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Thine hath selected mine blog, it seems?

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welcome to My Swamp my name is Evan Simon (just Evan or Simon are ok too) my pronouns are they/he/she she but i prefer they/them usually; just rotate between them:) i like theatre and...other stuff Am autistic & ADHD 🏳️‍🌈I'm ✨️bisexual✨️and genderfluid but uuuuuUSUALLY genderqueer🏳️‍⚧️ fun fact the 'tism is why I'm trans I'm confused like all the time help me I'm fuckin tired I'm probably smarter than you (affectionate) Instagram: the_insanely_cool_evan_simon tiktok: insanelycoolevansimon

Do any other autistic people feel high at random times?

Like, sometimes I'll get really giggly, everything will feel hilarious to me and I'll just laugh at nothing, and I'll stim more and laugh at my stimming (e.g. I was finding the normally annoying sound my pop-it makes very funny today) and I'll do a lot of echolalia (e.g. I kept repeating "my name is poet I am a Philip" & giggling because it was the funniest fucking thing in the world to me) and I'll get really affectionate, I'm already a very affectionate person but I get MORE affectionate (e.g. I'll be talking to my dog & I'll just be like "I just love you SO much" whilst sobbing but not really crying?) And I'll feel kind of light-headed (like someone injected helium into my brain) does anyone else do this??? Is it connected to autism??? Please help I'm really confused I can't find anything about this anywhere please reblog I Beg Of You

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Iiiii think that could be the ADHD?? I'm both ADHD and Autistic and they overlap a lot BUT the dopamine rollar coaster of ADHD makes it so like at some times you're a puddle and wanna get swallowed up by the floor but?? The second you get even the slightest bit of good news or something you're looking forward to then you see the world in sunshine and rainbows, then it's back to puddle.

But it also could be the autistic??? Funny sound funny funny memory funny funny funny texture brain likes!!! My brains happy and everyone has to know about it!!!! You can Hyperfocus on that one thing and it gets you happy and giggly and??? You don't know why??? Like this works for both ADHD and Autistic stuff but honestly I'll chalk it to the filter that's ur brain is clean as opposed to messy. *for example no intrusive thoughts or icky flashbacks and instead u get good sleep and lots of grounding* so it helps you feel better about everything??

Idk but Ur not the only one I promise it's totally ok

lack of sleep can cause a dopemine rush so it could be that

Ohoh! Maybe it could be caused by autistic inertia???? From masking??? Or executive dysfunction??? Masking is EXHAUSTINH so maybe it has the same affect as lack of sleep!!!!

Okok so so far we've made TWO hypotheses. Our observation: This "high feeling" is common amongst neurodivergents, ESPECIAL autistics and ADHDers. Hypotheses: 1. It could be next-level unmasking 2. It could be caussd by executive dysfunction, autistic inertia, burnout, and/or excessive masking.

Thank you so mych again to everyone for helping me with this! PLEASE keep shaeing this post as well as your experiences so we can get more data and figure it out ourselves because scienrists have shown they don't really care! I am going to present our ideas to my science teacher next week, and will continue shiwing her new ones we come up with and I'll ket you guys know what she says; she has ADHD too and she's super nice so she'll definitely help!

Third hypohesis! ✨️mania✨️

Yet another possibility! Hypothesis #4:

Another one! #5

THEORY NUMBER SIX YALL

Very interesting analyses everyone! 'ppreciate it

ANOTHER ONE BOYS ((BUT SAID IN A "GUYS" WAY CAUSE IDK I HEARD SOMEONE SAY IT))

'Nother one, y'all!

IM LATE AND IM SORRY BUT ANOTHER THANK YOU EVERYONE I LOVE YOU ALL

i love you green. i love you forests. i love you smell of damp earth. i love you feeling before the storm breaks. i love you moss. i love you rivers. i love you streams. i love you thunderstorms. i love you sunlight shining through leaves.

i love you green. i love you forests. i love you smell of damp earth. i love you feeling before the storm breaks. i love you moss. i love you rivers. i love you streams. i love you thunderstorms. i love you sunlight shining through leaves.

guy at urinal: AHHHH!!! AHHHHHHHUGGGGHHH!

guy next to him wearing wraparound shades talking into his Bluetooth: Yeah i’m peeing at a urinal right now. Yeah. The noise is the guy next to me. Yeah, he’s peeing too. Yeah. Peeing so hard he’s screaming

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man: has anyone ever told you you’re beautiful? me: oh no sir, today is my first day out of doors and papà forbade mirrors in the house lest we fall victim to vanity

I’ve been laughing at this on and off for two straight days

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in sixth grade my homeroom teacher caught this kid stephen saying, “that’s so gay.”

so he told the class that for the rest of the week, anytime you wanted to express something negatively, you could say, “that’s so stephen.”

and it started out as a joke, where even this stephen kid was going around using it, laughing at it, not really caring. it was funny, i guess.

but then one of his friends got a bad mark on a test and said, “that’s so stephen.”

we had a blacktop recess and everyone kept saying, “that’s so stephen.”

and when we got too loud doing groupwork and had to separate and work silently, everyone in the class kept muttering, “that’s so stephen.”

and the weirdest part was that even though it was just a word we were using, even though it had nothing to do with stephen, we all sort of blamed stephen.

and as everyone kept using “that’s so stephen,” all week, you could see stephen himself finding it less and less funny. we played a game called “pamplemousse” in french class and everyone got stephen out right away if they could. someone literally went and found one of stephen’s art projects when nobody else was around and ruined it so he had to start over.

and when my homeroom teacher found out about it, he sat everyone down and told us that it wasn’t okay to say “that’s so stephen” anymore. that the things we’d been blaming him for weren’t his fault and the things we’d been doing to him weren’t fair.

he told us that stephen couldn’t help it that he was stephen. he didn’t choose to be stephen. he was born stephen.

and that’s when it clicked.

we all felt pretty stupid, i think, for sort of falling for it, but i’ll be damned if i’ve ever had a teacher get a lesson across so utterly and completely as mr. bernard did.

it hadn’t even been the full week.

“I’ve been a massage therapist for many years, now. I know what people look like. People have been undressing for me for a long time. I know what you look like: a glance at you, and I can picture pretty well what you’d look like on my table. Let’s start here with what nobody looks like: nobody looks like the people in magazines or movies. Not even models. Nobody. Lean people have a kind of rawboned, unfinished look about them that is very appealing. But they don’t have plump round breasts and plump round asses. You have plump round breasts and a plump round ass, you have a plump round belly and plump round thighs as well. That’s how it works. And that’s very appealing too. Woman have cellulite. All of them. It’s dimply and cute. It’s not a defect. It’s not a health problem. It’s the natural consequence of not consisting of photoshopped pixels, and not having emerged from an airbrush. Men have silly buttocks. Well, if most of your clients are women, anyway. You come to male buttocks and you say – what, this is it? They’re kind of scrawny and the tissue is jumpy because it’s unpadded; you have to dial back the pressure, or they’ll yelp. Adults sag. It doesn’t matter how fit they are. Every decade, an adult sags a little more. All of the tissue hangs a little looser. They wrinkle, too. I don’t know who put about the rumor that just old people wrinkle. You start wrinkling when you start sagging, as soon as you’re all grown up, and the process goes its merry way as long as you live. Which is hopefully a long, long time, right? Everybody on a massage table is beautiful. There are really no exceptions to this rule. At that first long sigh, at that first thought that “I can stop hanging on now, I’m safe” – a luminosity, a glow, begins. Within a few minutes the whole body is radiant with it. It suffuses the room: it suffuses the massage therapist too. People talk about massage therapists being caretakers, and I suppose we are: we like to look after people, and we’re easily moved to tenderness. But to let you in on a secret: I’m in it for the glow. I’ll tell you what people look like, really: they look like flames. Or like the stars, on a clear night in the wilderness.”
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DAY 15

GIVE IT UP FOR DAY 15

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fnaf-thechoco

You can only reblog this 12 times a year

Make the most of that

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Every month I reblog this and every month I’m baffled that it’s already the 15th.

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pumpkindobby

I’m scheduling this for every month

despite everything…..

I love that I have this little creature in my house and all she does is walk around looking for a new place to take a nap and stare out the window and throw up on my floor and I’m like I would Die for this creature. she is perfect. and I tell her I love her and in return she has no thoughts whatsoever

I love her so much look at her she’s so cute okay

thank you everyone for loving my beautiful baby girl I told her she was famous on the internet and she just stared at me as her single brain cell bounced around her peanut brain

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forever kill the idea in your head that scientists approach their fields coldly and don't see the joy in it because when my teacher who's a microbiologist showed me an image of a staphylococcus she told me "isn't it so beautiful?" and i can't stop thinking about it everytime i look at bacteria