"But I know, I know, I know, life can be beautiful. I pray, I pray for a better way. If we changed back then, we could change again. We can be beautiful..." -veronica sawyer 💃💃 Okay guys, update. I now went from a size 10 pant to a size 9. My weight is now 198, which isn't very different but, it's a start. Remember, never give up. We are all in this together!!!!
"We can be seventeen... We can learn how to chill. If no one loves me now, someday somebody will..."❤💙
September 12, 2017
Dear diary I sometimes feel like I'm not worth anything. Like I'm the villain in the story, the one that is left in the dark, given no love or support. I feel like I don't have anyone on my side. I feel like I'm invisible. Completly invisible and alone and like nobody would ever notice if I just disappeared right now. Not all the time, not at all. I wake up, notice that I'm getting stronger and notice how nice I feel. I am surrounded by people who love and cherish me. I'm not ugly, at least I think I'm beautiful. I like my life. My mom is the most amazing person I could ever ask for. My siblings are a pain in my ass but I love them and wouldn't trade them for the world. I laugh. I know how love feels. But when it's 4 am in my bedroom and the thought of how ugly I think I am sets in, I question whether I was ever happy at all.
"And Heather Chandler, the almighty..... She's a mythic bitch."💋- veronica sawyer
I have a paper crane over my bed..... 💜💜
My unicorn is aesthetically pleasing💜💜💜
It's time for a change!!!!
So I have been really trying to lose weight for a long time. I used to be 310 but I started eating healthy and working out and dropped to 199. I still want to lose 40 lbs to make my goal at 160. It's always the last ones that are the hardest to lose. I need all the help I can get so please, if you have any advice send it!!!
Stats.
Current weight: 199
Goal weight: 160
Height: 5'10
Workout schedule: 5 days a week
-cheerleading
-marching band
-biking
-runners circle
I'll try to post everything I eat and make me better ( with lots of fun stuff in between too). Thanks!!!
When you're white and Mexican with natural curls 😭😭😭