The worst thing about anxiety is that you know those thoughts are irrational, you just can’t seem to control them

Reblog if you’ve done any of the above ^

I’m constantly stuck in between “why wont anyone notice me?” and “please don’t notice me”

in the end my family will have to pay around 10 000 dollars for getting me medical help… when they told me the price at the hospital i wanted to get up and go back to poland, but i was already in an extremely bad shape and couldnt go even for a moment without the ivs with painkillers. when they tried to discharge me, after a minute of being in the wheelchair i started shaking, vomitting from pain and losing consciousness. it was one of the most fucked up moments of my life because i was left to make a decision - either to put everyone into a giant debt or to simply die, alone and in a country ive never even been to, so truly, i never really had a choice huh

thank you all so much for your kindness and saying that you would like to help, it means a world to me. my paypal is eryka.grabowska@gmail.com, but please, dont send me money if you yourself may need it soon. if youre not able to donate at all, its all okay too, im more that extremely grateful that you are just here to support me in this situation ❤ thank you so so much

Please help Eryka if you can, every penny counts!!! They’re a great, loving and amazing person who didn’t deserve to go through all this pain and the fact that they need to pay so much for it is ridiculous and simply unjust. If you’re from US, even 5 dollars will make a big difference!! Please consider donating and if you do, thank you so so much. If you can’t donate, please reblog this post, so maybe someone else will be able to. Any help is greatly appreciated!!

im not really the one to do commissions, but for every person who will donate anything and dm me a proof, i will sketch a small drawing (like this or this). i know its the end of a month and pretty much everyone is tight with money, but please, consider helping Kosma. its a horrifying amount, especially to people in poland - if i had to pay it off myself, it would take me 24 months. even one dollar can help!!!!!!!

I’m always here for everyone.

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shit from 2017 I was too embarrassed to post but now I Gave Up completely so here goes nothing hhfjjhffd

2008

:( = i’m sad

:) = i’m happy

2018

:( = i’m alright, just a little down

:) = im miserable and its gotten to the point i don’t want to express my feelings anymore because it doesn’t matter who i tell, nothing in me changes, no amount attention, or love, or closure help at all

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People with depression can smile

People with depression can laugh

People with depression can eat normally

People with depression can have good sleeping

People with depression can seem happy

People with depression can have good grades

People with depression can be happy at some points

People with depression can have good days

People with depression don’t always appear to have depression

Note to my ex.

Today my professor told me every cell in our entire body is destroyed and replaced every seven years. How comforting it is to know that one day I will have a body that you will have never touched.

This just made me feel so warm.

thank you.

Important especially for victims of abuse, remember your body is yours and it heals in more ways than you realize.

^^^^^

I reblog this every time I see it because every time, I’m a little more me and a little less you.

Happy IWD2018 <3