Things I wish people understood about eating disorders:

1. Most people with eating disorders don’t literally starve themselves, they restrict. Just because you see us eating doesn’t mean we’re getting better.

2. The horrible, absolutely torturous feeling we get after we eat. No matter what it is, how many Calories… it’s always there.

3. You. Don’t. Have. To. Be. Thin. To. Have. An. Eating. Disorder. God someone needs to scream this one from the top of a building.

4. It’s life consuming. Food is always on my mind.

What I’ll eat next, when I’ll eat next, how I’ll burn it off

5. I can’t just ‘snap out of it’ and I can’t ‘just eat’

These are two of the worst things you can say.

6. I understand what my disorder is doing to me mentally and physically, believe me I do.

♡

7. It’s not a fucking diet

8. We don’t have to be working out 24/7 to be considered mentally ill

9. Some days we can eat a whole bar of chocolate and some days we have a breakdown over a single apple slice, it’s not all black and white.

10. Not everyone with an ED has anorexia or bulimia, in fact, BED is the most common ED. 

11. this isn’t for attention :)

12. it’s not just cis white girls

13. shaming us for it or making us feel guilty won’t make us stop, it makes us isolate ourselves even more, making the disorder even worse. we know we’re hurting people. we know. that’s the problem.

having an eating disorder without being underweight is the worst cause not only do you doubt yourself but everyone else doubts you too and you know it’s wrong to romanticize this shit but you get so jealous of people who “look disordered” and then you get like, an overwhelming sense of guilt because you KNOW that’s a shitty thing to do but you can’t help it you just want to be sick enough that someone wants to help

It’s sad but kind of true

People with EDs during quarantine

50% of people: omg!! i have three weeks to get skinny! i'm gonna come back to school so FIT!

the other 50%: send help. i cannot stop eating. i have eaten my entire kitchen and it's only 9 am. i'm dying

i am both at the same time

People need to realize that there’s a difference between straight people and Straight People™

Straight person: Hey, you got a new haircut. Looks really good.

Straight Person™: No homo, but your haircut looks good on you.

In case you were confused 👌

Just like how there are white people who are gay and then there are the White Gays

White people who are gay: “I’m gay.”

White Gays: “I can’t believe I got accused of racism after calling that person a racial slur! I mean, I know what racism looks like because I’ve been discriminated for my sexuality. How is me being racist even possible? I’M GAY!”

Lmao all the angry White and Straight people in the comments, keep reblogging

neurotypical: i don’t have any mental illnesses or disorders Neurotypical™: Happiness is a choice!! ✨✨Have you tried yoga? Drink more water and eat kale ✨✨

cis person: i identify completely as my assigned gender Cis Person™: It doesn’t matter what you identify as, cause you still have Female Genitals! I’m not being offensive!! Read a book on Human Biology! 🚹🚺

men: I identify as male.

Men™: feminazis ruin everything, get back in the kitchen and make me a sandwich bitch

read this fuckin post

You ever get the urge to just ruin your life? Start drinking, smoking, doing hard drugs. Telling everyone you know to fuck off. Cut until you’re covered with angry marks. You know it won’t help anything. But you can’t help but dream about it.

suddenly remembered this poem as i was making breakfast this morning & frantically googled “poem remembered to buy eggs?????????” & somehow managed to find it & it utterly knocked the wind out of me just as much as when i first read it

the me’s in my head

Every day I wake up wondering which one I’ll be.

true true…

Just an experiment. Reblog if you actually give a fuck about male victims of domestic violence and rape.

Of fucking course

What sick bastard doesn’t

Unfollow me right now if you don’t repost this. Right now.

having an ed in the midst of everything happening right now makes me feel so guilty. i’m over here trying to be sKinNy when there are people literally dying and being hurt and protesting for their lives. i’m so overwhelmed with everything but i know that i need to take a stand for what i believe in. it’s just so conflicting having a mental illness during the countless sickening things happening in this god forsaken world. i hope everyone is doing okay and not stressing out too much about everything. yes, there is a huge problem, but nothing is going to be solved if we’re not in a good enough mind set to think correctly. sending love to you all, whoever reads this 🖤

5-31-20, 1:40 am

all pedophiles should die and theres literally no downside to them all dropping dead

i want to personally give everyone who reblogged this a high five

i’m screaming i just lost 8 followers after reblogging this bye fuckers i hope you all drop dead

Luckily for me, my followers are decent human beings and know that older people sexually assaulting children is fucking disgusting.

if you don’t reblog this you shall perish by my hand

Duck I’m an atheist but I randomly remembered that the bible says pedophilia is a sin and when there are Christian homophobes (not all Christians my best mates luvly) it’s actually a translation issue. In the original Greek it says “man shall not lie with BOY” not “ man shall not lie with MAN” Totally random but overly Christian primary/elementary schools kinda stick to you

So Im someone that gets understimulated easily, especially in right now in quarantine. So i made a list of things to stimulate your senses and I thought I would share it with the autistic and ADHD community.

Tactile:

-putting on tight clothes (tight tops, leggings, socks, etc)

-putting on chapstick

-rolling your feet on a cylindrical object (feet massager, rolling pin, etc)

-using a weighted blanket or pilling blankets on top of you

-asking someone to lay on top of you (if you are both comfortable with the idea)

-sitting cross legged or with you legs under you

-petting you animal if you have one

-running hot or cold water on your hands and/or switching between the temperatures

-taking a bath or shower

-putting on a hat or ears protectors

-massaging your head/playing with your hair

Auditory:

-listening to music

-listening to asmr

-reading out loud

-tearing paper or fabric

-tapping on stuff that make nice sounds

-making a DIY maracas by putting dry beans or rice in a tupperware or bottle

Olfactory (smell):

-making your favorite tea

-smelling or putting on lotion or chapstick

-opening random stuff in your fridge or pantry and smelling them

-starting essential oil diffuser if you have one

-baking something

-cooking up some garlic and butter (found this idea on tumblr)

-opening a window and smelling the fresh air

-smelling your laudry detergent or your shampoo

-hugging a partner or friend to smell their scent (if you are both comfortable with it)

-lighting up a scented candle

-cleaning the bathroom so that it smells like cleaning supplies

Gustatory (taste):

-chewing on a stim toy

-brushing your theet

-drinking juice

-eating something

-finding a food for every type of taste (sweet, salty, bitter, sour, umami) and eating one at a time (ex: a spoonful of jam, then a salty craker, then a piece of dark chocolate, then a a sip of cranberry juice, then a mushroom)

-getting a buch of veggies and then multiple dipping sauces (they can range in heath, texture, acidity, etc) (also got this idea on tumblr)

Visual:

-cleaning up the clutter

-watching people from your window or balcony, trying to find out stuff about them just by the way they are dressed and are walking

-arranging your colored crayons in a way you like, then doing it again and again in other orders

-arranging your folded clothes by colors

-if you have a lava lamp, watching it

-putting glitter and/or little pieces of paper in a see through bottle filled with water and then shaking it (this is one of my favorite stim also)

-watching a nature documentary

Vestibular/ Proprioceptive:

-jumping on your bed

-putting a lot of pillows and blankets on your bed and flopping onto it (also found this one on tumblr)

-shaking you leg while balancing on the other one and switching between them

-spining

-trying to make up/learn a new dance

-holding a really light object in one of your hand and a heavy one in the other. Trying to lift them at the same time

If you have acces to those things:

-making good use of a trampoline

-getting in the pool while hugging your knees and letting the water move you around.

-getting on the swings

soft boy

(not me)

I hate being short so fucking much. it’s so annoying all the guys I talk to are like but I love short girls, like okay well idc about what you love if I were 5’6 / 5’7 i’d be the perfect skinny girl height the way their bodies are stretched out and proportioned make it easier that’s why all models all tall. but no i’m 4’11 and my legs are stubby and my torso is short so my stomach fat sags and it’s so fucking annoying if i were taller all my fat would be stretched out and i’d be so much skinnier it’s not fair I hate my height so much and whenever people ask why i hate i have to lie and just be like haha cause i can’t reach things i just ugh. sorry rant over

fucking relatable... i’m 4”11

reblog if you’d like to be in an ed groupchat!

i’ll add anyone as long as you have a blog dedicated to thinspo/ weight loss and what not.

(don’t want anyone that’s preying on the ed community)

-please don’t report people or any groupchats. it’s what helps us feel less alone

Reblog if you’re 5'2 (~158cm) or under

i’m sorryyy but i cant take this chance

WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME

I hate these

Why

fuck

i’m sorry. . i hate it too.

my motivation as someone with a high sw and cw

~the thing that makes me most motivated is the fact that i am Fat, that’s a fact. it’s not just a “oh i look fat today” i am overweight. i have a belly and my bones don’t show, i can squish my thighs and my face is round.

these are just some of the motivations of a bigger girl, i know how hard it is to start at a high weight bc it’s so hard to see changes on other people and then look at yourself and see no change at all because it takes us so much more to see results. that’s why i’ve given up so many times, the most i’ve lost is thirty pounds but i gained it all back bc i didn’t look like a twig at that point but you know what? i’ve accepted that it’s going to take longer and it’s going to be hard and i think that it makes me or anyone going through a similar battle pretty bad ass. we will be skinny, it’s all about patience and hard work. be nice to yourself and take things slowly to avoid binges and it’s okay if you binge!! if you’re not in recovery please do not beat yourself up or throw all of your progress out the window okay? i know it’s frustrating and people make you feel like this is just a diet regardless of the fact that you are starving yourself but your ED is valid and if you feel like no one acknowledges or cares, i do. stay strong and safe and if you want recovery, PLEASE recover. this is more directed for the people who are past the point of recovery. thanks for listening to my little rantings ❤️

after losing 17 pounds

i’m gonna update this post from time to time with the amount of weight i’ve lost and how it’s affected my life

after losing 21 pounds

-my hands and wrists are so much smaller, i took a body check video and i can touch every finger to my thumb around my wrist except for almost my pinky

-my friends have started calling me pretty a lot more (and it seems genuine this time), my friend even started drawing me out of nowhere today bc he said i looked beautiful, i’ve never gotten this much attention from them ever

-my teachers have been treating me better?? i dropped 17 lbs during my school break and i was absent last week for medical stuff and a storm so i lost the remainder between now and then. when i went to school on monday my teachers just seemed nicer? not bc of the medical stuff bc i’m out all the time but just treating me better in general and actually including me in conversations and such

-when i went downstairs this morning my grandma told me we needed to buy me new leggings bc they were stretched out from “when you were bigger” and then she had me do a twirl and complimented me and said i was doing great

- my lower thigh is way smaller now!! my knees look so small now??

-my collarbones show on their own a lot of the time now, i don’t have to sit a certain way there just there

-my belly is starting to get smaller, i fit into a pleated skirt that didn’t fit when i bought it, it’s still a tiny bit snug but i can actually zip it!!

-i’m more flexible

-i barely get cravings which is so nice??

-i’m cold

after losing 26 pounds

these are some insta comments i’ve gotten in the last few days! i don’t know these people irl, both of them have followed me for about a year so! knowing that people see change is!! so nice

after losing 40 pounds

-getting tells from my ig followers commenting on my weight loss

-my friends commenting on how different i look in my face

-my guy friend kept calling me beautiful all night, and giving me a fuck ton of compliments about my body

-he also mentioned how small i’ve gotten

-collarbonessss

-my family commenting on my weight loss and congratulating me

-my friends telling me they are proud of me

-only getting diet cokes at dinner if i go out and no one says a word bc my body is changing for the better and they know it, it’s not alarming to them until i’m tiny

-i can see the bones in my hands clearly

-i can start to feel my ribs and hipbones (still under fat but very much there)

-people wrapping their arms further around me

-my shadow looking small!!!!!!!!!! wtf!!!

guys, i get so frustrated looking at myself but sometimes i’ll just stop and see how much things have changed, people treat me better???? i take more pictures of myself???? i’m getting smaller and this is real and it’s so crazy to think about. but it hurts, in no way is this glamorous. getting looks from waiters, your friends not caring bc you’re not underweight, passing out, feeling weak, being able to sleep all night and all day, it’s not a lifestyle to live. i just want to make that clear to anyone who hasn’t fallen down this hell hole. leave. because even the good things that come with this are so bitter sweet, and you’ll regret the day you started when you’re crying bc all you want is 100 extra cals but it’s too much for you.

this has so many notes bro what

HOLY SHIT!!!! i hit a plateau and i’ve been taking a “rest” and eating more, but bro this has really motivated me, i’m going to restrict less and exercise more because honestly restricting so heavily was bumming me out, eating less than 500kcal was too hard..

Autistic gays ❤️

Autistic lesbians 🧡

Autistic bisexuals 💛

Autistic pansexuals 💚

Autistic asexuals 💙

Autistic questioning people 💜

No matter what your sexuality, autism is valid and you’re valid!!❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

if you see this it’s a sign. DO NOT BINGE. YOU WILL REGRET IT. control yourself.