“Ele está rancoroso e chateado. E ele não quer estar, do fundo do seu coração, ele quer perdoar e seguir em frente, mas parece que levará tempo para isso.”
“Ser enganado não é um defeito. Confundir uma má intenção com algo bom não o torna estúpido, incompetente ou merecedor de algo assim.”
— she went for a haircut (a symbol for restart) honeyandsunshine
Father and Son: Liars (Draftdia logue)
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“What were you thinking, huh? What were you thinking!”
In not letting Spider die. Is what Lo'ak wants to reply, but his mouth won't open.
“Lo'ak you.. I can't believe you did something so stupid! Do you have any idea the danger you've put us all in boy?! You and Spider!”
“Son why? Why would you and Spider make a pact of silence about Quaritch being alive?!”
“They would kill him! Mom would kill him, you know that Dad!”
“No, Lo'ak! That wasn't going to happen...”
“Yes! go!”
“That's not the point! Quaritch survived and you and Spider didn't say anything! Lo'ak of all the stupid things you've done, this is certainly the worst! You lied and worse, you made Spider lie! You've never caused me so much disappointment and shame as you do now!”
“Well, that's proof that I'm really your son!
“What do you mean?”
“You lied to mother and our people, remember? You are also a liar! I at least lied to protect my brother from being killed!”
...
well, I needed to get that out of my mind.
link to the fanfic inspired by this post.
But when you told me the whole story I felt like throwing up I could see it on your face, it was rough Left the bad taste on your tongue
You were cruel and I was too young.
Spider: I'm gonna pack my things and leave you behind. This feeling's old and I know that I've made up my mind. I hope you feel what I felt when you shattered my soul cause you were cruel and I'm a fool. So, please let me go.
Quaritch: But I love you so, son.
Spider: Please let me go.
Sometimes Spider looks North and doesn't see her, he sees Ardmore. Then he remembers that woman's cold, calculating eyes, remembers her steady, even voice asking about Jake and his whereabouts, saying how he didn't want to do this and would stop if Spider only gave one image. He remembers that machine's toxic green flashes, remembers the pain, remembers the fear, the terror, everything.
So he needs to get away from the North, he needs time to come back to the present or at least drown out the painful memories enough to see his daughter and not Ardmore. North knows, it always hurts her, no matter how much she pretends it doesn't, she usually stays out of her father's sight until he gets better.
It's the saddest and most complicated part of their relationship.
Lo'ak: Bro, who would you go with my dad or yours?
Spider: The two are a some idiots. One traumatized me and the other calls me an alley cat.
Okay, but what if Spider met the same fate as Grace?
Do not kill me! Just think with me, Grace loved Pandora and the Na'vi she was willing to sacrifice her life for them and that's what happened in the end. Spider was more than ready to die for Sully and the Na'vi, if not for Quaritch he would have died in that machine. What if in the end Spider really did die for the planet, the inhabitants and the family he loves more than his life?
Jake: Is that why you left?
Spider who decided to go with Quaritch after he recognized the neglect he suffered: nods silently.
Jake: You did good to go. I thought I rejected this family, but if you're happy with him, then I guess we're the ones who rejected you.
“quando eu digo que te amo, significa que te coloco acima de tudo/quando eu digo que te amo, significa que eu amo tudo em você, até mesmo seu egoísmo e tristeza.”
— My fatherthe possessive demigod
“ O amor é uma coisa tenaz, algo que você não pode forçar a crescer, não importa quantas raízes você desenterre na tentativa de replantá-lo.”
— Flickering Shadows, and a Sinking Sun Aus and Snippets (MintTeaEnby)
I never mentioned it in any of Spider Pai's posts, but in my head, Spider fully trusts her son (or daughter) with her siblings, but keeps her distance from Neytiri out of fear of her treating her baby the way she did. He is right? Well, in some AU'S yes and in others Neytiri is equivalent to a nice grandpa.
As an inexperienced father Spider appreciates advice on how to best care for and educate Polo, but it is obvious that he has his own way of raising her and does not like it when someone criticizes his parenting or tells him how he should raise his daughter.
For example, when Polo performs a stupid teenage stunt, Spider tries his best not to yell and take out his frustration on her, because he has learned that this approach doesn't work, it will only make Polo defensive and turn a blind eye to his scolding. He tries to stay calm and talk to her, scolding her firmly but not aggressively, he tries his best to talk.
Because of this, people say that he is too soft and permissive with Polo, allowing her to do whatever stunt she wants and it is never undertaken, Spider has simply learned to ignore it.
"Why aren't you furious?" Lo'ak questions in frustration.
"Who said I'm not? Believe me bro all I want to do is scream my voice out at Polo for this feat. But yelling at her won't solve anything, it'll just get us into a fight where neither party will listen to the other one. Besides, she'll do it again, she's young, she's reckless, I can't control her actions, I can only guarantee she has an ounce of sense and sense."
“Mas é a marca de um homem tolo simplesmente deixar o amor escapar de suas mãos quando está tão claramente ao seu alcance.”
— there's just some things that never change penelopecolin (melodypond_thewomanwhomarriedme) ao3
“Não há nada que me apavore mais do que uma jaula. E, no entanto, não acredito que já estive em um.”
— A Red, Red Rose (EvieBaby)
"Spider calm down..."
Spider doesn't want to calm down. He is unable to remain calm when his daughter is in the hands of RDA bastards. He doesn't want to be calm, he wants to rescue his baby.
But he can't and it's driving him crazy.
"Calm down? Calm down?! How the hell am I supposed to keep calm when my daughter's been captured?!"
"Monkey boy" Kiri instinctively tries to comfort him, but this time it doesn't work, Spider feels as if his heart is going to burst from sheer agony and terror for his daughter's fate. He has been in RDA hands before, he knows very well what will happen to Polo and it makes him terrified, irrational.
He rejects the comfort of his soulmate.
"No Kiri!" he screams. "My daughter is in the hands of people who will not hesitate to torture a child for information! They will torture her before they kill her! Ah! Ah for Eywa! My daughter!"
They will kill her. Spider knows, he knows, they're going to interrogate her and Polo's just going to open his mouth to send him to hell. So they're going to fry your brain until they get some information, anything, not caring that they're killing a kid for it. Oh for Ewya.
No. Spider won't just let that happen. Never. He's going to save his girl, even if it kills him, even if he has to blow up every RDA base.
“Talvez aquilo fosse a definição do amor, afinal. Querer uma pessoa, precisar dela e a adorar até mesmo nos momentos de fúria, quando se tinha vontade de amarrá-la à cama só para que ela não saísse e causasse ainda mais problemas.”
— Os segredos de Colin Bridgerton.
Might share a face and share a last name but We are not the same, same