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@jeremycarversweaterfetish / jeremycarversweaterfetish.tumblr.com

twitter @jessilikewhoa I never log in to this account except on like Destiel day to go yay fic writers and fan artists and to respond to things that demand my response like twice a year. I quit the show, still trying to distance myself from the fandom. You can talk at me on twitter or rivertamsin.tumblr.com if you feel so inclined.

…It’s actually a damn good question…

Dusting off this account because, hey, that’s my face, and my words, and I see what I was asking being pretty grossly misconstrued, which is frustrating.

So, not that anyone will read this, but to clarify, and I tweeted basically the same thing, I wasn’t asking “Oh my god Becky! Why do you watch this shit, you sniveling tasteless asshole! Don’t you know I get to dictate what you enjoy, moron.”

I’d well, I’d be a really asshole if I tried to pull that because man, I’ve watched a lot of really questionable TV myself, and enjoyed it. I watched all of Gossip Girl and went from loathing Chuck Bass (because he tried to rape multiple girls in the pilot so like obviously I loathed him) to adoring the character and actively shipping Chair, which would be the previously loathable Chuck Bass paired with my very fave character Blair Waldorf.

What I’m saying is I’m not even going to front like I have some sort of moral highground over ANYONE.

Nah, what I was asking in this question, and make no mistake this was aimed at me just as much as anyone still watching, because I was here up until the end of S9 in this same boat, is this.

Jess and Mary’s deaths in the pilot pretty clearly set the tone for the series, and I’m treating this as a morally neutral statement in the context of this particular conversation. Then those deaths were followed by many more deaths of women. Again, for the sake of this convo I’m treating this as a morally neutral statement.

So what I was asking in the above tweets is this, the menu said they were serving broccoli. They’ve only ever served us broccoli. They serve the broccoli over and over. What I want to know is why people who actively hate broccoli, who get very upset every time they serve broccoli, keep frequenting a restaurant that has only ever served broccoli and made it very clear from the day they opened their doors that they would be serving broccoli.

I’m not saying justify yourselves to me. I’m saying why do all of us, myself included up until last year, keep getting surprised when we get broccoli.

So this wasn’t a demand that queer feminist fans justify their viewing to me, or an indictment of queer feminist fans. This was a question aimed at a very specific subset of feminist fans, myself very much included, who are angry and put off by the sexism, being seemingly surprised by the sexism every time it happens, when it was always part of the design.

I was tagged by itspronounceddeathsteel to talk about my subpar Destiel ficcing. So here I ramble.

What is your favorite fic that you have written? I’m so monumentally insecure about my writing that at least once a week I consider deleting everything and going into hiding, but on a good day I really love Garden of Eatin’ and Just Another Silly Lovesong for stuff I’ve posted. In general, I’m so so so madly in love with my BtVS/SPN crossover. I literally have like a chapter and change done on it, and I only work on it when inspiration strikes, so it won’t be done and posted for like a decade, but I’m genuinely proud of it.

How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? The above mentioned crossover, a Stars Hollow ‘verse where Dean is Lorelai raising little brother Sam and Jo is Lane and Kevin is Paris and Cas is Luke and the Campbells are Richard and Emily and everything is the emotional equivalent of a cozy sweater, possibly an AU based on The Nanny, a short piece where Cas falls in 8.23 but lands in Canada rather than Colorado and gets taken in by Bo and Kenzi from Lost Girl who give him a total life makeover and lessons on getting his man, a nontraditional ABO centering around abortion, some timestamps for Garden of Eatin’, the rest of the Teen Angel ‘verse, maybe pick back up the animal rescue AU I started forever ago and then never touched again. So many ideas, so little motivation/confidence.

Do you prefer to write canon or AU? I don’t really have a preference, I tend to write AU only because those ideas come to me more often, and inventing monsters/big bads is HARD. My brain is much better at fluff than gore.

Is there a trope you haven’t tried that you really want to? I’d really like to do a coming of age HS/early twenties AU loosely based on my own misspent youth, but plot is not coming to me for it. Which, most of my teens and early twenties could be describes as plotless chaos, so that’s not really surprising. Who wants 40k of meandering bad choices, sex, drugs, and rock n roll?

What’s the best writing advice you’ve ever received? Honestly? It’s from Julie’s English teacher on Friday Night Lights (played by that dude who I think ended up marrying Brooke on OTH) though I think it’s stolen from someone big and important. “Don’t use a ten dollar word when a nickel one will do.” I read a ton of fic, and the thing that turns me off the most is overly flowerly language. Don’t rely on your thesaurus, use adjectives sparingly and with purpose. If you can’t make your point with simple language question if you need to say it at all.

If you pick one of your fics to be filmed, which one would it be?

Garden of Eatin’ because the world needs a queer vegan romcom.

Who is your favorite character to write besides Castiel or Dean (or the members of your usual pairing)?

Bela Talbot. I love Bela Talbot in general, and she’s SO FUN to write.

Do you use notes, worksheets, or outlines? Usually I just keep a mental outline, but the crossover fic is meticulously organized, just by virtue of having a massive ensemble as the focus, there’s no way I could keep them all straight without it.

Do you write from start to finish, or do you write the scenes out of order? Both, I aim for start to finish, but if a scene demands I write it RIGHT NOW I’ll toss it down in another doc to plug in later.

If you could write a sequel to any fic out there, not written by yourself, which fic would it be?  

Not that I think I’m anywhere NEAR good enough to do it justice, but Past, Present by lastknownwriter. It’s the first fic I fell really deeply in love with, and one of the only ones I reread over and over, and I selfishly always want more of the Cas and Dean in that universe.

Talk about a comment or review that made your day? 

I’m a neurotic mess, which should come as a surprise to no one. A lot of the time my brain translates any attention into negative attention, so comments and kudos often makes me anxious and on a WIP they tend to make me feel pressured/obligated, which means more insecurity, which means nothing gets done. BUT I will say, I really really love when people compliment my characterization and character voices, especially Cas.

Hello Destiel people. Dusting this off to let you know I wrote a thing for the Destiel Smut Brigade Valentine's Day Fic Dump and I'm actually pretty fond of it. It's a music magazine AU. Dean is a writer, Cas is his new editor. There's some professional competitiveness, and romantic comedy clichés. Also smut, obvi. So if that's your jam, please check it out.

Popping in on this account for a second because it's Destiel day, and I want to give all the love to the amazing people creating incredible fanworks,  both fanfiction, and art. Since I've left canon behind and quit the show, I've become an even more fervent consumer of your creations, and I love you all so much for the amazing things you create.

Happy Destiel day, happy anniversary Dean & Cas.

Show some love to your favorite fic writers and fan artists for giving our boys infinite universes and thousands upon thousands of happy endings.

I see the Willow and Tara gifsets, I know they have fans, but the fans aren’t showing up, and they’re losing.

I’d love to see them win this, whatever your feelings are on Joss or on BtVS in general, Willow and Tara were so important, and so special.

Vote for them here. This round ends midnight EST on 8/24.

Disclaimer: I’m an admin for GenreTVforAll, but this poll is the labor of love of my co-admin Emma, and I have zero admin access to the poll, and zero ability to influence or change the results. So take this post as what it is, the impassioned plea of a fellow fan.

Regarding the stolen art for the CFN campaign

My name is Jessi, and up until the end of May, I was the main person running the Castiel Fan Network, as well as blogging on tumblr at jeremycarversweaterfetish.tumblr.com. I’m no longer running the group because I’ve left the Supernatural fandom, but because I was the person in charge during the postcard campaign, I wanted to write this. When Misha stated in interviews that he had not been approached for S10, a group of us decided to take a proactive approach, and started a postcard campaign. When our posts asking people to print out the Heart of Supernatural designs, a campaign run and created/designed by members of our group, didn’t get many notes, one of my co-admins had the idea to create an account with Touchnote where people could easily send their postcards without leaving the house, and could also donate money to purchase credits so fans who didn’t have money could send postcards as well. She set up the account and uploaded original art created by another member of our group, those postcards are the photo edit ones using images from the show itself you see tweeted by TPTB and in the original post. We also posted a set of images and graphs created by members of our group for fans who wanted more options. However, we did say that if fans didn’t like our designs, they could upload their own, something Touchnote allows. Which is how the problem that was brought to our attention today happened. The Touchnote account has not been used in months now. The campaign is not ongoing, and I hope that offers some reassurance to those who have been hurt. It appears fans took it upon themselves to use fanart without permission. This was not our intent with this project, this is something I personally find abhorrent. Hundreds of postcards were going out every day, and the account was monitored by a handful of people in order to be certain postcards containing hate were not being sent. The overwhelming majority of the cards were our original designs. Some fans uploaded the picture of Misha being pied that was tweeted today as well. And apparently, someone sent out stolen art, something none of us caught with the volume of cards going out. I hope that also offers some reassurance, the stolen art was not used en masse. It was done by an individual, and was not part of the campaign by design. That of course doesn’t change anything, even one individual stealing art hurts the artist. It hurts the Castiel Fan Network as well, because it erodes the groups credibility, and the groups ability to rally goodwill in order to support both Castiel and Misha. We did not upload the art, we do not support the use of stolen art, and I personally, along with the person running CFN now who I passed it on to when I left the fandom, feel gutted by this happening. I am so very, very sorry on a personal level to Euclase for this happening, and to any other artists this may have happened to without our awareness. Though again, stealing art was never the groups intent nor my own, that doesn’t erase the hurt that was caused. I am in the process of reaching out to Euclase. The person running the Castiel Fan Network currently is taking her own steps to rectify the situation as well.

Again, I am so sorry this happened. Just to be 100% clear for anyone reading, Euclase was not part of the Misha4SPN10 campaign, nor was she ever approached by CFN or anybody else to be part of the campaign. Though I did not upload her art myself, and did not sanction its use, because I ran the campaign, this is on me. I hope that anybody reading this doesn’t hold it against the Castiel Fan Network and their efforts in the future. The current admin for CFN was not involved in that campaign, and the group, which exists only to support Misha and Castiel, should not be judged for my own failures. -Jessi, former admin for CFN

this will also be shared on the CFN tumblr at angelwarriorcastiel.tumblr.com

Check it out! You can let NBC know that you're not ok with them straightwashing Constantine.

Taking a bi character and erasing their sexuality is not ok. Luckily, Eliel Cruz, likely best known to tumblr users as the guy who covered the #AskSupernatural uproar for The Advocate, has started a petition you can sign super easy.

I'm gonna be real, I don't think the petition will change this particular show. I think the Constantine boat has already sailed for us. But I do think it'll give the network serious pause about ever pulling something like this again. And that matters. Also, David S Goyer who is one of the showrunners for Constantine has a history of straightwashing, first with Da Vinci's Demons, and now with Constantine, and this is a great way to let him know that sort of behavior is unacceptable.

So reblog, tweet the petition, share it on facebook, and most importantly, sign it. It takes like, 2 minutes, and that's only if you type really really slow.

update

I've rejoined the world of tumblr, BUT I started a totally new account because I need to just start fresh. I'll probably reblog a pretty minimal amount of Destiel fanart, but otherwise the blog is SPN free, and currently has a queue chock full of Lost Girl and Whedonverse stuff, as I seek out more Defiance blogs to follow, specifically those featuring lots of Irisa because she's the best.

Anyway, you can give me a follow if you want. I totally understand if you don't want. Different fandoms and all that.

On to other shit you might care about. If you're a fan of my fic, and wonder WTF happened, and if I've abandoned my stuff. The answer is no, I haven't.

I'm still very invested in Destiel as a pairing, and am ultra supportive of fanworks because at this point, I think they're our only hope. I'm still interested in creating fanworks of my own.

However, I've been battling a pretty intense depressive episode for months now. I thought I could just grit my teeth and get past it by being really determined, but that unfortunately, unsurprisingly, isn't working. And instead of getting better, I've gotten worse. I'm ok, and I'm not going to hurt myself, but my brain has started prodding at me pretty badly. So, rather than try to get through this on my own, I'm getting some help. And hopefully once I get my brain back on track, the writers block that has accompanied this depression will pass, and I can start writing again. Because even beyond finishing my WIPs, I have so many ideas for new stuff, but the words just aren't coming.

Anyway, that's where I'm at. You can still find me on twitter @jessilikewhoa and I'm still co-running genretvforall.com and our twitter @genretvforall as well. This account will return to collecting dust, so if you need me, send an ask to teenagegirlswithsuperpowers or hit me up on twitter.

Thanks for the good times.

Who she is: Anya Christina Emmanuella Jenkins was a member of the “Scooby Gang” and a former vengeance demon. Over a thousand years old, she was originally known as Aud and lived in Sweden. After cursing her unfaithful lover, Aud was approached by the demon D’Hoffryn with the offer of becoming an immortal demon and dedicating her life to vengeance. She accepted and was transformed into Anyanka, earning the title of Patron Saint Of The Women Scorned as she spent a millennium granting dark wishes to the girlfriends and wives of men. However, Anyanka met her downfall in 1998 when she took the guise of Anya Emerson and came to grant a wish in Sunnydale. Stripped of her demonhood by an alternate version of Rupert Giles, she lost her powers and was forced to live the rest of her life as the human Anya Emerson. Then later on, she invented the name Anya Christina Emanuella Jenkins which she used from then on as a mortal human. (Buffyverse Wiki)

Why we love her: Anya was only meant to be a guest star, but Joss and fans fell in love, and she remained with the series through the final season. Unencumbered by human social conventions, Anya is outspoken and unfiltered. She has a frank approach to her sexual desires, believes in being honest above all else, and is unabashed in her love of both money and free market capitalism. The character was frequently used as comic relief, but was never made into a buffoon, and simultaneously managed to deliver some of the most heartfelt, emotional lines in the entire series. She proudly marches to the beat of her own drum, and though other characters frequently criticized her strange ways, she refused to change who she was.

Spotlight by: Jessi

[Favorite episode and quotes SPOILERS after the cut]

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I’m now done with submitting all the shows I’ve watched in full for genretvforall.

But we’ve got a long list of other shows that need submitting! Take a look at what we’ve already posted and consider submitting something for the ones that remain (or ones that we haven’t even thought of yet). 

There’s a template to help you along and then Jessi or I will come up with a photo and header.

It’s okay if you’re not an expert on the show. If you’ve watched enough that you can fill out the info with an assist from wikipedia, that’s fine. If you can’t remember or don’t know all the problematic content, that’s okay too. We’ll list it as “unknown” until someone else writes us to fill it in.

There are a lot of shows on Netflix that still need to be submitted, by the way. Many of them are just one or two seasons long, so you could knock the out in in a weekend! Just search for the sci fi and fantasy genre to get started.

I hope you’ll participate! Thanks in advance!

Seconding all of this, we can't be a comprehensive resource without your help!

Thanks <3

We've gotten so much done on Genre Television For the Rest Of Us in the past two days!

Besides adding lots more shows, we also added tags for race, and added in specific racial/ethnic heritage for characters played by PoC in the other notes section of individual posts. That way it's even easier to search for what you're looking for.

We also have a resources page for media criticism, and activism, surrounding under-represented groups in the media. It's still just a little baby list, but it's got some great links, and we're always interested in more!

So if you haven't checked the blog out yet, you totally should. It's really awesome, and I'm super proud of it.

So, still, you know, wobbly on this whole situation.

But man, I have so much fucking respect for every Destiel shipper, the ones leaving the show and the ones sticking it out, who have put their feet down and made it clear nobody is going to take away their ship.

That's just legitimately 100% fantastic. Because questions of representation aside (self promoting the new group blog I'm part of here) historically slash has been about taking back the story, snatching it from the hands with the power, and making it your own. Fanart and fic and defiant attitudes and pirates, and just, fuck yeah you guys, make this shit your own.

Female Leads: Buffy, Willow, Cordelia(1997-1999), Anya(1998-2003), Tara(1999-2002), Dawn(2000-2003)

LGBQA+ Leads: Willow(Lesbian), Tara(Lesbian)

Missing: PoC, Trans/nonbinary leads

Genres: Urban Fantasy, Horror

Years Active: 1997-2003

Find It: Netflix, Amazon, Hulu, iTunes, Reruns on Pivot TV

Problematic Content Warning: Potentially racially insensitive material including the portrayals of Kendra, the First Slayer, and Chao-Ahn, and the episode Pangs 4.08. Attempted sexual assault in The Pack 1.06 and Seeing Red 6.19.

Other Notes: TW for heavy addiction metaphor, some LGBQA+ fans took issue with how Tara was handled, as well as how her relationship with Willow was handled. Ongoing comic continuations, currently publishing S10.

Recommended By: Jessi

Group Buffy rewatch coming soon! *happy dance*

Female Leads: Bo, Kenzi, Lauren, Tamsin(2013-present)

POC Leads: Hale

LGBQA+ Leads: Bo(bisexual), Lauren(lesbian)

Missing: Trans/nonbinary leads

Genre: Urban Fantasy

Years Active: 2010-present

Find It: Airing on Showcase in Canada and Syfy in the US; Netflix, Amazon, iTunes

Problematic Content Warning: Caged Fae episode 3.01 contains content that read to many viewers as incredibly transphobic, including material that reads as transphobic violence, the show did issue an apology, but to many it was less than satisfactory. Initial Bo/Lauren sexual encounter involves some consent issues.

Other Notes: Gratuitous sex scenes abound

Recommended By: Jessi

Blah blah blah you already know I'm obsessed.

Female Leads: Chloe, Amy, Meredith, Jasmine

POC Leads: Paul, Jasmine

Missing: LGBQA+ leads, trans/nonbinary leads

Genre: Urban Fantasy

Years Active: 2011

Find It: iTunes only

Other Notes: Series was cancelled after S1 on a cliffhanger ending. A script was released publicly for an unmade movie to wrap the series. The series is also based on a series of young adult novels.

Recommended By: Jessi

Sharing some of my favorites from the new blog x-cetera and I started today.