Avatar

"Tired, confused and gay"

@jedanodpjesnika

Julijan | 19 | amature writer, lover of eclectic things, student | "i love my friends but pls don't call me ever again" |

Iz kolekcije "Pisma mojoj majci"

Dio "o mom plavookom dječaku"

  • Org. Autor. Ja (Julijan)

Majska večer

Sjedili smo na njegovom balkonu, čitao mi je Shakespearea dok smo pušili. Bio je Maj, pa je ta večer bila topla, sjedili smo na plastičnim stolcima, oboje u boksericama i raskopčanim košuljama. Moja glava bila je naslonjena na njegova prsa i slušao sam više rad njegovog srca nego sonete koje mi je čitao. Razmišljao sam tada da mu napišem nešto, neku poemu ili sonet, da opišem njegove plave oči, crne uvojke, meke usne ili snažne ruke, ali ja nisam veliki i spretni pjesnik i znam da mi nebi pošlo za rukom. Nebi ga mogao dočarati ovako opuštenog i zaljubljenog. U tom trenutku me upitao je li mi dosadno slušati tuđu poeziju i hoćemo li zapaliti još jednu pa poći leći. Priljubio sam svoje usne njegovu vratu i bez riječi mu dodao kutiju plavog Chesa što si mi jutros gurnula u ruke. Pripalio je moju cigaretu i nisam mogao odoliti, a da ne ukradem još jedan poljubac. Do ranog jutra smo ostali na balkonu razmjenjivajući poljubce i pokoji dim cigarete. Ta majska večer, mama, činila mi se gotovo beskrajnom, i kada samo nakon pošli da legnemo, on me privuko svojim prsima da zaspi. Ja sam ostao još budan, mama razmišljao sam o tome kako bih ga voleo poljubiti bar jednom negde vani, na ulici, u kinu, u autobusu ili tramvaju, da se bar jednom ne trebamo kriti. Voleo bi ga voljeti na otvorenom, na isti način kako se ti i moj otac volite. Onoako prosto slobodno. Razmišljao sam kako bih ga voleo upoznati s tobom. Svidio bi ti se. Voli kuhati i čita slične ljubavne romane kao i ti, mama, baš mogu zamisliti kako ti i on spravljate ručak dok se smijete o kakvoj romantičnoj zgodi nekog uglađenog gospodina i ulične pjevačice. No ipak nam, pa više meni samom, mora biti dovoljna poezija i tople majske večeri. Možda ti ga jednom i spomenem, onako usput i nonšelantno kako ti zadnje vreme spominjem sve bitno i drago u svojem životu. Mama, voleo bi da ga znaš, da vidiš kako se volimo. Da znaš da nisam sam. Da ne plačes više. No znam da ti nebi prijalo da ga dovedem kući na koji vikend. Bila biš fina i pristojna, a onda bi kad bi se on ispričao da ode u kupaonu, rekla mi glasom punog razočarenja " zašto on, zašto ne neka fina mlada devojka?". Mama voleo bi da ga znaš i da ga i ti voliš.

Neposlano pismo mojoj majci.

Here is a free pdf of the players handbook

Here is a free pdf of xanathars guide to everything

Here is a free pdf to monsters manual

Here is a free pdf to tashas cauldron of everything

Here is a free pdf to dungeon master’s guide

Here is a free pdf to volo’s guide to monsters

Here is a free pdf of mordenkainen’s tomb of foes

For all your dnd purposes

Here’s a site that has literally every official (and most UA) dnd stuff

including the books and campaigns

and you can add homebrew

Hey rb this!!!

Guys don’t share this kinda thing people may use it to get access to the dnd source books for free instead of paying for them. This is extremely dangerous for the flawless company that wizards of the coast is.

Yesterday I almost cried because my baby cousin ran up to my grandmother and was like. “Ha! Buhbuh ba ha.” And she said okay you want to show me something? And he led her over to the garden patch and crouched down and pointed at rocks and plants and was like. “Ah. Habah ba ah” as she listened attentively.

And I was like that happened 1,000 years ago. Probably 10,000 years ago. Maybe 100,000. The youngest human in a group went to the oldest one and said to the best of their ability “come see.” And the adult went.

Avatar

this is such a beautiful post it doesn't need my dumb addition, but i can't fit this in the tags. at the archaeological site Dolni Vestonice in the Czech Republic there are a bunch of really really fascinating finds and I'm only going to tell you about one tiny detail of one of the most interesting sites in the world.

at this settlement 20-30,000 years ago there lived a person who appears to have been a sort of sorcerer-grandmother-ceramics artist and her workshop was preserved very well in the sedimentary layers. her hut where she had her kilns was full of little sculptures of animals and people that seem to have been made to explode in the kiln on purpose, we're not sure why but nevermind. the relevant detail is that when you sculpt something with your hands and then fire it, your fingerprints can be preserved in the surface of the clay forever, so we have fingerprints of ancient ceramics artists that have survived for tens of thousands of years. and one of the major artifacts from Dolni Vestonice has a fingerprint on it that is so small it could only have belonged to a child

so this shaman-grandmother-sculptor, who was buried with her pet fox by the way, had children running through her workshop and touching everything she made while she was at her mysterious work of creating the world's oldest ceramics, none of which appear to be bowls, bottles, pots, or any "useful" items at all, but rather a collection of animal and human and sometimes anthropomorphic figures, some of which appear to be self portraits. exactly the same as sandersstudios' grandmother being led to the garden by an excited baby. we've all been the same for 30,000 years.

Yes we need more chaste twee baby gay romances like heartstopper and yes we also need more shows where men fuck raw to express their love for one another like Élite and yes we need more toxic gays having hate sex like Interview with the Vampire and yes we need more incidental gay characters like the dads in cartoons like Owl House.

It's not a competition! It's a hoard and I'm like a gay little Smaug.

Avatar

the normalization of porn in mainstream media is a weird take to have

Normalization of gay desire and yes, even gay sex, is paramount to gay liberation actually.

Reblog if you have used dude as a non gender specific term.

where I grew up in California not only is “dude” generally non-gender-specific, half of the time it doesn’t even refer to a person at all.

I said it to a faucet today. 

Avatar

A customer once came to me to order a sandwich and said “I want this dude”

Dude is more than a word, it’s an emotion. 

dude is a way of life

Absolutely.

BOG BJEŠE ISPRED MENE PUŠI CIGARETU I NOSI ROZO

Tableta,

Vutra,

Viski i kahva,

Pa cigareta,

I tako u krug,

Iz dana u dan,

Često izbjegavam krevet i san.

Tableta,

Vutra,

Viski u kahvi,

Neću da dočekam nova jutra,

Kasni su sati,

A ispred mene bješe Bog,

Nosio je rozo i pušio cigaretu,

Reko bože,

Gore od ovoga ne može,

Nalazim se u vrtlogu,

Emotivnog zatvora,

Prekrivenog,

Opojnim zadovoljstvima,

Ne spavam,

Bojim se snova koji se u dubini mozga kriju,

Bojim se sebe i svoje sjene,

Bojim se crne boje,

I zato nosim rozo,

Zato moj Bog nosi rozu havajku,

I puši cigaretu,

Dok pored mene stoji,

I zajedno samnom plače,

Moj Bog se kaje,

Zbog postojanja,

Podarenog čovjeku,

Koji ne umije voljeti sebe.

Viski,

Cigareta,

Tableta,

I za doručak pašteta,

Kada bješe prazna kutija cigareta,

Za ručak vutra,

Ja ne vidim lijepa jutra,

Moja jutra su kao loša proza,

Loše stanje metamorfoze,

Izgubio sam,

Život pun simbioze,

Parazit sam sebi,

Polako truhnem,

Polako nestajem,

A bog nosi rozo,

Samnom sjeda,

Pali cigaretu,

Sipa piće,

I tiho mi govori,

Jednoga dana,

Sve će biti lakše….

Avatar

hello this is my favorite post ever and also life goals

Awww,,, goalsssss

Not scene but reblogging anyway cuz this is my blog and I think it’s SO FUCKING IMPORTANT as a young trans person to see older trans people that are still happy and alive and in a good place in life with people that love them. We all deserve this <3

Every time, every time Fearne/Laudna/Imogen introduce people to Pretty and are reminded, in quick succession:

- Pretty really IS that delightful, and there's a reason they collectively agreed to date him (beyond the panic distraction)

- They did in fact, collectively date Pretty and have to explain that to people.

- They are, collectively, no longer dating Pretty and have to explain that, because hes delightful and it was amicable!

- They are no longer dating because he broke up with them.

- By the time they get to this point of the explanation, its always consistently awkward despite there being absolutely zero bad blood anywhere.

- It's only awkward for Fearne, Imogen, and Laudna.

- They are surprised by this.

- Despite this, they will always come back and see Pretty the next time they are in the city and enthusiastically introduce any new friends to him.

- If only there was a way to avoid this awkwardness!

- Anyway this is our friend Pretty!!! Hes great. Oh he's our ex (collectively). Yes he broke up with us not the other way around-