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You can’t change the past… only how it shapes you

I’m a love-drunken fool sometimes

The most frustrating feeling is to be wholly in love with someone who will never be in love with you.

Happy 12/20! May God bless you with a happy, healthy, fulfilling life 💜💚

I miss Claudine

Can’t spend the rest of your lifetime wanting someone who doesn’t want you anymore 😔

Happy birthday, to my favorite person! You were with me through a lot and I still love you dearly. I want to make a lifetime of new memories & adventures with you even now, but I’ve lost that opportunity. I wish & pray the absolute best for you, but I can’t sit here and watch you fall for another person. I want to be your first, last, always, and forever. You seem to have become so indifferent that it feels like hate & complete disregard, but I know that you are defending your heart. There’s probably not even the smallest inkling of wanting me or for things to be different/better between us; and you’d be totally justified to feel that way. I’ll accept what it is & become the best I can. I pray God blesses you with the best He can; like he did for me all those years ago.

The hope & prayer that grasp tightly that lay in the deepest, darkest, loneliest place in my heart is that I get the opportunity one day to be the man and partner of your life; and that I strong enough and confident enough and solid enough to never let you down the way in the past I have ever again. I want to build up a life with you that's magically amazing; one that makes you realize that you don't regret investing your time, energy, and love with me for all these years. I made major bad decision that weren't made with love and I had issues with myself that I needed to face, but never fully addressed. I'm doing everything I can to fix & outgrow my shortcomings. I know you can't afford to risk and won't wait. However, I'm doing this so that I'll be ready to receive "MyBlessing" that I've prayed for comes into my life. I still truly want it to be you. The first time when I prayed about it, you came along. And you were everything I could've asked for. I loved you authentically and genuinely tried to always bring positivit to you and us. But I also learned much of where I had no idea what I was doing many times. Toward the end, my decisions & actions destroyed what we had and it's my sole regret in this life. I will not and cannot afford to repeat those mistakes ever again. This, I am committed to. I hope that one day I get the opportunity to rebuild anew with you and spend my life adventuring and creating the best memories with you. Thanks for the time you spent with me. And thanks for everything you taught me about myself and what I needed to do.

I'm just tired :/

Ultimately, it just feels like my hands are completely tied. I don't know what to do and haven't for months now. I never want to give up because I know what it's like to live life without you in it. I pray God give you His very best and that you live the greatest, happiest, most fulfilled life you could ask for. I love you still; seems like I always will. Goodnight, my Blessing.

I swear love can make you a f--king idiot 😒

Never give up on the person you are totally in love with when you still have a chance, you’ll always regret it if you choose otherwise

Sometimes you mess up so much with a person that it there’s literally nothing you can do to fix it. That person can mean the world to you and you somehow find all the wrong things to do and it leads you to making things worse off with her. You can’t keep living like that. You need grow and make changes, otherwise your life will spiral out of control. Even though, you may so lost that you’re afraid to take any action, you must continue moving; mistakes & all. Starting with getting yourself & your life under control, you need to get back to a good place of equilibrium. One day, she may see the change/growth and decide that she would like to be a part of your life again, but if she doesn’t.... you just have to live with it and eventually be ok with it. No matter how much you hate the idea of living your life without her in it, you can’t make her fall in love with you again and you can’t hold her back from finding everything she really wants in another person. Even if you hate how everything has played out because of your decisions, you can’t change history. You can only change yourself and keep hope towards building a better future for your life. Be better, live better, and remember that you are always loved.

“Your soulmate is your compliment, NOT your missing piece” #ThisShowIsTheBest