has a sexy fuddy-duddy got your motherboard overheating

feeling very normal about this wonderful beautiful piece of art which was drawn for me by my very best friend @flummoxedart and commissioned by @rachaeljurassic, @kjmoran, @wewerefighting, @via-whitmore, @milliejean, @hal-1500, and @teatimewithgiles !!! (oh my god what a list!!!!)

got this pressed into my hands (virtually) on graduation day and literally dropped my phone. did not have even the slightest inkling that this was going to happen despite kjmoran asking questions about my GRADUATION TASSEL COLORS, lindir perpetually talking about a Big Commission EVERY FRIDAY, and liv literally PHYSICALLY BEING THERE for DAYS without saying a word. am still sorta processing the joy and the love of this one. thanks, guys.

agonized for nearly an hour over posting this chapter :) i like my little soft fun silly fic but it is also a celia fic which apparently means: heart-wrenching angst.

i'm hoping to write the next chapter tomorrow, if i can, but rest assured there will not be a long wait! worth noting that we are very much in the home stretch.

just wrote the line "not knowing isn't an excuse. if it hurts people" for buffy re: jenny and am having this rare insane moment of Oh Wow Okay That Explains Everything Now. like -- i have struggled for a while trying to wrap my head around an in-character reason for buffy to so double down and ice jenny out, outside of loosely understanding that buffy is projecting all of her internalized guilt and shame onto jenny because it's easier, but of fucking course buffy is going to see someone who didn't know and couldn't have stopped it & go That Isn't Good Enough!!! of course buffy is going to look at this person who wanted to live in the present until the past came back to eat everyone & go You Deserve To Be Miserable Forever!!! she isn't processing it and she doesn't process what she's doing until jenny's dead

this is a chapter that i suspect will be an extra-special treat if you've read my fic what you make, and alice and thomas's relationship therein. i think it reads just fine without that knowledge, though! (the celia multiverse is expanding....)

one more thing! roy and jamie's LAST REAL INTERACTION (outside of a fucking flash-forward montage) being FIGHTING OVER KEELEY, after multiple seasons of developing an intimate, important connection between them that had nothing to do with keeley & everything to do with their deep respect and love for each other, was absolutely fucking disgusting. i violently hated it.

especially the interchange between roy and jamie wherein roy informs jamie that he and keeley are talking again, then says, "but she is a woman, so you never know, right?" that is some MISOGYNISTIC BULLSHIT -- and jamie follows it up INSTANTLY by disclosing that keeley's private video was made for him! it felt like there was this real desire to have roy and jamie still in competition for keeley For Laughs, underwriting all of the growth that they have both gone through and the honest self-reflection they've both done. even if there's some jealousy there, which i don't think is unreasonable, i do not think it would have manifested as misogyny towards keeley. it never has before.

coming back with some more thoughts on ted lasso --

i will say though that the notion of ted and rebecca being separated in a way that makes it pretty much impossible for them to be physically or platonically or romantically together feeds the part of my brain that is always obsessed with two people devoted to cultivating community at the expense of their own personal happiness. so THAT PART i am into and have no complaints about whatsoever