’t offer an explanation as so why :) didn’t get a refund either

you hate blazes and i hate them too sorry to bother ya but i’m trying to raise my chances of getting a roommate in northeast philly by may 15th for a lease that’s ready to go

i currently have a lease on hold for me and i’m escaping a physically abusive household, you can read details about my situation here, anyways the rent would be 847 a month in a townhome with your own private bed and bath, water and electric included, as well as an in unit laundry and parking space in a newly renovated building, full kitchen and living room, i have two cats so no more pets are allowed on the lease im sorry <\3

i can pay the application fee, and you can dm me for details about the place if your serious but please don’t message if you aren’t looking to move asap, my would be roommate dropped out on the day i would’ve submitted a security deposit and i’m desperate, id rlly prefer a lgbt roommate (i’m a trans femme guy, tme) i don’t mind couples or smokers and i’ll stay out of ur way / be very clean, we have our own bed and bathrooms so very little interaction

if you know anyone that needs a roommate or is trying to find a new place near northeast philly plz spread this, i have a technical 30 day hold on this place but a security deposit hold til may the 15th, otherwise i’ll have to reapply entirely, im kinda begging for help rn bc i’m running out of options :D thanks for reading and here’s a pic of my cats as an apology for the block of text on your dash

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fucked up shoplifting groceries and was forced to spend a lot more money than expected incident. millions dead

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if anyone wants to send me some bucks on ko-fi id appreciate that. moneys been though i need to shoplift to survive

tonysopranobignaturals-deactiva

saw this person on tiktok say people shouldn't abandon relatives struggling with psychosis just because they're 'hard to deal with' or whatever and someone in the comments was like "well it's not our fault they don't seek help"...i'm sorry do you think a psychotic person not "seeking help" is a personal attack and not, I don't know, literally how psychosis works? you think a delusional person genuinely convinced they're being watched, stalked, etc is going to walk into a hospital and say "I need therapy and medication"? no, because they don't fucking know what they're experiencing isn't real. in fact, hospitalization during psychosis is terrifying. the first time it happened to me, the things I experienced were so horrible that i'm scared to even see doctors now. the best thing to do in this situation is reach out to the person, ask them about their experiences, and become a source of support and trust. isolation is the worst possible scenario.

least favorite genre of post on here has gotta be "having mental illness doesn't excuse bad behavior" from people with depression/anxiety, who mistakenly believe everyone with psychosis is simply suffering from distorted thinking like they are. i have the kind of bipolar that causes psychosis under the wrong conditions and it is radically different from the distorted thinking i have when manic or depressed. "distorted thinking" is "there's nothing wrong with stealing those groceries from a stranger's car, they won't catch you and you need it more than them". "psychosis" is "you're not stealing those groceries in that stranger's car, they belong to you and those people are just holding them". (never mind that "i haven't eaten in days and they can afford a car" morally complicates either situation for a moment.)

i have been in a state where i earnestly believed things that were radically untrue and they lead me to cause harm to others. these were not minor distortions in an otherwise accurate picture of the world, they were fundamentally incorrect pictures of the world. some of them were fairly innocuous and are largely water under the bridge. some of them were serious and i still feel shame about them now. but i have also seen people hounded to the ends of the earth over shit they did in a delusional state which would be utterly out of character while compos mentis and it feels cosmically unfair.

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could some rich philanthropist who somehow follows me give me a grand for my cat’s treatment NOW

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HIM btw, if you even CARED

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he’s been doing better the past couple days. he’s back to purring and when we feed him he’s got enough energy to fight now. treatments ongoing since the original vet stay so on top of paying that off we gotta pay for his anti nausea and IV fluids so anything you can send goes a long way!! ty to everyone who’s sent something already too

🚨🆘VERY URGENT 🆘🚨🆘 FEBRUARY DEADLINE!🆘🚨 I will die if I don't get money! I am trans and need this money to live!

STOP SCROLLING AT ONCE!!!⛔

I am a trans lesbian asylum seeker fleeing violence and discrimination in my passport country. I am legally forbidden from seeking or accepting employment until potentially as late as mid-2026! I have other problems as well but I believe this will suffice!

I live in a country that is undergoing a cost of living crisis due to economic dependence on an airbnb and tourism scams. As a foreigner I am extra susceptible to this. I have a landlord. He doesn't do shit, and charges me a lot of money for it.

I am a long-time tumblrina and have been supporting myself in this way for years.

$113 has been raised so far out of a necessary goal of $750. This money must be raised by the end of february in order to pay the same mundane life expenses that all working-class people have.

$113/750

$169/750

pace is pickig up a bit, but just broke a tooth and now im slated for like $100 in dental work :( is an expense

$228/750

For some reason there was like a 2 week period where nobody donated but we're almost a third of the way to the goal!!!

$317/750

my rent is $320 so let's call that done. at $400 we reach the stretch goal of keeping my electricity on .