I love munching on wafers like a little rat
I recently started feeling so fucking comfortable being feminine.
There was some kind of shame of being "girly" at some point cuz of shit I thought of in the past like "💁why would I put cake on my face" (referring to makeup) like bitch first of all that shit can be so pretty and cool and omfg dude drag queens changed my life I swear!!!! Like I was so scared of being some pick me who wore makeup and dresses but FUCK THAT LMAO
I am so genuinely happy of how much fun it is being feminine
The problem w that is that I'm seen as ugly and don't look correct when trying to be feminine. Like it's been said to me that I look like a schule scooter and that I'm built like a circle and a couple of other things so u know 😄 not feeling that great 😃
Like I know that being plus size doesn't = ugly but Im just built different 😫
Idk how to feel about it ngl. Like sometimes I think I'm fine as fuck in the mirror and then when I'm out in public with all this confidence I can feel stares and judgement.
Then I go back home and look at the mirror and think "damn I rly do look fucking stupid" and start nit picking my appearance and crying about it.
ARRRGDGGGH I JUST WANNA BE PRETTY IDK HOW
I keep shitting holy fuck what's happening???
Edit: nvm just found out that my water is contaminated lmao